What if it doesn’t happen

[u/megettingkilled]

We have to consider the possibility…

[u/hotairballonfreak]

The empty black gave me such peace

[u/PolkHerFace → u/hotairballonfreak]

Yeah that was weirdly cathartic. 

[u/slfnflctd → u/PolkHerFace]

Another day, another unexpected reminder of the heat death of the universe and how nothing I do matters. Also, you know, the other thing.

Sigh

It's not the worst feeling you can have, I'll tell you that.

[u/Raise_A_Thoth → u/slfnflctd]

Thinking of the heat death of the universe does sort of make everything we do insignificant, but it's not, because everything we get to experience is an experience. That's what we get. And so it should be spent making good experiences for ourselves and others, as much as possible.

One day we will die. We might wonder if we mattered. I say your good experiences were still good experiences even if they are over. And, more importantly, if people in your life were touched by you, and they feel your presence in their life made their life richer, and you shared good experiences, then you absolutely continue to matter.

I have children. One day I'll die, and that's it. I'll be gone. How will my children remember me? Will it be someone warm, and sturdy, and caring, and curious? Someone who they felt made their lives better because I was there? Someone they want to emulate in some ways? Someone who believed in them and hopefully inspires them to never stop trying to be better?

If I can do any of those things without giving them serious conflicting feelings through physical or emotional abuse, then I'll be proud of what I've done.