The title doesn't do it justice. I'm not saying it's bad. I thoroughly got hooked at first, started reading shortly before I should go to bed and instead stayed up well past bed'o'clock even though work was waiting for me in the morning. But the further in I got, the sloppier or childish the writing seemed. Don't get me wrong, I love some power tropes, bro-fiction. I'm just a man. But I still feel like it's going too far. Up until Eo dies, I loved it. His love for her was deep, and beautifully written. It seemed like it was setting up for the typical chosen one path where a peasant rises above, all carried by his love for his late wife. But once she died, things turned a bit weird:
- He quickly "died" shortly after, in like what, a page or two later? No build up. I thought it was just a dream at first because I couldn't believe this was supposed to further the plot. Not a big deal but just threw me off a bit.
- Not two minutes after coming back, was he describing a new woman "Harmony" as "even more beautiful than Eo." Took me by surprise, but I just took it as the writer adding exposition for the reader to describe a central character.
- Not long after that, a Pink "Evey", or something along those lines, was suddenly very beautiful and worthy of a few sentences of praise.
- Then what, 10-20 pages after that he is clearly full on crushing on a new girl whos even a Gold. All of this when his wife, who he had undying love for, willfully died for him by the Golds - to instill something in him.
- I was expecting deep sorrow that he will carry with him for a long time and work through. Sure he has spite and anger but it reads more like angst than literally existential sorrow and losing his wife.
- He is introduced to this massive world above which I really liked, I thought this is it. This is where it sets up for all the future books with intrigue, and world building. A complex life of struggle where he works to raise his people up. So when he reaches the carver and suddenly is supposed to be turned into the literal gods of this world, it threw me way off. I would have expected something like that two, three, books from now.
- I brushed that off as well and just assumed it would instead be this agonizing ordeal that will sever him from himself, and require ages of work to process and get through, but not without leaving deep scars. Nope two pages, a StrengthOMatic 3000, and a Rocky montage, later and he is now "pulverizing rocks with his hands" and is perfect in every sense of the word. Not only is he perfect, he is beyond perfect, he is the epitome of not just men, but Golds. This vestige of beauty, strength, intelligence, ... angst..., reflexes, cunning.
- A couple of sentences in and he is now training how to ride a horse and suddenly he is taking the dreaded test, which I must have blinked and missed because I don't even remember how he got there.
All of this is coming from someone with proper ADHD and someone who can only read fast paced books preferably in first person like Project Hail Mary, The Martian, Dungeon Crawler Carl etc because I can't keep my interest otherwise.
Now don't get me wrong, this might seem like a hateful post that I made only to hate on the book, that's not what this is. I genuinely want to enjoy this book because it did grip me and I want to keep reading. But I am feeling myself losing interest with all these whiplashes where it just feels like the author handed over the keyboard to his little nephew. So I'm here to ask if I should keep reading or if I probably will end up not liking it anymore? I don't mind some bro fiction, boy becomes a man, frisson-inducing battle cries, pinterest-worthy quotes. In fact, I need some of that dopamine to keep reading books. But I still need to feel like this is written for me, an adult man, and not by Jake from 9th grade who loves power spikes and pokemon evolution scenes (I mean who doesn't though, I love them too.)