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[u/am-er-ina]

First, I had to point out that it is very possible that I have autism and ADHD.

I’m confused what enneagram I’m well I want to know what you think.

In very early childhood, I was more extroverted. That changed because of my traumas. When I was 9 years old, my contact with my dad, whom I loved very much, was interrupted (not completely but in a very large part) because he was violent towards my mother. And also bullying changed a lot in me (because of all this I lost trust in people, I started to want to be independent as much as possible, but I also learned not to worry about others)

I’m person that always is in their head but not in fake scenarios just isolating myself from the outside world (often about my interests) And I also feeling like I’m more observing world than being in the outside world. I can go outside but just when there isn’t many people and it isn’t very noise (like concerts) Idgaf and I do at the same time. Like sometimes if my room is absolutely messy I don’t even about it, but when it’s something small , I can even cry because of it. I often ignoring me needs (like eating, or going to bathroom) and I even can forget it, because I’m focused on something.

I’m lazy, but also a little bit ambitious. Like I want to have better grades, study more but after one day I just don’t want to do this anymore. I like learning about topics that interests me, and I want know as much as possible about it. But I don’t have any reason for learning about things (and that how they also not in a specific way)

Idc about relationships. I’m just like „If we not be friends anymore than okay” (I have only one person that I care about more) I don’t think there’s a person that fully know me (I me fully don’t either) I have tend to hide me emotions, but I also can angry from something very easy sometimes. I can’t do be things that someone told me that I have to do. I like giving advices, but I don’t like if someone gives me them. It’s just annoying to me. I love logic, and understanding things (and I hate things that don’t make sense) If something doesn’t make sense then my head is like „that’s wrong it have to be like …”I was always ignored, because I don’t like socialising (I have one friend and our spending time it’s mostly quite time
I love to know how something works, but if it’s in reality, I often accidentally destroy something while learning how it works.

(You can ask me more questions, because it’s a little short)

[u/Prudent_Doubt4238]

Maybe e5?

Curious what you mean by "destroying something while learning how it works."

[u/Trick-Permission-482]

I’d like to help tomorrow

[u/ImportanceNaive9944]

this reads most like a self-preservation 5, probably 5w4, but the autism/adhd and trauma can explain a lot of the sensory issues and executive dysfunction so don’t type yourself from those alone