r/tarot • u/Dependent_Salad_2369 • 5h ago
Stories I tried doing my own tarot spread as a non believer/non spiritual and got extremely called out, now don‘t know what to believe
I like witchy aesthetics and when I first thought of getting a tarot deck I thought it would help me finding out more about myself, as a thought starter for journaling. I did one of the tarot spread ideas you find on pinterest about calling yourself out and finding whats holding you back atm. I did the spread and tried to guess what its trying to tell me by looking at the cards (I got a cheap deck at a crafts store, it has no guidebook and I think the images themself dont have a lot of symbolism, I just got it because it looked cute and was cheap) and trying to interpret them. I thought it was about something that happened recently and didnt really affect me but thought maybe that thing will be more important or that I should be more open minded. Basically the question was what I‘ve been doing wrong and the card said judgement so I thought maybe I‘ve been too judgy and need to be more open. This was a weird read to me because I would think I am really open minded and I dont remember the last time I judged anyone for something. I continued like that for the other cards. I wrote my thoughts down and thought, well, why dont you try looking up the meanings and what they could mean in relation to your questions. When I looked it up, the meanings were completely different to what I thought it could mean. It also talked about being avoidant about something and I dont want to go too deep into the rest of the reading since its personal but I was shook at how accurate it was. I sat there quietly for a moment because I still cant believe how much sense the reading made and how accurate it was. I feel very weird because I‘m a huge non believer when it comes to supernatural things, I believe in science and I‘m not religious or superstitious. I think manifestation is real in the terms of you wanting something so you think about it and therefore take actions to get it, or notice the thing more easily. But the tarot spread was so incredibly accurate I‘m still shook. I don‘t really know how to feel about this right now, but the cards also told me to take action about the thing I‘ve been avoiding, but its one of those things where you dont know how to do it. Do I do another spread? Are there any tarot readers here that aren‘t spiritual but still practice? Or is this my sign to maybe look into spirituality?