r/AskingAlexandria • u/1c4meron • 4d ago
Reckless & Relentless
I listened to Reckless & Relentless again today (because the first track on Dragged Under’s new EP sounds reminiscent of this disc - specifically Tony’s vocals).
I remember when this album came out. I was like 22 and about to go on my first deployment. I had never heard anything that hit me like this did (except for Stand Up & Scream, which I discovered in tech school after graduating basic). Danny’s studio vocals are fucking incredible. As is the mix/master of these early discs.
Despite already feeling fucked for all the people I dropped bombs on halfway around the world based on lies, after getting out, my best friend killed himself in 2018. Followed closely by my other childhood best friend. Followed, yet again, by another. I sunk into arguably the worst phase of my life - heroin, Dilaudid (iykyk), basically the most reckless self sabotage ever.
Some of my favorite music carries these themes. Self destruction, sorrow, loss, recklessness - but over the years I’ve come to believe that what you put in is what you get out.
It made me think about all the bullshit that Danny went through. Drug and alcohol addiction, legal problems, losing the band, inability to hang live with vocals and getting trashed by media (mainstream and social, alike). So much of his lyrical content (especially in the early days) is about self destruction. Singing that over and over and over is basically mixing intention with emotion to the words he’s yelling into existence.
I wonder why I am still so attracted to this kind of shit. The music that makes me FEEL the most, is usually this, NIN, and the like. I can’t help but wonder why that’s so tempting and if it really does have an impact on what we create in life. Why is there an itch that only songs like “Dear Insanity” even come close to scratching in my brain?