Junior years physics. Im taking physics 2 honora, calc 3 and a writing class.
Idk but I fewl like my adhd has gotten worse since last semester. I just started a new adhd medication but it will take a while for it to finally kick in.
When im doing my hw assignments im reading questions over and over again cause nothing seems to process the first time.
And then its taking me forever to learn the material. And I really REALLY hate the discussion classes because im always the last one to finish.
Im so slow. Going to discussion classes feels like a humiliation ritual everytime.
I get so nervous working in groups because im always the only one getting lost or dont know what to do. I hate asking my group for help too because they are not always good at explaining stuff.
Im not going to lie, I might sound a bit dramatic, but moments like these makes me hate myself. Because I wish i wasnt so slow.
I struggle to learn so much its depressing. Ive been like this since I was a kid. Ive always been the last person in class to finish an exam ir any group work.
I have a discussion class in about 2 hours soon today and I can already feel my stomach turning.
I do plan on working with tutors soon but fck...i dont want to be this way. Im genuinely scared of failing classes this semester.
This is only my second semester at umbc.