bit of an odd post if i had to take a guess but, what the title says.
for 2 months now i feel like i cant really enjoy a game without always having a thought lingering in my head that forms a review/star rating prior to even having finished the game, this has completely thrown me off for a while and i really hate it because gaming is my favourite hobby.
i know an answer can already be said, "cant you just not use backloggd anymore?" and, sure, ive tried doing that with letterboxd, but i dont really feel like it works. it threw off my interest in movies and at the same time i like to see my progress, i still do like writing reviews for media i liked/critique what i wasnt so fond of and give a star rating, and i totally understand this just seeming really contradictory, but when playing games and forming my opinion on them i like to divide them in 3 layers;
- the whole point of the medium, entertainment
- emotional depth
- objectivity, the flaws it has and the things it did well
but because of the fact i always think to myself a future review, those 2 first points just seem non-existent. ive been playing shadow of the colossus, wonderful game, but i keep thinking of the score i want to give to it. why cant i just, enjoy it? especially on a game so cinematographily beautiful? it almost feels like im finishing it just to get my reward of adding it to my profile (yeah i get this last sentence gives more reasons as to why i should not use to site but, id rather find an alternative.)
has any of you felt this before, how do you deal with this?
thanks in advance :))