My husband of nearly 2 decades, who I'd married at his worst and stuck by through things no other person in his life ever did, just confirmed that my value in his eyes has always been based on how much money i made.

This coming from the man who has always made half or one-third of what I made. From the man i wasted my prime years on, because of his addiction. From the man i literally built up from ashes when his own family left him for dead. From the man who offered me nothing a husband just naturally offers his wife in terms of marital intimacy. From the man i married for absolutely nothing but his kindness(?) and respectfulness(?).

Oh wow!

How can I be SO blind for nearly 20 years?!!

There probably aren't enough hugs in the world that will make any of this better. But i simply didn't know where else to turn.

If you find a little bit of kindness for a fellow human that simply has lost everything that meant anything to them, please stay by my side for just a bit, if you can.

Thank you 🙏🏻

Everything at home feels really fragile right now.
I live far away from my family, and a lot is happening at once.
My mom is sick and needs surgery. My dad also has a newly diagnosed health issue, and both of them have been exhausted and barely sleeping.

Our dog is only 6, a German Shepherd, and has advanced kidney disease. He needs saline twice a day and still vomits a lot. My dad is extremely attached to him. He was the one who really wanted a dog, and our dog has become such a huge emotional part of the family.
My parents have had a difficult relationship at times, and somehow things became calmer after we got our dog. I think that’s part of why I’m so scared now.
With my mom being sick, my dog being so sick, my dad dealing with his own health, money being tighter, work stress, and everyone being exhausted, I keep worrying that people are going to get overwhelmed, blame each other, or slowly pull apart.

I know I may be thinking too far ahead, but I’m genuinely scared of my family breaking apart.
One thing that always made living far away easier was knowing I could go home. Even when my own life felt uncertain, I always had this thought in the back of my mind that home was still there.

Now even that feels less certain, and I think that’s what is scaring me the most.
I really want to go home, even if it’s only for a few days. I want to see my mom, help my dad, and spend time with my dog because I don’t know how much time we have with him.

But I only started my current job about a month ago after struggling for a long time to find one. It pays very little, but it’s still the only stability I have right now. I’m also involved in a client delivery this week, so I’m scared that taking leave this early could affect my job.

I’m also in the US on a visa, and there are new rules coming up soon, so even a short trip home feels more complicated and uncertain than it normally would.
My parents have always wanted me to earn well and become financially stable. They sacrificed a lot so I could build a better future. Now there are more financial pressures at home too, and that scares me even more because I’m nowhere close to being able to help them the way I wish I could.

So I feel stuck between wanting to go home and wanting to protect the little stability I finally managed to get.
If I stay, I’m scared something will happen and I’ll regret not going.
If I go, I’m scared I could make my work situation harder or create problems for myself when I’m only just starting to build some stability.
And underneath all of that, I’m just scared of things changing at home while I’m so far away.

I don’t even know exactly what I’m looking for by posting this. I just feel really scared and alone with all of it.
I keep going back and forth about whether I should go home or stay here, and neither choice feels right. I’m scared I’ll make the wrong decision and regret it later.
I think I just needed to say this somewhere where maybe someone would understand.

I don't know where to begin. I feel absolutely claustrophobic, suffocated by emotions. It's loneliness and shame and guilt and jadedness and cynicism and envy and anxiety and whatever the noun version of pathetic is. I have issues and I need therapy, but even if I get therapy, I don't have the support system to back it all up in the real world. I do my best to perpetuate the facade that I am perfectly functional on the outside. I manage a team at work. I socialize. I keep my stuff to myself. I am drowning. I can't do it anymore. I feel so invisible, I feel so uncared about, forgotten about. I feel like I put so much in and get pennies and dust out. I don't even know what I want or need here. I just want to feel like I matter. I know everyone wants to feel like they matter. I know I'm not special. I just sometimes wish I was, to anybody. I am resisting so many urges to go back to old habits. Anyway this became a ramble and I still don't know what I need, everything is so blurry right now.

I just need someone to chat with and vent to for a little bit. I had a medical procedure recently that went well for the most part but recovery has been rough for me. I don’t feel up for a vc tonight and I prefer using discord when talking to people, but if you don’t want to talk on discord for some reason, Reddit will suffice

Hi everyone.I’m writing this because I really need a safe space to vent and talk to someone who can listen with empathy and also because i feel more and more unsure about what i should do with the situation...I will try my best to explain it...Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely isolated and not just that,but it also feel impossible make friends that really cares enought for me...It doesnt help me the usual phrase "But it takes time to make friends" because DOESN'T help me and is frustrating...

