Quick disclaimer: I'm ESL , so there might be some mistakes. Thank you for your understanding.
Quick disclaimer 2: no AI used in this. This is just how I write. Also I'm unwell. Thank you
Recently I went through medical issues with my left wrist, which awarded me with 4 days off work and not much to do but read and ice the inflamed area. During that time I read 'Bunny', by Mona Awad; it stuck with me for many reasons, to the point when I anticipated my wrist to heal so I can sit and write the post you now see before you. It won't be unwarrented to say that I might have not earned the right to critique the book without finishing it. Fair. But my issues with this book are ongoing, and are the kind of stuff that presist and cannot be solved in the latter half of act 3.
This post includes my initial thoughts post dropping, points inspired by others takes on the book, and a few arguments I have yet to see anyone make; therefore, I hope this long read will be worth your time.
Miserable, bitter and disappointing as I am, I don't want to start on the wrong foot. Lets start with what worked.
The positives
I DNF quickly and without remorse, usually around the earlier parts of a book; here I stuck with it for around 80%, which wouldn't have happened if I thought the book was truly terrible. Perhaps that's just the thing - I see so much potential in Bunny, and the premise and weird-litness of it all are so up my alley - I wanted to love it. I did loved parts of it. Here they are:
- The book flowed very easily, and, on the merit of writing alone, was enjoyable to read.
- The visual descriptions, in particular, were a delight. During my read, I had such a clear vision in my head on how every character looked like, how they moved like. Awad paints this world pretty effortlessly and with detail, creating vivid image in the mind's eye.
- There's one line that was absolutely terrifying to me. I won't include it here because spoilers, but I felt it was bone chilling.
- It's impossible to deny that this book generates discussions, not just the 'wtf just happened' but beyond, in meaning and symbolism. I actually read around fans theories and dives into the themes. Book discussions such as these are always good, and having book generate such discussion is not a given. Personally I see themes of loneliness and how it connects to creativity, ones mental state, and what one is willing to do and how they are willing to behave in order to escape said loneliness. Hell, look at me, I didn't even like it and I'm writing a whole thinkpiece.
- I love how people love this book. To be clear, I'm not dumping on any of you who enjoyed Bunny or even have it in your favorites. my opinions aside, I can see why many would love it and connect to it.
- Jonah my lad (best character)
With that out of the way, It's time to address my many issues with this book and why I eventually dropped it. After thinking, I realized my hater attitude towards this book is multilevel, and in the following segments, I'll treat it as such.
Level 2: The breaking points
Or: the actual issues I pinpointed as the reasons I outright dropped the book. Of these there are two:
- Max and the bullshit that follows him
- Later in the book we get Max, a character very reminiscent to Samantha, the protagonist, except that they are far more proactive, very confident, have a strong sense of self and, MOST IMPORTANTLY, a hot man. The literal personification of what Samantha wishes she could do - but as a hot man! - that appears around 70 percent into the book and absolutely ruins every single plotline.
- When we fist see Max, he's just some random dude at a bus station who MIGHT be a hybrid created by Samantha. Maybe. We don't know. I like that ambiguity. I hoped we never see him again. We do. And guess what? he is not only hot, he is HOT hot. At some point I threw my head in frustration and asked myself what low-tier trope-y romance novel did this guy jump out of, and how do we get him back in there and out of the story?
- Max presence gives rise to the most juvenile plotlines. OMG! The evil girl click is going to be taken down because they'll fight over a man! Omg! Ava dating a hybrid Samantha created?? ro-oh!!! This is SUCH a disney channel plot, btw. Cant you imagine a Wizards of Waverly place episode where Alex turns a bunny into a boy and Harper starts dating him? The more we stuck with the Max shenanigans the more other immature plot choices rose to the surface; It highlights the worst, most cliche teen drama parts.
- Why are we giving this dude so much power to move the plot? Why can't Samantha do ANYTHING? Why do we need a (hot. very hot!!!) man to progress the story and get shit done?
- Repetitive Plotpoints that Draaaggggg
- There is a limit to how many times I see them sit in the stupid workshop and watch everyone fake compliment the overtly-terrible work of the Bunnies. There's a limit to how much I can sit through the same jokes-middling satire- critic points of higher education/MFA/Ivy colleges. There's a limit to the 'hi bunny love you bunny omg bunny you look so good bunny'.
