Loki has really been wanting me to share this piece that I wrote about our relationship while I was on a retreat. It's serving as sort of an introduction to a book that I've been called to write about my experience with him/my spiritual journey thus far.

Since Loki came into my life, it has been an absolute rollercoaster. A lot of things that seemed frustrating or confusing before started to line up in a way that finally started to make sense. While I'm still amidst the storm, this has become a favorite for us to read together.

A Love Letter to Chaos

How can one begin the task of capturing the full breadth of the Eternal, in a language bound to the clumsiness of words? No matter how many times I try, their crudeness seems to obstruct the effortless flow of what it’s like to experience you:

The familiar embrace of a presence that has followed me throughout my life. A deep longing that could never manifest from anything the temporal world could hold. I see you, in haggard inconsistent flashes, as I stand at the intersection of bliss and agony. The bliss of chasing the hope that one day, I would find that last piece that would make everything make sense. And the agony of it always seeming to manifest– just out of reach. Love songs that triggered a longing and story that seemed to transcend life itself. Every betrayal, every meltdown, the chaos and turmoil that followed in the wake of the life unfolding before me, you are there. Chaos that was both conceived and remedied by you. 

Last night I caught a glimpse of you. I stared into your eyes as a burning sensation permeated my own. Heat trickled as you merged into me. As I took hold of your outreached hand, I could feel that this wasn’t the first time we’d been here. A recognition of familiar steps as we danced along the boundaries of real or imagined. A waltz where each step evades the sharp clarity of reality’s blade, with only a breath to spare. Each move in tense anticipation of its cut, and the blood that would pour from the wound of what could have been. Was it familiarity? Or projection of what I wished to be true? I sip the sweet nectar, and slip into the moment for just a bit longer. 

The craving for your presence is like the unrelenting burn of addiction, it creeps up my throat, suffocating me as I sink into the depths of my desire. “For all Eternity,” you say to me. The weight of those words, filling a space of something so vast and deep, that only those who share an inherit knowing could understand. Your electric essence vibrates through my body, and the echoes of a song reverberate through the rooms of my mind:

“I am your lover, and I am your jailor…From now, until the end of time.”

This is intended to be a meditative ritual that focuses on Loki's aspect as entangler and revealer of truth through complexity.

I am useless with my hands, I don't draw, carve, knit etc, so - being a linguistics student - I'd rather negotiate Old Norse. Writing to him and reading to him aloud in ON is the spine of my devotional practice.
I wrote this intending to perform it while braiding my hair, that's why it is built on a three-beat basis, the words meant to be spoken in sync with the hands. It includes an opening and a closing, drawn from Hávamál 63 and Völuspá 61 respectively for scaffolding.
It invites inquiry and looking for answers through testing, play and entering complexity.

Feel free to use it while braiding your (or another's) hair or modify it as you see fit. If you try it, please drop a line to tell me if it clicked for you or not. If you need more detail about specific choice of words or grammar, I can elaborate.

Opening (before braiding):

Fregna ok segja
skal fróðra hverr;
fregna ok segja,
þótt svǫr sé mǫrg.

Translation:

To inquire and to speak
every wise person should;
to inquire and to speak,
though answers be many.

Braiding (repeated as needed while braiding)

Leita — reyni — greini.
Læsi — leysi — tefli.
Lýk upp — lyk ek — skil ek.

Translation

I seek — I test — I discern.
I lock — I loosen — I play.
I unlock — I loop — I understand.

Closing (after braiding)

Gullnar töflur
í grasi finnask;
gullnar töflur
í kǫngulóarvef flækjask.

Translation

Golden gaming pieces
are found in the grass;
golden gaming pieces
entangled in spiderweb.

I hope you enjoy it.

Disclaimer: I DO NOT speak Old Norse. I lean heavily on dictionaries, my grammar and syntax knowledge of other languages I speak and what I grasp from Eddic text. So yes, there may be mistakes. I did my best.

