Feeling so alone

[u/Ok_Cup2936]

I’m feeling so alone. My brother left us four months ago. This week has been extremely hard. I cannot focus on my work, I used to love my job but now I just like don’t care. I really miss him so bad. He always balanced somehow my life. Today I got home and my husband was a bit upset and it somehow made me react so badly, I just started to cry because I have realised there is nobody out there anymore for me who truly cares. I have noone to call or visit when I feel alone. I do have my mum but she struggles with the grief too, we will never be the same as we were before when my brother was alive. The family we had is ruined. My niece is traumatized. Everything is collapsing. I really have a feeling I don’t want to continue although I don’t plan to leave. But it would be so easier to leave. Nothing matters anymore. No colours in my life anymore, no taste. All is numb.

[u/NoHandyMan]

I walk with you numb. Since my daughter and her partner drowned on vacation together in March 2026 my world has went black and my life feels over. Like you, I feel like my family is ruined and joy seems impossible. Still. We walk forward one foot in front of the other.