So just for a little bit of backstory, I am a sophomore at a decently large university and I have been rowing since my freshman year of high school. I actually remember that when I started rowing at first I didn't care for it and the committment was frustrating me, but I got really close to my team and ended up loving rowing as a result. I rowed with that team for two years, and then had to move to another city and another team. That other team was different, and had more serious coaching, and there I discovered that I just wasn't very good at rowing and I have developed some really bad technique habits.
I don't really recall if it's because the coaching in my old team was eh or because I simply never paid much attention to it, because I just liked spending time outside with my friends. Anyway, in my new team I started actually trying to improve my technique, and despite making some improvements, they generally wouldn't stick because of how many bad habits I had that would cause me to default to bad rowing. As such, despite having fairly good times (like 7:07 for a 2k and about 23 minutes for a 6k. I am a 5'10 guy, and I know those aren't crazy results, but they are fairly decent), I would be usually put into weaker boats due to not having enough water technique (which I think is completely fair). I would still enjoy rowing and would keep trying to improve, especially as I went to my freshman year in college, where I didn't vibe with my teammates as well (we are friendly with each other, rhere's no beef or anything, just I haven't really managed to form any close friendships except with two guys who quit), but I've received more intense coaching and still enjoyed the act of rowing itself. Plus, I've done rowing for so long by that point that dropping it was something I considered the absolute last result.
I got closer with my new team over the year and have made some improvements, but would still be the technically worse rower on the team and the one the coaches would yell at the most during practice, and while it was disappointing at times, I still wanted to keep on going.
Now during my sophomore year, which just started, I'm really having trouble justifying continuing rowing to me. The addition of having to wake up to go to practice at 5am as varsity started having a toll on me within the first week, where I would be sleepy and tired during the day and have trouble paying attention in class. I could always power through inconveniences before (I was a fairly unathletic kid prior to taking up rowing and gain weight easily), but I started weighing my options and continuing to row just doesn't seem like it's worth it anymore. I enjoy rowing, but having to cosntantly look after and correct my technique often takes that enjoyment away. I like my teammates, but we're not really close friends. And me just not being a great rower is something I'm starting to feel more, as I realize that in order to truly improve I'll have to sacrifice too many things in my college life. I would have to go to bed early not just to be awake, but also to properly recover and become stronger. I can't really go out in the evenings or spend a lot of time with my non-rowing friends and my girlfriend. The dues, which I can afford, is just another thing that adds up when rowing is something that causes me so much problems as it stands. I realized that I only still want to row because I've done it for so long, and it will be really hard to let go. I now feel really sad, because I see that it's unlikely rowing is something I'll be able to keep up, but I really don't want to part with something that has been an inseparable part of my life for quite a solid chunk of it.
Sorry for this really long post, it was just hard to put all of my thoughts into one place. I'm not sure if I need advice, encouragement, or simply hearing someone's similar (or related experience). If you've read this far, thank you.
TL;DR I've always not been a great rower but the sense of community and the enjoyment of being on water made me stick through it. Having 6am practices as a college sophomore tipped the scales where it feels like continuing to row is simply just not worth it with all the difficulties it causes me.