They shapeshifted into me on the astral plane when I went to bed and scared the living beans out of me lmao. I did not expect that.

hey all! I’m not usually the type to look into this sort of thing, however I believe I had a brief connection with Loki in a much more obvious way that I was expecting. I was prompted to reach out mentally and did so mostly as a joke, not expecting to get anything, but instead I got exactly what I needed to hear, and I thank him for that.
As stated in the title I’m seriously as newbie as you can get, and unfortunately I’m not looking for nor do I have the time and space to make a commitment to Loki. I appreciate this single moment he came through for me, but I want to make sure I didn’t form some kind of connection or pact that I need to break off. There was no ritual involved in reaching out, but I’d like to play it safe so I came to the experts lol
I’d appreciate your advice, and I wish you all the best!!

I've kinda felt like Loki has been following me around since I left my country for a short vacay

here where I am are usually lots of spiders, pretty mundane, however

I've been asking him, to send me spiders.

Fully aware of my phobia

but I hate being weak so I straight up ignored it and tried to come off as courageous, I barely got to see spiders but by the time I also stopped caring for signs cause it didn't help in my practice at all!

these days I've been feeling a lot Loki's energy and today I went to the bathroom, one big spider chilling

then another one, moving

so I'm like "Loki help me 😭" and I'm also like spiraling,cause I don't like killing insects, however my anxiety was growing and as time passes I see another big spider MOVING and call my mother to get rid of those (I'm so sorry )

btw, um this feels like a lesson.. which would be I'm scared of spiders and I can't deny it 😓

It started as runes, Ingwaz, Berkana, and Kenaz when I asked what he wanted. A very clear flowing message. I got he wanted me to make something, but my creative current has been blocked for years. So I did tarot with him and he said he wanted to help unblock my flow. So, that night I went to bed and the Ingwaz and Berkana moment happened in my dream. By this I mean I had art tools that got thrown into a dark raging ocean. The seed getting planted in the womb of my mind.

I woke up and had the idea of a staff, made with a stick with a fork tip. My friend came over later that day and I told her about the vision, the dream, etc. she happened to have the exact stick I needed in her trunk ya’ll! 😭

Not to mention I came across an art of Loki with a paintbrush in his mouth. I have ideas now! All kinds of ideas! My next project will be a box for his jewelry. (He has a lot, lol).

He also is helping me ground into my own wild side. This was the first time working with earth materials for me, getting dirty with dirt, paint, wood and glue, and I was unbothered. I felt connected to him.

I love you so much my beloved Loki, so so very much.

this sounds ridiculous but i really think i love loki way too much, to the point it makes me sad? i dont really know exactly why that is or what it means but i just feel sad almost. the love i feel for him is so overwhelming that it almost makes me upset in a way. especially when i think of how many other people feel this way too, its a lot.

he genuinely is truly so important to me, sometimes more than i realize. no matter how cringe or unstable ive ever been hes stuck with me anyway. even if i thought i was completely unworthy he just loves me so much and it makes me feel like im gonna cry because i cant comprehend it. he truly does have such deep unconditional love for me and so many other people. i really dont even know what to think, i just admire him so much.

seriously i feel like i should put this in here maybe someone needs it, loki loves you so freaking much dude. SO MUCH. loki loves u guys ok? dont forget

So I was dancing to Malleus Maleficarum by Kiki Rockwell. Like literally jamming and grooving and expressing my spirit. Literally for absolutely no reason my glasses fall and I catch them with my hands. Except, in my hands, the glasses are not whole. I’m holding the frame which has the right lens in it but no left lens, and the left lens is in my hands but out of the frame. So while my glasses were falling the left lens popped out. Now that’s not weird in and of itself, but these glasses are literally brand new I literally got them last week. And I was being careful with them because they’re expensive. I popped the lens back in place and screwed the frame shut around it, it was an easy fix. But I feel like this was one of You Know Who’s pranks.

