r/KindVoice • u/Salamaleco_Foxy • 1h ago
Looking [L] [15M]Feeling stuck, isolated,unskilled with friendships and exhausted by unpredictable dad behavior...
Hi everyone.I’m writing this because I really need a safe space to vent and talk to someone who can listen with empathy and also because i feel more and more unsure about what i should do with the situation...I will try my best to explain it...Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely isolated and not just that,but it also feel impossible make friends that really cares enought for me...It doesnt help me the usual phrase "But it takes time to make friends" because DOESN'T help me and is frustrating...
While at home my dad keep acting so stupid and childish,he keep telling only family have priority above everyone,and we are talking about an almost 60y old man and a 7 years old kid. Living at home has become emotionally estenuating. My dad has extremely unpredictable reactions, constant mood swings, and unrealistic expectations.He expects 100% of my time and focus to be dedicated strictly to "family," completely dismissing my need for a normal social life or personal space.He costantly criticize me and honestly never made decent compliments of actually improvements and never reward enought...
He also keep seeking for troubles and arguements...just today he got MAD just because today after brought the new remote for the TV,i didn't quickly tell him the remote was working.But i'm serious when i say he was MAD,litterally.But it was because i was too focused to see which were the most important tv buttons we were struggling to use with the physic buttons behing tv.Then when he too wanted search it (He was still mad about i didn't tell him quickly the remote was working) but was checking the buttons i alredy told him were working but he didn't care.Then he gave up and later i found where was the button i was searching for (The one to switch tv to HDMI,DTV,etc),but dad got even angrier and called me a**hole because i didn't see the button had whritten "SOURCE".I didn't even know it could've been for that the button "SOURCE".The fact is that HE TOO SEARCHED for like 2 mins and h neither found it and then BLAME ME to was stupid to didnt find it that easily.
Another thing i hate abput dad is when he complains that we depends to my hunger for if we eat or not. Like,HUH???????What do he mean??????PLUS himself when is hungry,after 20 mins his hunger wanish replaced by his anger. So IF there is someone in familly that would make us dependent for the meal times,DAD is.
Another thing is that dad slowly is coming back to imagine stuff nobody else feel. Like smells and tastes. Mostly Cats poop smell and bleach smell were what he said to smell when nobody else did.
It feels like no matter how logically, calmly, or thoughtfully I try to handle things, I am always met with irrational anger and shifting goalposts. It’s exhausting to feel like i can never do anything right, and carrying this heavy anger and isolation alone is getting really tough.
A friend that knows alot about my situation,suggest me to should call police and the fact is that ALSO my irl best friend mom said the same,but she was more unsure.I dont know what to do at this point...
I hope this vent wasnt too messy and thanks for reading it...