Whenever I play a game, I tend to really live the story through the eyes of the protagonist. And especially with the Dragon Quest series, I project myself a lot onto the Hero.
That being said, I must confess: I fell in love with Serena.
Yeah, Jade is gorgeous and has those enormous slimes, and I honestly think that if the world hadn’t gone to hell, we probably would’ve ended up married anyway to unite Dundrasil and Heliodor. But beyond the physical attraction, I just never really clicked with her that way.
Serena, on the other hand, was just perfect for me. And especially after everything we went through in Act 2.
Watching her lose Veronica, sharing that tender moment with her at night while she was grieving, seeing her cut her hair and find this strength and fierce determination that had always been somewhere inside her… I fell headlong for her. At that point I genuinely wanted my Luminary to spend the rest of his life with her.
And then came the time travel.
I understand why we did it. I know what was at stake. We saved Veronica, restored countless lives and ultimately got the chance to save the world from so much suffering. Obviously that outweighs one person’s feelings.
But damn, it still hurts.
Because that version of Serena doesn’t exist anymore.
There seem to be little traces and echoes of that lost timeline, but the Serena standing beside me now isn’t quite the same woman I fell in love with. She never experienced that loss. She never had to become that person. She doesn’t remember that night we shared or everything we went through together.
But I, the Luminary, do.
And somehow what makes it even sadder is realizing that I basically did this to her myself. I chose to erase the experiences that shaped her into the woman I loved because saving everyone was more important than my own happiness.
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I suppose that’s one of the sacrifices a Hero sometimes has to make: putting everyone else’s well-being above his own.
There’s still some story left, so maybe I’ll feel differently by the end. But right now… I’m genuinely mourning a relationship with a woman who technically still exists, except she also kind of doesn’t.
Goddammit, Dragon Quest.
EDIT
Well, judging by some of the comments, apparently “I tend to really live the story through the eyes of the protagonist and project myself onto the Hero” needed a bigger disclaimer 😂
Guys, I promise I’m perfectly aware Serena is fictional. I’m not actually mourning my lost relationship with a collection of polygons.
The whole point of the post was to describe how I experienced the story as the Luminary: getting attached to Serena through everything that happens in Act 2, only to travel back in time and realize that the version of her who went through all of that with him no longer really exists, while he still remembers it.
I just really enjoy letting myself get immersed in RPGs instead of experiencing the story from a distance. That’s part of the fun for me.
But hey, considering some of these reactions, maybe I committed a terrible mistake by role-playing while playing a role-playing game. 😂