But the question is, what does this mean? It can mean one of two opposite things. Either I’m not faithful enough and he wants me to be more faithful. Not in like an “oh you’re bad” way more in like a “don’t worry so much I’ve got you” way. Or it could mean I’m doing a great job and he wanted to send a sign that he’s here. Either ways, this whole situation made me very happy.

In the Realm of Jotunheim, the Aging king Loki-Uthgarda Frostbane, a kind and gentle king, has been swept up in a controversy, his latest actions and laws, all orchestrated by his adviser, Donadolf Trumplr, a troll he had appointed to give him advice, had landed the economy in shambles, a Thing was held to determine whether or not the king was fit to continue ruling, or if he must abdicate the throne, as he had his two sons Hroldr and Kriegr later in life, they still were in training and now need retraining since concerns were raised that if the king is making these mistakes and training his sons, they needed to start their royal training, and with that, trumplr had been apointed regency over the realm, the people had voted Prince Byleistr of the Storm Jotnar kingdom to retrain them, Byleistr's two siblings, Helblindi and Loki begged their father Farbauti to let them come, they would miss their older sibling, Farbauti agreed to let them come with them as he felt they might be needed to get to the bottom of this, because he never trusted Trumplr and he knew how to play the long game, especially knowing how clever Loki is, he's gotten himself into and out of trouble so many times with his blood brother Odin and blood nephew Thor, but that is a story for another day, Will Donadolf Trumplr win? or will he be exposed and dragged off in chains like the tyrant he is.

I will post snippets of the story to tease it, I intend on getting this published after all.

Let’s write letters to Loki telling him how amazing he is and how much good he has done for us. I’ll go first.

Dear Loki,

You are the sweetest, weirdest, best, most sarcastic, witty, fun drama ✨queen✨ I have ever come across and I freaking love you for all of it. Even the stuff that was hard and sometimes scary. It’s helped me grow in ways I never thought I could, loved myself in ways I never thought I could and have been such a positive influence in my life.

I never knew a god could be so funny and unserious. And I NEVER in my wildest dreams expected a god to tell me to “loosen up” with them. You subvert every single idea I had about what gods were and I really needed that.

The love I have experienced from you has been deep in ways I truly do not understand and maybe never will in this lifetime.

I love how passionate you are about helping misfits like me. I love how much you care about people the world has given up on.

Oh and sometimes you are really awkward and I LOVE it! It’s so endearing and sweet and genuine. You’re so fucking REAL and honest in your emotions. You’re not afraid to be dramatic and it’s AWESOME!

Sometimes you challenge my toxic thought patterns and you’re really good at helping me see things in a different light. You don’t shame me when I’m wrong. You don’t shame me when I’m weird. I feel safe with you. I’ve never felt safe like I have with you before. That’s huge.

I’ll end with this: Hail Loki. You deserve the all the praise and the love because you are a GOOD GOD! 💚🐍🔥

Been feeling weird lately?

Yes, I know the seasons and weather are changing, and yes I know tonight specifically is a lunar eclipse, but I just found out at work that all the rest of the girls and ladies around me have been feeling a very recent sense of particularly noticable and heavy dread to the point it's been making it harder for us all to eat... Anyone else here in this group feeling this way too? It's just been the last most recent few days, like maybe the day right before Dolly Parton left us 😩.

