Never done any martial arts before. I’m 25, in decent shape, but my cardio isn’t amazing. The person who I spoke to yesterday knows it’s my first time.

Like kickboxing is so encodee in my life that i hate it. Like everything i do will it help me in kickboxing? At home or school all i think about is training and sparring or fights i want it to be seprated. Like when i lose a fight my entire week is ruined my confidence tanks i feel like a loser

Of these 2 fighters what advice would you give each of them technically and physical ability wise e.g speed or snapiness. Who would you say is also performing better in the spar and gaining more points simulating a match.

Hello, I have been going to a kickboxing gym for a year and 3 months. At the beggining I really enjoyed it. I had trainings on tuesdays and thursdays and it was all I was thinking about. Whenever I was done with the tuesday workout I was waiting for thursday to come and so on, the cycle keep repeating. I wasnt scared of sparring or anything, matter of fact I even went to the most advanced fighters in the gym. After about a year or so it started getting on my nerves. I started comparing myself to my friends for no reason and I was really mad about my coach moving people worse than me to the advanced group. During sparring I told my coach I wanted to spar with better people but he paired me with people that I had to held back even tho im not the best myself and I wasnt learning anything. I took a 3 month break (still going) and im thinking about going back but im not sure. One day I feel like going again then the next not. I feel like I have a negative association now with the sport because of the enviroment and im scared if I ever go back I wont enjoy the sport anymore and its the only fighting gym in my town. It was pretty fun and I liked the idea of fighting. Made me feel more confident, respected, was tied to my identity, was a nice thing to do in my free times and it actually felt like I was doing something with my life instead of wasting it. Any advice on what I should do in this situation?