I read The Stranger as a teenager and came away thinking okayyyy… that was certainly a book
I understood what Camus was doing on paper, but emotionally? Nothing. I didn’t particularly like the book and I definitely didn’t understand why people seemed so affected by it.
Years later, I picked it up again because it kept showing up on my feed.
And weirdly enough, for most of the reread, I felt exactly the same.
Meursault was still Meursault. Still detached. Still observing everything with that almost unsettling lack of reaction.
Then I reached the final chapter.
And suddenly I was sitting there like wait. What the hell.
I kept underlining sentence after sentence:
“One always has exaggerated ideas about what one doesn't know.”
“I have never liked being taken by surprise…”
"There is no idea to which one doesn't get acclimatized over time.”
“I always began by assuming the worst.”
“Though I might not be so sure about what interested me, I was absolutely sure about what didn't interest me.”
None of these lines felt particularly profound when I was younger. Now they felt way too familiar.
I think the book changed less than I did.
As a teenager, I saw Meursault as someone who simply didn’t care.
All these hit very different when you've lived long enough to recognise those tendencies in yourself.
Not the dramatic kind of darkness either. More like the quiet, mundane kind knowing what you don't care about, expecting the worst because it feels safer, getting accustomed to things you once thought you couldn't live with.
And maybe that's why the final chapter hit me so much harder this time.
I don't suddenly think Meursault is “just like me” or anything that dramatic. But there were moments where I thought, oh. I recognise that.
Which honestly made the book considerably more uncomfortable than it was the first time.
Has anyone else had a book completely change on a reread? And if you've read The Stranger more than once, did the final chapter hit differently for you as you got older?