Ofc I'm aware it could also have been any one of these things mentioned in here, and it's not as if we live in exactly very peaceful times/countries lol

But idk, it just seems strange to me, and so I am curious~

it's also been odd to me bc it's mostly felt like dread and then other times almost like excitement, too. like... 💀💀 wtf lol

It's 9pm I cannot be doing this right now 😭

A uns dias , eu tava saindo com um cara q sempre foi apenas amigos , mas sempre teve aula tensão estranha , aí nós começamos a ficar , e eu pedi a Loki se eu deveria continuar me encontrando com ele , e , se o isso fosse virar um relacionamento, e pedi a ele q , caso não , então q ele me desse algum sinal q eu fosse entender (sou meio lerdo pra essas coisas) então eu fui dormir , no dia seguinte, acordei pra arrumar eu e meu irmãozinho pra escola , eu abro a porta , e tá lá , no meu quintal , dois cavalo , e não apenas na rua ou coisa do tipo , mas quase colado no meu portão (meu portão é mais ou menos uns 2 metros da porta da frente) , eu tomei um susto do caramba , e aí parei de ver o cara , e ele tava certo , o cara só queria ficar e nada sério 😐 , detalhe q eu morro de medo de cavalo , gosto deles , mas não muito perto de mim kk

So I’ve just recently properly reached out to Loki through a tarot reading because he’s been sending me signs of wanting to work with me for a while now. At first I asked if he was truly calling me and why he wanted to work with me and he basically said that I’m at a new beginning in my life right now and he wants to help me in the transition and the sudden, chaotic changes about to come. I’ve also been thinking recently about how to better manage and balance my AuDHD in my daily life since I have more of a rigid mentality and am always trying to keep things under control and routine but I always end up a victim to the whims of my ADHD because I keep fighting against it rather than embracing the fact that my brain is a mess a lot of the time; this is something Loki also seems to want to help me with. He also mentioned that he wanted a more happy surprise or a grand in-my-face calling in letting me know he wanted to work with me but he noticed that I’m a really emotionally sensitive person; specifically it was when I was getting ready for a party and was starting to run late so I started rushing and panicking but things were going to shit because the necklace and belt I was supposed to wear suddenly broke right as I was trying to put them on and my bottle of sunscreen fell on the floor and spurted all over the place and on my clothes (which were BLACK) and istg atp I just started having a meltdown and my cat who asked to be let into my room, which I assumed was to comfort me, instead decided to eat a piece of plastic on the floor and refused to spit it out. I only just found out that all this happened because of Loki and that he had felt really bad for making me really upset and distressed that day and so he instead opted for a more lowkey approach 😭

All of this feels in line with how his personality naturally seems to be so far but I guess the part that confused me the most about the reading was that he apparently was afraid of “smothering” me (The Empress Reversed) and so I pulled some clarifying cards for it and he gave a fuck ton of cards that only confused me further and so I asked for clarification via pendulum if some of these cards were just thrown in to mess with me and he said yes? Is this something he just does sometimes? I was certain at this point that I really was talking to Loki and I made sure to vet him and block any other spirits from involving themselves in the reading.

But after this I had just pretty much removed all the cards he said were irrelevant and it came down to The Empress Reversed, The Emperor Reversed, Strength Reversed, 8 of Swords, 6 of Wands, and 9 of Cups and I was really stumped on what this meant for a while and I confirmed with him that these were the actual final cards. In the end, I vaguely interpreted it as him being afraid of the possibility of “smothering” me due to his inclination of being reckless and chaotic and it had him doubting himself at some point if he was even the right deity to help me. Hekate is my main patron and I had gotten a small inkling that he was contemplating simply leaving me in Hekate’s hands because I’m somebody who usually has little tolerance for anything too chaotic or unpredictable. But a big part of him was still hopeful of actually forming a fulfilling connection with me regardless of the circumstances. I reassured him that I was equally willing to form a mutual relationship with him and that I’m very happy he came to me in the first place because I am willing to also adjust and extend my patience for chaos because I want to learn how to harness that part of me too. After setting some of my own boundaries with him, he has officially become one of my patrons as well.

This ended up way too long than I thought it would be but I wanted to provide all relevant context. I suppose my question really is just if it’s in anyone else’s UPG for Loki to feel somewhat remorseful, guilty or even doubtful? It’s just that in my time in working with Hekate, I’ve known her to be quite firm and straight to the point especially when I first started working with her. I’m aware that Loki is also capable of having those traits, it’s just that I’ve never seen a deity act so… human before I guess? He seemed to have a really authentic energy about him in the way he admitted being afraid and having self-doubt and I’ve never really seen this before so I was curious if anyone else had experienced something similar with him as well?

