Hi so I’m 28 yrs old and ever since I was in my early 20s I’ve been giving money to my mum, first it was out of genuine support till she started demanding for more n more then it turned ugly.
She said to cover her expenses (rent,bills) so me and my siblings we all went half’s to cover the expenses because she’d threaten to kick us out, so to not be put out I’d give as much money as I could.
She then said I also need spending money not just my expenses covered so I’d out of genuine love would give her my card etc and I always wanted that mummy and daughter bond and thought that was the only way I could feel seen.
Which didn’t work because my mum wanted more money so she put most of my siblings out which then terrified me but thing is I was fired from my job at the time.
I knew it was over for me, she told me to move to look for a new place so I couldn’t find anything so she told me to go live in a shared accommodation with other men because that’ll be quicker for me to get out of her house.
My mental health took the biggest hit my health took the worst turn, I was panicking shit scared but by Allahs will something happened and we had to move homes so she couldn’t put me out as she needed my help.
London is real expensive to just simply move out and find a place.
Thing is she’s in thousands of debt now because she stopped paying her bills because she couldn’t careless about it, so im the one dealing with her debts but now she’s saying I have to add my part in the rent too (which she has enough money for) all because i also live here as an adult… I told her I can’t do it I can’t pay off large debts off and rent that’ll be entire pay check.
So now she went behind my back and gave half the rent to the landlord, the landlord called me and said where’s the rest of the money?? I was so confused so I told my mum and she said that’s for you to cover ,
but I didn’t agree to this she never told me directly besides when we got into an argument and I told her I’m not paying rent I’m paying off debts we’re in with the bailiff because of her decision to suddenly stop paying bills (she only paid it 2 months then stopped)
She still went a head again now and did it again were she only paid her half of the rent to him, she’s now months in debt with the rent and saying I have to pay as I’m on the tenancy agreement with her.
Thing is I don’t want to pay because i don’t want to anymore Im so angry at her I’m full of so much resentment I don’t even want to go halves on anything with her I’m fact I’m ok with moving out but I’m just scarred because now she’s in arrears with the rent.
I Litch went on my first ever holiday at 26 and even then a family paid for it because all my money was spent on her and avoiding her evilness sometimes i wonder why I got her as a mother??
This is litch nothing compared to what she’s done to my other siblings their experiences with her was hell on this earth…
She’s the biggest set back of life I spent my 20s avoiding her wrath avoiding her psychological tactics and evilness im so far behind my peers because I spent my years healing from her childhood trauma she put me through and the additional traumas I endured in my 20s - I’m so so far behind in life it’s absolutely crazy she stunted my growth in the worst way.
I don’t want to be stuck in her cycle if I pay this rent money she’s in debt with, I’ll be left with nothing!! I don’t want to do this but now I’m trapped because the landlord wants he’s money what should I do??