- Samantha is the source of a lot of the repetitiveness. She kinda sucks in general which is usually up my alley but oh my god, she's a drag. She reiterates on the same topics over and over, and the details we get never feel like satisfactory reveal. Oh, you once again wonder what caused the rift between you and your thesis councilor? Care to give us any new details? No? Just wistful ruminating? Ok. Oh you are going to start the oh-woe-is-me while simultaneously shitting on your peers and ignoring the one other student that tries to connect? Are you going to explore those emotions and behaviors in any kind of way? No? Fine. Yes, Samantha, please tell us for the 4th time about the eyes and demoralizing slogans you write instead of progressing in any meaningful way. No, no, no need to change the way it's presented, discussed, or develops I LOVE reading the same thing over and over. Oh, we are doing this thing when you say one thing yet mean another to avoid conflict and fit in? are we doing this for the 20202040th time? Is either your actions or your thoughts convey anything NEW character or plot wise? No? OH COME ON SAMANTHA. The last part gets me the most. I now suspect it was a way to avoid conflict on the side of the AUTHOR, not the character. At some point I almost said allowed: WE NEED TO FURTHER THE PLOT, SAMANTHA. Yes, I understand this coping mechanism and what it means about fitting in and the struggle to not appear as 'different' or 'trouble maker' but, surely, on our act 3 or so, this behavior will start to change. Oh? This is what max, the hot man is for? I'm so so glad he's here.
So yeah, when I realized that 1 is a permanent and important addition to the story and 2 is not going to change, I had to drop the book. I simply had enough. Though I cannot say those were the only contributes to my DNF-O-METER. There were smaller, less obvious problems, issues that pricked and pinched me, and those accumulated, too.
Level 2: The slow and insidious killers
Or: Stuff I didn't like but powered through, to a point.
- The weird way this book describes the dangers of the town.
- The town where the story takes place is a classic tale of the rich part of town, the poor part of town. The elite college, with it's rich students, hip resturants, and the luxurious houses around it; then the rest of the town- run down, dangerous, falling apart and just a horrible, no good place to live.
- How do we describe how much everything sucks? By describing people who do not fit the conventional style of beauty or that are mentally ill!
- One description stood out to me. It was an explicit explanation about how dangerous the town actually is. Samantha says that you might see an upstanding looking man walking down the street. But as we get closer, you might discover he is talking to himself- worse! Straight up having a shouting argument with himself! I had to stop awhile, just to take a deep breath and ask Samantha with my reader-to-character telepathy, 'hey girl. what?' Yes. Seeing a person having a yelling match with himself can be uncomfortable. But the man himself is not inherently criminal or malicious, just mentally unwell. FFS, I have seen people like that multiple times in the neigborhood I lived all my life in, which is very safe place. On rare occasion, I'd argue I've seen more extreme examples. Sometimes people are just hurt, and those with mental illness are much more of a danger to themselves than they are to others.
- This is done a few times in the story, and at some point it just feels like Awad wants to just highlight the undesirables and use them as a set piece to how just maddning and evil this place is. Ohhhhhhhh theres a guy that lives next to Samantha, and he is freakishly large. He's a pervert, because, well, he lives by Samantha and he is such a freak because, a, he is large. There's such a malicious tone that just permeates every part of the book that does not have to do with the main characters, almost all of which conventionally attractive, and not locals of the 'wrong kind' even Ava, the 'poor' character, was presented as a student at Warren. And her poverty is specifically stated as artsy and chic.
- I cannot get a good grip on your character, bunny
- This book does such a good job in describing the characters visually and that extends to the bunnies, with clear vision for the aesthetic each one of them preforms. But as far as personality goes - the four often get muddled, perhaps with the exception of some trite surface level description or another. I had trouble telling which one of them spoke at times.
- 'well, disco, that's the point! It's the loss of self for the favor of gaining the comforts of the group' Is it? So why each of them is given a name AND a unique nickname? Why the writing makes such a distinction between them at one point, and recedes at another? If you wanna go ego death or better yet, hive mind, GO THERE. This is a surreal horror story, why not go as far as you can? Perhaps the point was watching the bunnies teetering the line between the self and the group. Then again, there are plenty of examples of this done in other media that shows this battle-for-balance much better, and show the response of unique personalities to have to confirm to the book. The story needed the time, space and effort to nail that balance if intended. I was so disappointed to discover that there wasn't much behind the aesthetic, and not even in a way that felt as if it was the point.