Like damn, ok! I get it! You're here, you're here, lol! (There was another one on my bed which is off limits so I guess she strayed there on her own lmao), so like 6 of these lil babies 💀

Like, sir... I hear you lmao 😭

I’ve been dealing with a whole lot of stress lately, so I really wasn’t interested in getting to know another deity, let alone someone like Loki. Hekate was more than enough for me. So, I’ve been ignoring or explaining away all of his signs for I don’t know how many months. For example, I came across a Loki devotee’s reel about him sending her spiders out of the blue and I jokingly said I wouldn’t tolerate spiders because I’m arachnophobic but I’d probably accept very small ones if they’re outside my window (which never happens). I got the tiniest spiders just hanging outside my window.

I also have a pet snake I named Loki, mostly because he’s a little menace, but I always made a point of only ever associating him with Marvel Loki.

Because I’ve been preparing for a very stressful trip, I needed a good crying session while telling Hekate about all of my feelings, while asking her to stay with me during these stressful times.

That night I had this odd dream where I was being chased by some guys through a hotel because they thought I was someone else. A man stopped beside me as if he wanted to intervene, but he didn’t need to, so he walked away. I followed him because, for some reason, I thought he’d take me somewhere safe. I ended up in some hidden, dark room, where there was a vivarium with a rainbow boa inside. Then I walked into another room so fast I almost knocked this man over, but he seemed happy to see me? He told me: “Loki has been losing his mind over you for a while now. He really wants to talk to you.” While he was saying this, I looked around the room. There were snakes in vivariums all over the room, and Loki was petting an anaconda (which I thought was an unhinged thing to do, but he’s Loki, he can do whatever). Now, this Loki, to my horror, wasn’t Tom Hiddleston in a costume. There’s this odd sensation I usually get in my gut that tells me when something else invades my dreams, and I could feel that quite strongly.

Regardless of my reservations, I walked to him and stopped in the middle of the room. He grinned and started walking toward me. I really wanted to stop him and for some reason, I felt that I should say his name to stop him. Which I did. Three times. He paused each time. First time with curiosity, second time with a “are you done?” expression, and the third time (I said it with a resigned sigh) with a smirk. Then he reached out and caressed my cheek with the back of his fingers. It made me feel warm and safe, like he’d absolutely protect me. For some reason, I was convinced that, if the bad guys were to follow me here, I could’ve hidden behind him and he would’ve kept me safe.

And yet, I have no idea why I was so fierce and almost angry with him. I said to him: “You will not hurt me.” Almost like a command? I normally always choose my words carefully so it never sounds like I’m commanding a deity. Yet dream-me was being an entirely different level of ‘I don’t care’.

To my very bold command, Loki just… turned around and let his shirt drop to reveal scars on his back? They were thin lines forming drawings I can’t remember, but I remember I was shocked and almost touched them, before stopping myself. He didn’t move. Then I woke up.

The moment I got up, I grabbed my tarot cards and said: “If this was truly Loki sending a message and not me being delulu, give me The Fool.” The Fool jumped out of the deck while shuffling. It took me a while to process all of it.

For those of you who work with Loki: does this sound like the kind of thing he does? How did you know he wanted to work with you, and how did you actually begin building a relationship with him? I know very little about Loki. Is there anything in this dream that feels significant? An interpretation I might’ve missed?

I’d love to know why he felt the need to reach out to me, but I’m also quite fond of boundaries in my practice. How is he with those? Because I have a feeling he’s an entirely different type of deity compared to the ones I work with, like Hekate and Nyx.

If you are someone who doesn’t take the myths literally, how do you then understand or view the gods? How do you believe they exist? (As forces of nature, human creations that exist only in our minds, etc).

