I failed my exam. In my eyes, it's a failure—a 78.73, leaving me with a 79.79 overall grade average right now. I have never received an exam grade below 86 in my LPN program or my bridge program so far. For my exams, this is the lowest of the low. I feel like I deserve it, and that it was my own fault. I was on the verge of dropping out last week, unsure if I could make my schedule work between financial logistics, childcare logistics, missing a class, squeezing in appointments, and working as a nurse while exhausted, which threw off my homework time at night. I crammed homework in the last few days. Sleep wasn't as bad last night—I managed to get 6 hours, which actually would have been my second night of getting 6 hours of sleep in the last few weeks. Normally, I go to bed at midnight and wake up around 4:00 or 4:30 AM on the days I work, and 5:00 AM for schoolwork on the days I don't work. I have every Thursday off this semester planned out to do homework, but having to make up a clinical two Thursdays ago threw everything completely out of whack. I hope to bounce back, but I am nervous that my instructor wants to talk to me after class.
I am also really worried about my grade for the group project. I started research, but I can't do anything else until I have a free Thursday to work on it, and I can't meet up with my group due to intense time constraints.
Last week, I felt like it was the end. Babysitting options ended, financial options ended, and I was expecting my mom to go through 5 days of radiation therapy for 10 weeks max during the fall semester while trying to figure out how to repay my work the money back. Then I reached out to them to see if they could make any changes. I don't know.
I figured it out today. At the moment, I may need to miss one clinical and one more class this semester, but outside of that, finances are in order. Tentatively, I need to get some permanent childcare set up by November, but I have time on the waitlist for a few daycare centers and found a drop-in daycare center I can use in the interim for four hours a day if I need to.
If I try to switch clinical dates now, can it really mess things up financially because I have to drop work hours? Furthermore, changing my clinical dates will affect my study time. At the moment, having clinicals on Wednesday this semester and next semester is the best option with my childcare lining up. Outside of reducing my hours, I would almost have no days off to catch up on homework and would be cramming homework in at odd hours of the early morning and late nights. I am not sure what to do if they are okay to switch my clinical date. Do I accept it after causing such a fuss—wondering if this can even be changed—or should I explain my current situation?