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Just 2 days ago, I had a lot of things to get done. I submitted my final coursework for review, uploaded some Shorts for my Shorts channel, and later that same day I got my period.
Since then, I’ve basically chosen comfort over being productive, and I genuinely hate it.
I have so many things I could be doing. I could work on my long form channel, work on my other channel, or study because I have final exams this month but instead, I’ve been sitting around scrolling through Shorts
What bothers me the most is that I’m literally aware of what I’m doing. I know I’m wasting time. I know I have things I need to do. I know I’ll feel better once I actually get up and do them.
And yet I still pick up my phone and scroll.
I don’t even feel like I’m enjoying it anymore. I’ll scroll for a while, realize I’ve wasted another hour, feel guilty about it, and then... keep scrolling.
Part of me is wondering if it’s because of my period and I genuinely needed a couple of days to rest, or if I’m just being lazy and using it as an excuse. Either way, I don’t like being stuck in this cycle.
I’m even considering forcing myself to leave the house and work somewhere else just to change my environment but realistically, if I want to record videos, I need to be at home anyway, and I can study at home too.
So how do I actually break out of this?
I’m tired of watching myself waste time and doing absolutely nothing about it.