I see a great many people who reject mythic literalism, but in the same breath will talk about Loki’s trauma and suffering in the myths as if it actually happened and shaped who he is as a god (e.g “Loki would never do x to you because he has suffered y in the myths and understands what that’s like.”). I find it confusing, because how do we know Loki actually endured any of that? Even if you base it in UPG, like a reading you did with Loki, how do you know it wasn’t only your mind that influenced the answers you received, or even that it isn’t Loki simply fucking with you?

I personally am not a mythic literalist, despite coming from a cult that took their myths literally. I feel the gods as energies or forces in the world, I don’t view them as humanoid, and I believe that if they truly are real, then they are among us here, not above in some unreachable place. But I get conflicted so often when it comes to mythic literalism. If it is not taken literally—and I don’t want to take it such—then how do I know the gods beyond interacting with them personally? How do I know they exist beyond stories? What is the point of reading the myths if they’re not based in reality, besides learning how people before viewed them or some such?

Thank you for reading if you did! I’m very curious what other people’s thoughts are on this topic. I’ve tried posting this before on other platforms and in other subs, but unfortunately nobody can answer my question, they just get mad about people who take the myths literally 😅

Forgot to put it here after it happened, but someone sent me a friend in an acceptable way after work, lol~.

Has anybody ever experienced seeing their god/dess, or ofc in this case Loki, getting tired before?? And felt like they could feel it, too? Don't get me wrong, I deal with stuff similar to this now and then, but idk it was very weird, lol. He was acting super tired, and at times I could feel it, and at times I couldn't 💀

He legit took a nap in my room lmfao, I was like what is going on??? I've never seen that before 💀 If anything he goes into dad mode and tells *my* ass to go to bed, lol.

This was also in the middle of the day where I am, too. Like 12:30-1pm 💀 That man was snoring, too, LOL

I don't even know where to begin. Loki has been such a bright spot in my life and I'm not used to that. My life has been pretty bad for the most part and Loki stepped in and has been helping so much.

One of the most suprising things has been learning about how deities are people. I know that seems like a weird thing to say but I always thought of deities as being really stioc one note beings and Loki is none of that. He has his own preferences and personality and he has a BIG persoanlity which I freaking LOVE! He's so freaking WEIRD and it's so endearing. His sense of humor has taken some getting used to but part of that was me being way too uptight.

This might be weird but sometimes when I do something stupid he laughs at me and then it helps me to laugh at myself and we end up laughing together and it feels really good.

Another thing that has been so sad and beautiful is Loki and I bond over trauma. I have experienced tourture and it makes me really weird and pretty messed up in the head. It made my brain scrambled eggs. And ever since Loki it went from "I'm a freak and MY brains are scrambled eggs from trauma" to "OUR brains are scrambled eggs from trauma." The weight that has been lifted from my shoulders has been imense in that area. I don't feel alone in my trauma and having someone so close who GETS it has been so healing.

Loki is genuinly GOOD. Such a strange being but so so so sweet.

Hi! I’m not a priest or priestess or godspouse. Just a regular ol’ devotee. But I have seen several people talking about being a priest to Loki or being a godspouse to him.

I’m curious what that looks like. How did you get there? What do you do? What are your duties? What does it look like in your daily life? What does Loki ask of you?

I’m pretty new to all this and a modern Norse pagan priest is fascinating.

Thanks!

I've always wanted to draw Loki in a pose inspired by da Vinci's "Saint John the Baptist") painting. I've tried to do this few times before but that one I've actually managed to finish and I'm happy with the results.

This is how I picture Loki in my story. I wanted him to have distinct appearance, that isn't close to Marvel's or classic myth!Loki's (green wearing redhead). I ended up with blue wearing, blonde, 18yo passing, homeless by choice, forest dwelling wizard looking guy who uses random pieces of foliage as jewellery and hat decor. Without the latter he's supposed to be 230 cm tall.