howdy
I'm a sophomore in AGLS who really truly tries to seem like i have it all together. neat notes, early to class, known by professors, etc. but i'm so painfully lonely that i feel heavy every day. i have a couple good friends, but over the summer i started struggling with severe bulimia that made me incredibly antisocial and also underweight to a pretty severe degree (no energy, near passing out, yesterday I had to go to beutel because i was throwing up water and my legs were pins and needles trying to walk to the bus stop.)
I know all of this is entirely my fault and i should be able to pull myself together, but having been struggling with different iterations of the same thing since i was about thirteen, it's beginning to feel like i'll never escape. All i want is to have a joyful college experience, but when i am constantly on the edge of collapse i fear it's not possible.
Does anyone know of any resources, tips and tricks or simply words of advice to help a fellow aggie out? yes, I have a therapist, but at the end of the day i still feel so helpless to choose this for myself.