Getting over breakup

[u/muuuu_6656]

Okay so I've had 3 bfs over the last 5-6 years

One cheated on me

One was nice to me for a long while, we broke up, we got back years later and he was a completely different person, he was also quite rude when we ended things, and I really wanted it to work out

He said things like are u done making me feel guilty or don't blame me if things go South, when I was just trying to raise my concerns

One was amazing he helped me study all that but towards the end he told me he wasn't over his ex although he initiated the whe relationship

And then I kept trying to reach out cause I couldn't move on and need to study for a huge exam, and yeah talking didn't work either, and he said I told you that itll hurt u, can I ghost u now.

Now all of these instances hurt me tm, they were all nice to me and helped me at some point but now it all just hurts.

Also cause I've always had someone while I studied my brain just believes I can't make it on my own and need an emotional support systems, who used to be my bfs, I have 2 more months of intense studying and idk how to get myself to believe that I got this on my own, and how to study 10 hours everyday while dealing w so many feelings.

Please helppp😭