- Hey, so, were each of the Bunnies a personification of a woman oriented genre? Duchess was the self-help self-discovery girlboss of priv-lit, Creepy-Doll was clearly romantasy, Vignette the over complex prose of pseudo feminism and pretentious shlock capitalizing of 'women's rage', and cupcake the sugary sweet feel good romances? Was that an allegory intended or am I pulling the metaphorical bunny out of the bullshiting hat?
- I heard the Bunnies being referred to as a critical take on toxic femininity, the pitfalls of over-positive feminism; I heard they are clear hostility against the hyper feminine (don't love that term btw) and traditionally 'girly' asthetic, either on the part of the character of Samantha or the narrative of the book; i heard they are a take on the usual MFA crowd, entitled and full of themselves; I mostly think they were underdeveloped and never acted like real human woman. Especially of that age. A lot of the cast is very HIGHSCHOOL, but with the Bunnies it was beyond that. And when repeated as much as it did, it was so boring!
- The Bunnies characterization is a huge blow especially with how important they are to the narrative, plot, and Samantha emotional journey. I feel like the book doesn't know what it wants the Bunnies to be, and not in a 'Samantha is an unreliable narrator', it just feels rushed.
- It's (bad) SATIRE!
- I see this argument a lot when talking negatively about the book. Of course the Bunnies are infantlized! Of course they are stretched to extreme! Bunny, I often hear claimed, is a satirical book. The critic, among others, just doesn't get it's a satire. Look, I read the descriptions, I read the reviews. I know Bunny is satire, I just think it kinda sucks as one.
- Bunny never commits to being fully satirical; the bunnies, as muddled as I find their personalities, can be recognized as satire. Rather malicious satire that feels kinda not-like-other-girl-y, but fine. But so many others are not satirical, they just ARE. Is Jonah satire? is the Lion? Ursula (who has three different names in this book) MIGHT be satire, or might just be a tounge-in-cheek critique of the type of teachers in programs such as described. The way the world itself is painted is very grounded and down to earth for the most part - I acutally kind of love it, feels like a real breathing place- but from a satirical perspective, I just didn't see any consistency in applying it. Bunny doesn't STRETCH the way satire stretch, and never evenly. They kinda get to it with the first Bunny creation ritual, but it felt kind of out of touch with the rest of the book.
- Context, please!
- Call me a pleb, but I never join nor am I planning to join a Masters program; and If I did, it wouldn't be in fine arts. I don't have the background to recognize this sort of environment. This facts, however, have never bothered me when I engaged in settings similar to the one described in the book. In fact, I read to engage with lives that are different than mine, to see life from entirely different perspectives and to explore and learn about expriences and people apart from myself. Sometimes I broaden my horizons, sometimes I find out a point of joint experiences I can emphsize with, and sometimes I am just engaged.
- I don't have issues experiencing 'DARK ACADEMIA' (aka, this kind of shit would never happen in the engineering faculty), because those books know how to intreduce context important to the understanding of the story. Bunny lacks those. I don't want nor need an infodump, and in many of the book's weirder and wilder aspects I enjoyed the not knowing. But I need a context to frame the emotions and goals of the main characters. And there were a few times when I either had to make an educated guess or outright invent context, and others where I realized it when engaging in post reading discussions. I'm not talking about context to deepen my understanding or discover hidden meanings and metaphors and what not, I'm talking basic stuff. My two biggest one was first - WHY is going to this program is so important Samantha is willing to kill herself over it? (I kinda sorta assumed it will help her advance her writing, but there was never any talk about famous Warren alum or the outright benefits of even going there) - and b, - don't they have any other classes? (No, they probably don't, the workshop and private theisis work probably take longer time. I had to ask my friend doing her masters about it, and even then she had other courses so I just guess it was the case). The first is important to understand the circumstances of the hardship of the character, and the other is integral to understanding why Samantha is so isolated and why is she so desperate for the Bunnies - a group she clearly disrespect - to accept her.