While at home my dad keep acting so stupid and childish,he keep telling only family have priority above everyone,and we are talking about an almost 60y old man and a 7 years old kid. Living at home has become emotionally estenuating. My dad has extremely unpredictable reactions, constant mood swings, and unrealistic expectations.He expects 100% of my time and focus to be dedicated strictly to "family," completely dismissing my need for a normal social life or personal space.He costantly criticize me and honestly never made decent compliments of actually improvements and never reward enought...

He also keep seeking for troubles and arguements...just today he got MAD just because today after brought the new remote for the TV,i didn't quickly tell him the remote was working.But i'm serious when i say he was MAD,litterally.But it was because i was too focused to see which were the most important tv buttons we were struggling to use with the physic buttons behing tv.Then when he too wanted search it (He was still mad about i didn't tell him quickly the remote was working) but was checking the buttons i alredy told him were working but he didn't care.Then he gave up and later i found where was the button i was searching for (The one to switch tv to HDMI,DTV,etc),but dad got even angrier and called me a**hole because i didn't see the button had whritten "SOURCE".I didn't even know it could've been for that the button "SOURCE".The fact is that HE TOO SEARCHED for like 2 mins and h neither found it and then BLAME ME to was stupid to didnt find it that easily.

Another thing i hate abput dad is when he complains that we depends to my hunger for if we eat or not. Like,HUH???????What do he mean??????PLUS himself when is hungry,after 20 mins his hunger wanish replaced by his anger. So IF there is someone in familly that would make us dependent for the meal times,DAD is.

Another thing is that dad slowly is coming back to imagine stuff nobody else feel. Like smells and tastes. Mostly Cats poop smell and bleach smell were what he said to smell when nobody else did.

It feels like no matter how logically, calmly, or thoughtfully I try to handle things, I am always met with irrational anger and shifting goalposts. It’s exhausting to feel like i can never do anything right, and carrying this heavy anger and isolation alone is getting really tough.

A friend that knows alot about my situation,suggest me to should call police and the fact is that ALSO my irl best friend mom said the same,but she was more unsure.I dont know what to do at this point...

I hope this vent wasnt too messy and thanks for reading it...

hello, just wondering if someone was available to talk? preferably someone with some life experience. i’m just really sad, and i don’t have anyone to talk to in my life, as pathetic as that sounds, and could use a little advice.

i’m just really sad right now and don’t have anyone else to ask or talk to. i want to just talk to someone about how i’m feeling.

I’m over everything and I think there’s a lot of people wanting me to see me do as well as I’d like to do in this life (I’m sorry). I guess if it’s for me it’ll happen regardless but I also think there’s a lot of people waiting for me to give up, or to fuck up, or get left behind or something. Congratulations, idgaf anymore.

I don’t think anyone could really understand. What this is like to experience. Seemingly unendingly. What I’m seeing, how I’m seeing it, how it’s making me feel, good and bad. The threats. People fucking with your head. I’m not scared of you. I don’t know if I could ever have the love I want? The love I deserve? The love that already has my name on it. Someone else seems committed to being in the way, because I don’t want it with them.

(You still can’t have it. In this life or the next. You had it and treated gold like trash. In the worst way. Intentional wickedness. Now you’re mad, why you mad? Stay mad.)

I’m trying to tell you I’m seeing the fuckery. I’m trying to tell you they don’t want me to see shit clear, they don’t want me to know they’re mixing signals but I see it. It’s not fair. And it’s not fair to who wants to love me for real, either. My sincere love goes out to whomever this is affecting.

I’m over this. You’re trying to implode my life, make it look like I’m doing it to myself. Like I’m trying to play somebody that wants to do right by me. Why the fuck would I do that to myself it’s literally the only thing I’ve ever wanted. How dare I know that I deserve better than you. You are the worst thing that has ever happened to me.

I hope I made something easier for everyone else. This is so much bigger than money and material things. I don’t wanna be in anybody’s war games anymore.

I’m sorry.

im going through a difficult time because of some family issues, and I’m feeling really heartbroken.I just want someone kind to listen and let me share what I’m going through

I had my fair share of struggles. Toxic friends, manipulative girlfriend, a bad boss, office politics and failed businesses. Yet, somehow I managed to keep my shit together.

Some people let me vent to them and I feel like I can also pass on that favour. I'm available to do voice chats on Discord.