r/studyAbroad • u/Velvet_8201 • 22h ago
Should I go home ? (UPDATED)
I made a previous post on how awful I felt here, in South Korea. I didn't get better in the meantime, but researches about plans to go back home are a great distraction. I planned to force myself to study there, at least one semester to not have the "early drop out" mention on my resume.
But I actually reconsider the choice of studies, the BBA, a lot of people told me I'm not made for this program. I started the courses today, and I already know I won't like it, I mean the teacher can't even speak correctly in english, a lot of courses were cancelled last minute (mind you we only have 2days of courses per week including one day of just language training), they keep proving how much they are unorganized, and it pisses me off, I think I'm really wasting my time being here, I don't think this program will help me later, or teach me useful stuff. And I can force myself to stay, but I really don't see the point of staying, some things can get better, but not all of it, the english track teacher struggling to speak english will never help me in my studies. Staying here for 4 years, in addition of maybe ruining my mental health, will be a waste.
I like South Korea, in the facts, so I'm kinda sad about the uni being so unorganized etc, I got a proposition, to apply to other unis in South Korea, after spending one semester in this one, and lose my credits for a reorientation, I might be interested in biomedical. But I think I like South Korea more as a vacation place, or maybe settle in but in the future. I think going to Seoul after this experience, will be too overwhelming, all the administrative stuff etc, and I will eventually burn out. I can go back to France now, and start a biomedical program. Then maybe study abroad later, for a master.
I know people will blame me for not trying hard enough, but even if I do try, I don't think this university is made for me. And I know getting this opportunity, is a huge privilege. But I don't think it was a good idea, but I'm glad I went there to see.