I know this has been asked before but I'd really like to share my story and get any advice possible. I've made a lot of mistakes but I am determined to make up for them.
I adopted my dog Lucy from a shelter when she was 10 weeks old. Had no idea what breed or size she would grow up to be, but I didn't have a strong opinion either way. She turned out to be a pit mix and was the calmest out of her litter. I immediately began training her, starting with a puppy class. The class went great, but there were no other puppies in it. I made a point to take her in public and over to friend's houses so she could be around other dogs. She's my first dog so I really was winging it, but it was pretty easy because she is so smart and food-motivated. I did start to notice her getting uncomfortable and hyper-focused on other dogs when she was 5-6 months old but it wasn't extreme, just some whining and pulling.
COVID hit when she was about 1, and my partner is immunocompromised so we were extremely careful for the first year. That meant she had little to no interact with new people, and basically zero with any new dogs. I take full responsibility here for lapsing on her training. We did the usual sit/shake/down routine, but that's it.
When we did go back out into the world, I realized that she was now a full-blown reactive dog. I didn't think it would happen because I monitored her every move - we didn't go to dog parks, she never had a fight with a dog, she did great with dogs she already knew. So how could she be so scared? If she saw another dog, even from a distance, she would lunge and growl and bark her head off.
I looked up reactive dog training tips, bought a clicker, and tried to lower her threshold by taking her out in public and easing our way into seeing other dogs. She gave absolutely zero shits about the treats in those moments, and admittedly I got frustrated and gave up. 100% I did not commit enough to the time and consistency necessary to make a difference. She also started reacting at people coming into our house, standing there and barking for hours or until they left.
For the next few years, I just ignored the problem. I walked her every day and if I saw another dog coming, we turned around before she could react. I brought her to friend's houses to play with their dogs, but if someone got a new dog, that was it. I rarely had friends over and if I did, I couldn't enjoy myself because I was in training mode and apologizing and stressing out about her behavior. Walks around the neighborhood were miserable - pulling, constant vigilance, and avoiding any triggers. It sounds ridiculous now but I was hoping she would just grow out of it.
I finally reached a breaking point two years ago and hired a highly-recommended trainer in my area. When we met up, I learned that his technique included prong and e-collars. I was really against it and I wish I'd followed my gut, but he gave a very convincing pitch and I decided to be open-minded about it. I don't even want to talk about this period but I'm sure you can imagine. I felt guilty every time I popped the collar or hit the button. I was ready to quit but then I did see her behavior start to change completely. After a few weeks, we could go out in public and walk by another dog and she would actually ignore it. I spent hours every day training her and was starting to see it pay off. It wasn't enjoyable because I felt embarrassed and guilty having the "tools" in public, but I realized I didn't mind the time commitment so much.
Then one day, I had taken her collar off and got curious. I put it on my wrist and gave myself the higher end of a shock that I would give her. Everyone says "oh, it doesn't hurt, it's like a tickle". THAT SHIT IS NOT TRUE. It actually fucking hurt and after that, I couldn't bring myself to do that to her anymore. I did keep the prong because it helped with her pulling and kind of put her into "training mode". She also got way better with having guests over because the trainer taught us about putting her in place. So now I can get her to calm down in a few minutes sitting in place, and release her once she's ready. I'm at least grateful for that and the ability to have friends over again.
That brings us to now - she is 7 years old. Recently, she has started pulling on the leash on walks, as if the prong isn't even there. I hate "correcting" her with it, especially when she is ignoring me completely. I know my corrections weren't strong enough but I was so sick of hurting her. We came back from an especially bad walk last week, and I was so frustrated I was sobbing. I realized I needed to do something, and really commit to it this time.
I got the clicker back out and spent hours researching dog training strategies. I switched her prong to a harness, and for the past week, we have been working on loose leash walking and "look at me" using only positive reinforcement. Sometimes it's only 5 minutes, sometimes it's a whole hour. We've only made it to the halfway point of our usual walk, but every day I see small improvements, like we'll get a house or two further. And I actually ENJOY training her this way - seeing her figure things out in real time, and how happy we both are when she does something perfectly and gets one of her favorite treats for it. It really feels like it has clicked for me this time, and I am okay with slowly working our way up.
My question is: is there hope here? So far we have avoided most triggers (except for ignoring a cat, which was a huge deal actually) and she does perfectly. But in my mind, I'm picturing the first time we encounter a dog, and I just can't picture her NOT reacting at this point. Especially after 7 years! I guess my thinking is that when she eventually nails loose leash walking and "look at me", we can slowly introduce more triggers and eventually she... won't care about other dogs? Is this really possible?
Thank you to anyone who read this far and has any advice to offer.