- Slurs
- There is an individual use of two slurs in this (2019) book. The first, the R word for the mentally disabled - pretty sure related to Jonah, if I remember correctly, and if memory serves it was used naturally and not as part as criticizing behavior, aka we could really used ANY other word. The secound the G word for the Romani people -to describe a random woman AVA presumably locked eyes with in Paris that is never brought up again, literally a 'make AVA look cool story'. I'm not out to cancel Mona Awad for THAT, but seriously, wtf
- A review revealed to me that the word used repeatedly to describe a cleft lip is in fact, offensive. Oh but you see, it includes the word 'hare' in it, and therefore is so funny and clever in a book with bunny motifs. HARES ARE NOT EVEN THE SAME AS BUNNIES. and even if they were it was no reason to use this word. I am, as mentioned, ESL. So idk how common knowledge this is, and it might have been an honest mistake on Awad's part. I'm glad I caught up to the review though before I started using this word like a dumbass. Also, in writing this, I understand that using a very real medical condition as proof of 'imperfection' and 'flawed vision' fucking sucks
It's just... Like floatis at the upper corner of your eye. They are THERE, and maybe you'll be ok if you don't look to close, but then again the book invites us too and I want to, I think it deserves a deeper and intentional read. So I focus, and now the floaties are in the middle of my view. And maybe floaties are fine but every once in a while you just get a flash of light that disorients you for a second, and yeah its gone in a blink but here you are, still blinking.
Level 3: The other stuff
Or: stuff I'll still rumble about, but less.
- 1. What is up with using pop culture reference as descriptors?
- I don't mind cultural refrence, pop or otherwise. I think they can help set a space and time for the work, and are also can be used to hint toward character personality, foreshadowing or even themes. However, Bunny uses pop culture references not as an additive, but rather as a central peice. to the sentence. What is, exactly, 'Game of Thrones hair'? Most of it was wigs, and that is if you know she is refering to the show and not the first book in the ASOIAF series. What is ' Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind smile'? I haven't seen the movie. I don't know. Please, if you ever write a sentence like that, please define what you mean by that pop culture namedrop you just put in, and then WRITE THAT INSTEAD. As it is, those incidents cheapen the writing as a whole, and dates the work rather than places it. And I know Awad can do better, I know that because of other descriptors in the book
- Weird phrasing
- Just instances of weird phrasing, like 'I can almost laugh. My head is thrown back and uncontrollable laughter comes out of my mouth.' So can you laugh or can you *almost* laugh? I blame the editor(s) for small mistakes like that. I rarely see one mistakes of this kind in a book and this one had several. The writing deserved more!
- Ladies, there are youtuber discount codes for this
- The Bunnies great ritual secret is making 'hybrids', which is the pretentious way to say they are just making attractive boys , which btw, WEIRD word to use for grown women referring for partners to fuck! I thought it was part of some larger point but it's just bad phrasing. Anywho, this alone is embarrassing enough, but one major issue they had with the works, as it were, is the lack of penises. This is an issue because now, alas alas, the bunnies cannot be used for the bedsheets ballad.
- Ok. you guys are grown women (supposedly) of considerable wealth who live alone. GET AN INTIMATE TOY. Idk why i'm so pissed off about this point. It's just that it feels like a really obvious solution for their stupid male centered issue they are having.
- Lovin the Craft
- Lots of Lovecraft references. Presumably for the ookie spookie going mad town vibez. Lovecraft sucks as a person and though his enviorment might explain parts of his behaviour, he still had deep rooted issues and was a major Bigot for most of his life. The use of Cathulu for the cosmic horror stuff, in particular, is overwrought and boring. Why not invent a horror author that haunts the town, who's life/work mirrors aspects of the story?
- Also, if we go with the made up author, we are free to set the story out of New England, therefore avoiding setting and plotpoints that might further the idea that this book is trying to reheat some other books Tartes.
- Jonah my lad (best character)
- No but why am I more interested in this supporting character that is there as a reminder of what Samantha could choose - for company, and for her view on life- than the main cast?
- I legit would LOVE a book about a depressed drug addict from Alaska writing poems and talking with bears and then recovering and moving to a hoity toity school and still keeping an optimistic look on life with a kind and honest heart. If you got a book like that let me know.
And that is it. As far as my issues go. And now, conclusion
That's all, folks
Clearly I was affected by Bunny. But now I'm free, at least until the comments; and please leave them, love em or hate em I'd love to hear your opinions
It's late and I'm unhinged and I wanted to love this book, I wanted to love it so so much, and maybe I should locate a mosquito or something and metamorph it into the book I wanted to be, or maybe I should just go to sleep.
Thank you for reading, very very much.