Me+Disability=Failure

[u/primusofbladezzz]

Me, Male 26, born with Autism. Never realized how much it would effect me and my job. Today got write-up from my boss because I managed to make one little mistake at work(Not explaining what it is), and now the work place is at the stage of revaluation in 2 weeks. With Autism, I tend to forget things, even the little things. And now I feel like a complete failure because with my past jobs and my current, especially with my family. I always make mistakes, I feel like a burden, I feel like "Why am I on this world making people frustrated?". At this point, idk what to do anymore. And with how my life is, I can't even think any jobs would take a man with a disability. Like some would say "Try YT, might make a living out of it". A big might that is, and YT requirements on making a living has gotten even more ridiculous at this point, not to mention I wanted to start YT when I was 17, till my parents scold me down saying "People can't make a living off YT, don't be like those people". I just wish I was never born, I wish I can be perfect at everything I do.....