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I don't know if I can post this here but I really just need help. I (20M) have a really hard time with sex even though I love having it. I just recently got out of a pretty shitty relationship and I don't know if that's why this is happening? But it happened in that last relationship too...

Does anyone else feel like there's a difference between asking for sex VS someone giving it to you without asking? My partner and I got into a discussion about it and it sent me into a panic. I refuse to ask for sex because in my mind if my partner wanted to they would, so why should I ask? It feels disingenuous when I ask for sexual favours to be done to me because it feels like I'm forcing them to do it, and the act itself doesn't feel as good to me or it sends me into a panic attack. But only when I ask for favours. If my partner decided on their own to do whatever to me I'd be fine, but if I asked for the same exact thing it would freak me out.

I fell asleep before my partner last night while waiting for them to come to bed because earlier they had said they would go down on me, but I ended up falling asleep and woke up a few hours later in a pissed off mood. We talked about it in the morning and they didn't understand why I felt like that. They tried going down on me after we talked about it but it sent me into a panic (because we had been talking about it and to me it felt like I was forcing them(?)) they tried reassuring me before they went to work but now I'm here still panicking and I just want to know why.

I don't know why and it's really freaking me out... I know a lot of my self confidence/self worth is tied to my sex life but wouldn't that just mean I'd be wanting to take everything I could? I'm so confused and I hate thinking like this

If I can't post this here then it can be deleted I just really need support or someone who knows anything on why I feel like that...

My family expects something big from me, but I’m confused and lost, I don’t know what to do, i can’t seem to find a job, I’m inexperienced and there’s no guidance or mentor for me, and my family pressuring me and on top of that I’m depressed, it’s called the typical depression, i always feel tired after a long sleep, gets irritated easily, and always a negative emotion running in me, I’m writing this immediately after an argument with my family and they doesn’t seem to care if i go missing or killed myself, i never had a parents and i miss them during times like this so much, there’s nobody to take my side during an argument, i always felt so stupid because I’m stupid, i wasn’t very good at high school and didn’t went to college because it was pretty expensive and I didn’t ask for my family, i wrote this at September 1 at 8:51

Usually i try to help everyone I can, but now I feel that I'm the one in need.

I don't know why I feel anxious. I keep checking my phone, but I never have notifications, but i already know this, so why do I keep checking? Yes i use reddit a lot, and I wanna reply to comments or dms, but people don't text me so often, so why constantly checking? It's been 2 days since i started feeling extremely anxious for no reason. I'm spending more time than usual on social media. Then i close tiktok, i open Instagram, then i close Instagram, and I open TikTok again. What is happening to me?

My life situation is this at the moment:

My gf of 5 years broke up with me 2 months ago, I've been devastated for one month, but this month was extremely better (i had to cut her off my life because she didn't respect me after the end of the relationship and kept doing things that hurt me. Now I don't care about her and there is no way she could contact me again, so she is a complete stranger now).

Soon I'm gonna start to work again, but I'm not so happy honestly.

I made some friends here on Reddit (literally 2 or 3) but since they all live far away and we are all busy we don't talk a lot every day. Just a few texts. I keep commenting on reddit posts trying to help people or just chatting.

And, finally, yesterday I hung out with a friend, then i came home and this sense of loneliness and anxiety started crushing me.

Any suggestions on what to do or what is going on in my head?

Thank you in advance

I wanted to tell you about something that has been happening because I’m genuinely concerned about my safety.

There is a guy who is angry with me because I was involved with someone he has a crush on. He and some of his friends have been threatening me, saying that they are going to beat me up. They know that I’m usually alone, and I feel like they are using that to intimidate me.

I’ve been getting threatening calls/messages, and I’m worried that this could turn into an actual physical attack, especially because there are multiple people involved. I don’t want to fight anyone or create more problems. I just want to make sure I’m safe and that this situation is dealt with properly.

I have evidence of the calls/messages and can show it if needed. I’m telling you because I don’t want to keep this to myself and then have something happen.

I don’t feel like doing anything. Everyone around me looks like they have figured out life. Idk what I want or what I like. I want to be happy. But not able to be happy. How to be happy? I am just 24 and life sucks already. I had little toxic parents. They never motivated me or appreciated me for my achievements. I was topper and got into top ug college and earning well now, still i feel empty. Relationships too did not work for me. They say guys don’t generally reject girls, but as a girl I was rejected many times. Look wise i am not very beautiful but not very ugly. Average looks. What should i do to be happy? I tried lot of things - solo travel, journaling, reading books but nothing worked. When i wake up in the morning, i feel oh no i have to survive today somehow. I just want the day to end. This is not normal right? If anyone has faced such situations please advise me what to do.

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