Fair warning, this is going to be a bit long
I met a guy, let's call him, Jim, at the beginning of this year and right away he started flirting with me and all that but pretty soon after we met, I had to leave the city and after I moved to a new state, I met a new guy (Paul) and got into a relationship with him quite quickly. Jim and I would text all night every night up until then and once I felt my relationship had gotten serious ish, I told Jim I can't talk to him anymore bc I was seeing someone else.
He thought I was just goofing around to try to "get rid" of him and didn't take me very seriously. I ended up blocking him. Months go by. My relationship with Paul ends unexpectedly. I leave that state, I move to another city. I haven't thought about Jim in manyyyy months. Like not a single thought. Nada. I suddenly unblock him and reach out to him again. Remember that at this point, we're living in two different cities and haven't spoken to each other in MONTHS.
however, within one week of talking to him, I got an opportunity to come back to his city. Very random, very unexpected. Within ONE WEEK. Mind you that I had absolutely no plans or intentions to return to this city. The day after I move to the city, he comes to see me. And a few days after that, we hook up. I had never been interested in this man. I'd never EVER imagined sleeping with him. I've never hooked up with a friend before and we'd never even been on a date or anything. The whole experience was nice but it felt very strange because I felt like things were just happening TO ME without me doing anything. Not too long after that we have a falling apart and I realised that I don't see a future with this guy and pursuing anything with him would be meaningless. I saw all of his red flags and intellectually, I knew he'd only hurt me. I have cut out many people from my life. I have good boundaries and I leave at the first sign of disrespect.
However, with him, no matter how many times I blocked him or tried to cut him off, he'd find a way to come back into my life and the fact that he'd make that kind of effort felt like he was genuinely obsessed with me. But the strange part is, even though I would coach myself to not reply to him or ignore him, I would often feel something outside of me, make me reach out to him. Like I'll have his chat open and I'll have replied to it as well and I'm like ???? Why did I do that???? I don't even remember doing that??? I went from not giving a damn about him to developing very strong feelings for him, seemingly out of the blue. Everytime I unblock and talk to him, it genuinely felt like somebody else was making me do it. I felt like I had no control over my own actions.
I watched the movie Obsession a while ago and it kind of finally clicked as to what was going on. I realised that he had done to me what Bear did to Nicki. (My situation is less dramatic, I'll admit). Then one time, we met and I'd always known he's spiritual and stuff but that night he told me that a few years ago, he really got into manifestation and would try different methods and used the list method to manifest his ex (from more than 5 years ago) to come back into his life. She was living abroad but she came back to the city and they met and had a brief thing and she ended up blocking him again.
Then he told me that he used to visualise making love to me in all those months that we were apart and admitted to manifesting me back into his life. He said he's always believed that I liked him and that no matter what I said or did, he never cared because he knew I'd go to him eventually. This is basically the law of assumption in a nutshell. Assuming as if and acting from your desire and living from the end.
Since I was madly in love with him (which he manifested) I didn't think of it as being creepy or unhealthy. No matter what he said or did and he's said and done some crazy awful things, I always looked at him in positive regard and never as an asshole which he very clearly is (I'm leaving out a lot of stuff he's done bc I don't want to make this too long). He literally always says "I can get away with things most people can't" aka he affirms it all the time.
This is a man who knows about manifestation, robotic affirmations and all that. Idk if he uses subliminals but I wouldn't be surprised at all if he did.
Being someone's SP feels weird in the sense that my logic and my actions are at odds with each other. I developed feelings for him out of NOWHERE. I started romanticizing the most trivial things he said or did. I felt like his puppet because I was doing whatever he wanted me to do but I didn't mind it at all. For the most part, I really liked him and nothing seemed to affect me.
There would be times where I felt more lucid, like the spell was wearing off (like that time in Obsession where Nicki addresses Bear and asks him to just k1ll her) and I'd be like ??? why am I doing this??? what's happening??? why did I even say that or behave that way???? It was a bizarre, confusing experience and my heart breaks for Niki in the film because I felt like I was being led down a path like that and I had no control over it.
Obviously, everybody has free will. And even if someone's manifesting you, you can still choose to not be with them. I've been listening to safety and protection subliminals nonstop so that I'm not pulled back into it and it's kinda working.
I just want to say, please don't manifest someone unless you're 100% sure you'll treat them well and commit to them and live a stable life with them. Manifesting someone just to toy with them is EVIL and cruel. You made them obsessed with you, now you need to take responsibility for it, just like Bear.
