school bus window during winter (ignore broken window image)

It's about carrying all the mental load/responsibility in a relationship or social setting and struggling with giving up the important tasks due to fear of others not being able to fulfill them and chaos ensuing as a result:

Arrows

Am I destined to be relied on

In such an unhealthy way?

Cause though I feel like I am dying

I'm forcing myself to stay

Right on this battlefield, my safety

Lies in usefulness, I guess,

So I am carrying these burdens,

I'm absorbing all the stress.

I try to shelter us from chaos,

From it all falling apart,

Have tons of arrows in my back now

And a riot in my heart.

Cause why do I always have to be

The one to act in defense?

Why am I so scared of letting loose?

Would that mean I lose my sense

Of importance and sufficiency

And rhe right to take up space?

If I stopped holding the arrows back

Would you gladly take my place?

Or would you judge me for not bleeding

Till there's no blood left to bleed?

Would you make me feel like a failure

For not giving all of me?

Given these supplies, would you rough it for a month on a deserted island?

Is why I return to Reddit daily.

PoV modern triple AAA video game are costly expensive so my standard turn moore picky when it come to purchase new video games especially storytelling, gameplay mechanic, memorizable character such as thick big long large bearded chubby male figure with fluffy beard accompanied with humorous interaction and amusing behaviour because NPC behavior design affect gaming immersion including soundtrack, environmental designing aspect, companion choice and romance option, meaningful relationship development with npcs, replayability, housing system, real impact choice in gamepIay story and consequence influence in worId from quest and mission. Me don't want to spend more than 70 buck and more than 80 bucks for mediocre video game and boring game play and bored non player character designs with no soul developed by big corporation with profit driven interest .