Will shroom puff pre rolls help me taper off weed?

i have a pretty bad cig addictns i am rn short i only have one pack left i do keep my snipes or cig butts in a jar in case im really in need i dont have money and i used to steal but my dad found out and am locked up like grounded i cant go outside to get more cigs and i dont know what to do any help or tips i really need it

So I recently overdosed on fentanyl I knew there was fent in the heroin but I was told it was very little (yes Ik dumb decision) but ever since then I can’t stop thinking abt it waking up with the oxygen mask on hearing my buddy who oded with me and woke up first crying my name to see if i was okay bc i was gone for way longer and was technically dead for a couple seconds Idk what to think It feels like some type of life was sucked out of me and I can’t stop thinking abt it my motivation is gone and i’ve sober for about 3 days since it happened but i can’t stop thinking abt doing drugs again and how blissful i felt before I ultimately overdosed Idk where to start back up again I feel like my life is fucked idk i talked to him abt it but he doesn’t seem to be as traumatized as I was idk ik this is just a shit post that people won’t read but i’m so lost and don’t know what to do

I’m having such a hard time with the guilt. He overdosed and it’s so hard not to blame myself. We had been off and on for about 6 years. I loved him so much. I just couldn’t live with him while he struggled through relapse because I couldn’t put my daughter through that. Both of my parents were addicts. Both are gone. My dad overdosed when I was 7. My mother overdosed when I was 22. I will always choose my daughter. She’s 8 now. I know I had to choose her. But I feel like I abandoned him. I don’t know what I really am looking for from this post. I guess just writing it down. I don’t know how to live with this guilt. He deserved so much better.

as the title says - how can i manage those cravings? for better context: I'm AuDHD and few years ago have been prescribed medikinet, last year i started abusing my meds and now I'm trying to get out of this.

i have my last box of meds because I'm changing them for obvious reasons. unfortunately, i admit that i abused previous box every now and then. but now i seriously want to quit this shit. but i have cravings, it's obvious with every addiction or close to addiction. i don't know how to manage them at all.

I’m currently abusing the fawk out of dexies and I don’t get anything out of it anymore, like I took 14 x 5mg at 3pm today, felt nothing so took another 17 x 5mg at 5pm and all I got from that was feeling like not but dry mouth, clenching my jaw, and me nearly fainting every time I stood up

I then proceed to take my last 15 dexies at 8pm because I was like well might aswell use them so I can quit them today
This total to 46 dexies
The last time I took this much I overdosed

My problem with quitting is, my brain keeps searching for a high, to feel manic again— in which I’ve had an acute psychosis just over 1 year ago where I was manic for awhile

I just like I want good physical and mental health but I feel incapable of being doing work I need to do
But I do think this is the effect dexies have brought on my brain so I’ll just have wait n strengthen focus tolerance

Ik that if I keep this addiction any longer I’ll overdose and again and it could most likely be fatal next time

anybody have advice ?
Reflection questions I can use?
What mentally worked for you in seperating yourself from drugs

Hi everyone. I've wanted to make a post on this sub for a while. I am not really looking for feedback considering I have heard it all having been to three rehabs and been inpatient several times. I really think I just need to feel less alone in my addiction. To know someone else out there understands can truly make such a difference.

My drug addiction began when I was around 22 (I am now 32 F). It all started with Xanax. Yes I was indeed a part of the Xandemic and went through a cold turkey withdrawal after taking at least 4 mg a day for over a year. I thought that was enough to scare me. It was not.

I eventually dipped back into it, every now and then. And of course, ended up hardcore relapsing. This is when I got a script for Adderall. I would have never thought that I would've loved a stimulant due to my extreme anxiety but I loved it, therefore abused it.

About a year ago, I got out of my second rehab. I was clean from all of it and very optimistic about my future. Then, my boyfriend broke up with me. I don't know why this was so hard on me. I loved him but I don't know if I was in love with him. I think I just felt a profound sense of rejection.

I relapsed again, taking 8 bars in one night. And at some point in the night, I smoked crack. It was a pretty big jump from just abusing prescriptions. But I did it and it felt good. And I often wonder if where I am now was directly connected to that decision.

Over the past few months, I have been unable to recognize myself. I feel myself slipping away. On a good day, I don't want to use. On a bad day, I will use any and everything I can.

I am writing this because I took meth a few days ago. And I didn't stop at once. I stopped after three times in which I was having bad paranoia and it wasn't fun anymore. And the kicker is, I took it the same day I got out of inpatient. I have lost control completely. Its not just something I can see. I feel it deeply. I used to be responsible, mature, I was straight edge and wouldn't even touch weed.

I hate what I've become. I should treat addiction like it is something that is trying to kill me, which it is. But, taking drugs makes me feel safe. Its hard to describe but its like, drugs aren't drugs to me. They feel almost maternal. Like, they're always there for me and they have been there when no one else was.

I want to say before I end this, I have tried to stop. As I said I have been to rehabs, I have worked the 12 steps, I have had therapists, done DBT, CBT, and ART, been inpatient etc. I have read books on it, went to NA meetings, and have been able to stay sober for a while. But nothing sticks. Today, I want to change. But I don't know what I will feel tomorrow. I don't know what I'll do tomorrow.

Thank you for reading. I hope your day/night is lovely. I appreciate you being here.

Like I get my prescription refilled on Thursday. You'd think I could survive till then, have some discipline, at least I still have those long-form morphine pills, they'd prolly keep me ok physically. But mentally, I just can't be without my Fent.

I realize it's gotten really bad the past few years. Before then I had other interests, now they all evaporated kinda, and back then it was like 5-7 hits a day, nowadays it's like 11-14 times a day.. (Was tying to go smaller, use less, make it last the 30 days despite IV-ing it, but yea.. The individual pieces got smaller but in turn hit-frequency just sneaked up lol. The spot where I don't have to restrain myself has always been 1 patch per day (~23mg) and I keep bouncing back there, and trying to go lower takes exponentially more effort the less I try to use.) But maybe it's not just that tho that caused the increase in use.. I'm just at home all the time and depressed since ~2 years, nothing to do or look forward to other than my fent..)

Anyway, I never used to have gaps and never even found a plug. But lost one source, and ever since I struggle (and it's not gonna go on like this forever anyway lol).. This time was bad, 2 weeks using, 2 weeks of nothing, And now I found this person who has some, very overpriced..(but there's just nothing to be found so really they can ask any price..), And I already wasted what little money I had tried to save up so preciously over the past few years since this change.. (just a few hundred bucks lolol but was better than being entirely broke). And now again.. and the ride is like 3 hours one way via train lol.

Anyhow, and ofc I couldn't wait till first train tomorrow, no I need it today even if that means I won't get home and will likely create some desperate, sketchy hitchhike situations for myself.. I'm just so stupid. My addiction is worse than I thought.. as long as you're covered you don't realize just how far you'll go, how deep you'll fall once you're out of stuff.

Edit: also I realize this is kinda a first world type problem compared to many other addictions. At least I have a home to go back to. But my luck willl run out too I'm sure.

Also feeling really alone and lonely (and kinda scared right now about being outside at night.) Which is why I post here. If anyone wants to talk..

I've been vaping THC every day for the past two years. I take in about 1-2 grams daily. I need to quit so my new medication will work well. I've tried quitting before but when I did I would violently shake, sweat a lot and I couldn't stop crying.

So how do I go about quitting without dealing with that...or do I just have to suffer through it?