I am wondering if there are ways I have not heard of, to “schedule” crying, for lack of a better way to say it.
I have been going through a lot personally, and have never been able to cry when it is the appropriate time, like at the memorial service of my own sibling, or when alone or after a bad fight with my partner or whatever, but it will come out eventually at a wrong time. I hate when I have to hide at work to cry or end up not being able to see while driving because I’m having another breakdown in my car. Or having awkward social interactions if it comes up.
As far as taking care of it the ways I know how, yes I have a therapist. I know my mental health is also behind this so I will address that in detail and am always open to more advice on that.
I meditate pretty regularly now, much more than I used to. I have improved my bloodwork with vitamin d, zinc and iron deficiencies now fixed. Everything is good except high ldl cholesterol, for two draws in a row it was like 4 points over. And on the hormones side, just high progesterone also bit out of range but doesn’t seem super high.
Also, in case any of what I take could be making me more “out of touch” with my emotions then that would be nice to know. Or if any of it might be negative for my mental health right now. what I take for vitamins/supplements:
Mucina pruriens 500-1000mg every other day, it seems to help my mood
Sun-chlorella 500 mg almost every day, keeps me regular and also seems to help my mood
Beta gulcan for hopefully lowering cholesterol, I just recently started that 1000mg split in two to take with meals
Vitamin d blend with lithium orotate, ashwsgandha, L-theanine almost every day
I also do NAD+ IM shots once a month 200mg for just the past two months and the energy seemed to last less the second time. But I did notice a boost. Now to save money and get more, I will be getting that amount in a week from smaller doses. Just got it prescribed on a self-injection plan instead.
I smoke a lot of weed, and some tobacco, and I vape. Yes, I know that is not great. I don’t drink at all. I got ahold of ketamine recently and have done it a few times. That helped my mental health to some extent. but the effects wore off pretty quickly and I can’t get ahold of that stuff cheaply or reliably anyway.
So, I am trying to take care of both my mental and physical health right now and get exercise and eat well on top of all this.
The idea of being able to control crying is fascinating to me, too! I have tried that trauma informed yoga and similar new-age stuff and massage for release, but it did not happen for me.
Thanks for reading all that if you did!