r/venting • u/Little_Ad_9567 • 7h ago

Suicidal Thoughts Off my chest

I have been struggling for some time deriving any sort of good feelings or pleasure. I feel aimless and unfulfilled. I have a dead-end job, broke as a joke, my relationship is good but i feel guilty about being such a bitch sometimes, i end up being quiet and letting the day go by without letting him in truly. i just feel like i have failed at life, things are not in my control. im not even hysterical about it, but more matter of fact that i kind of want to end it all.

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u/feigned_appeasement 7h ago

That quiet, matter-of-fact numbness is harder to shake than any dramatic breakdown, I get it.

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u/opinionatedOptimist 7h ago

Have you ever heard of anhedonia? It’s horrible, but possibly part of what you could be dealing with based on what you said.

Please don’t take your life. You deserve to live and see things get better ❤️‍🩹