Iām 28M and have been working for around 4 years. For the last 2 years, Iāve been working at a very early-stage service-based startup. Weāre only 4 people, and my current in-hand salary is around ā¹1.5L per month after deductions. Apart from a yearly bonus, there arenāt really any extra benefits.
Iām the eldest son in the family, and my fatherās business took a big hit after COVID and still hasnāt fully recovered.
Ever since I started working, Iāve had some responsibility or another. I helped pay off my two elder sistersā marriage loans, cleared some of my fatherās debt, and I currently support my two younger siblings as well. One is in Class 12 and the other is in the final year of her masterās. Last year, I also spent money renovating some parts of our house.
After all this, I finally felt like my liabilities were reducing and maybe I could start focusing more on my own financial future.
But recently, we had a land-related issue. We sold our agricultural land for around ā¹22L and bought another piece of land for ā¹25L, and I contributed the remaining amount.
The problem is that the agricultural land was originally bought by my grandfather, and he is very emotionally attached to it. That land is now worth around ā¹32L, and he wants me to buy back at least ā¹20L worth of it.
That would most likely mean taking a loan of around ā¹20L.
And this is where Iām getting really stressed.
My father feels that since I earn ā¹1.5L in hand, I should be able to manage the EMI comfortably. But I havenāt fully explained to him how unstable my job actually is. We are a tiny startup, and I donāt have the kind of job security where I feel comfortable taking on a huge long-term loan.
If I had a stable job, maybe I would have considered taking the risk. But right now, the thought of carrying another big liability for years genuinely scares me.
At the same time, I feel guilty because I understand my grandfatherās emotional attachment to the land.
My mom and I were also planning to renovate the upper floor of our house gradually, and she is worried about my marriage as well. Personally, I was hoping that after four years of handling family expenses, I could finally save properly and maybe buy a car for myself sometime in the future.
For some personal finance context, I invest around ā¹20k per month in mutual funds and another ā¹5k towards gold. Since my job is mostly WFH, my own expenses are relatively low, so I do manage to save. But most of my savings over the years have ended up going towards family debts, education, house expenses or some unexpected responsibility.
I donāt have an issue supporting my family. Iāve been doing it willingly.
But Iām starting to feel like every time one liability ends, another one appears, and I never really get the chance to build financial security for myself.
Am I being selfish for not wanting to take a ā¹20L loan?
Would you take this risk in my situation just because the land has emotional value for the family, or is it reasonable to finally draw a line and say I canāt take on another major liability?