Question from a scared Protestant
To preface this, I’m making this same post on Catholicism, orthodoxy, and Protestant subreddits to see what your responses will be
I’ve been Protestant my whole life (19 years) and I would say I’ve been seriously following it for the past 8 or so years. Up until recently, I never really questioned my salvation. I believe that I am saved by Gods grace and his grace alone and that because Jesus died on the cross, He has washed my sins away and allowed me to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Because of Gods grace, mercy, and my love for him I follow his commandments and try to love him with all my heart, soul, and mind.
I’m not really sure what triggered it, maybe it’s seeing a lot of catholic and orthodox videos on instagram, but I started to question my salvation. Catholics and Protestants disagree on what’s necessary for salvation, and it’s made me question if I’m really going to heaven. **I’m absolutely terrified.**
I can’t fathom even spending a day not in Gods presence, let alone eternity. Obviously I’m not perfect and I sin and push God away at times, but I still repent and try to stay close to God. But I’m terrified of the idea that I might go my whole life thinking I’m living for God thinking I’m saved by his grace, and then on judgement day I’m cast into hell because I didn’t hold the same beliefs as Catholics.
Both Catholic and Protestant church’s are full of people who have dedicated they’re lives to interpreting scripture and Jesus’ teachings, yet they still disagree on what’s necessary to be saved. There have been Catholics that have converted to Protestantism and Orthodoxy and vice versa.
I’m kind of just word vomiting everything that’s been on my mind but I’m just irked by the fact that all 3 major sects of Christianity (orthodoxy, Catholicism, and Protestantism) have had millions if not billions of people dedicate they’re lives to trying to find truth, yet we still disagree.
I trust that God is perfectly just and merciful, but what if I’m wrong. Will I have wasted my life thinking I’m doing and believing what’s right just to be told “I never knew you” by God.
I’ve kind of put my life on pause for the past week or so because it’s hard to move forward not knowing if I’m saved.
I hope all Catholics, Protestants, and Orthodox make it to heaven. I like to think that hell is empty, but that’s just not true. I’m not just scared for my self, but everyone. How can we move forward with life not knowing the truth? How can we move forward not knowing who has it right? Does anyone have it 100% right?
I’m just so scared. I’ve had a hard time even trying to pray because I don’t even know what to ask. I’m sure millions of people have asked God to show them the truth and ended up Catholic, Protestant, or Orthodox.
I know none of this is really cohesive but I just don’t know what to believe. I don’t even know what the “right answer” would look like. I don’t really know what I’m asking I’m kind of just venting but anything would help.
Thank you and God bless!