Something I keep turning over. Whenever a tradition names a centre of the body, the place where breath and vitality are supposed to gather, it lands in more or less the same spot. Not the heart. Not the head. A few inches below the navel.

I noticed it in my own practice first, because that is where attention wants to settle once the breath slows down. Then I got curious about how widespread it actually is, and went looking.

Chinese practice calls it the lower dantian, usually translated as elixir field or cinnabar field. The earliest detailed description shows up in a text from the third century, where it is the field in which essence and spirit are stored.

Japanese practice calls it the hara, or tanden. I had assumed this was a second tradition arriving at the same answer on its own. It is not. Tanden is the Japanese reading of the same two Chinese characters. One idea, two languages. A lot of writing online presents this as cross cultural confirmation when it is really one tradition travelling.

The genuinely independent case is the Indian one. Hatha yoga texts describe the kanda, a bulb from which all 72,000 nadis are said to originate. The Goraksha Shataka places it above the genitals and below the navel and compares it to a bird's egg. The Hatha Yoga Pradipika describes it a little differently. The sources do not entirely agree with each other, which I find rather honest of them.

Then there is the part that actually got me. Dantian is a field. Kanda means bulb, tuber, root. Two traditions with no shared vocabulary both reached for agriculture to describe the same handful of inches. Something you plant in. Something that grows from a seed.

Whether that convergence is anatomical, or just what happens when people pay very close attention to their own breathing for long enough, I have no idea. But it is the lower belly in both, and neither of them got it from the other.

Im a newbie, please suggest which crystal will be better to increase the sexual energy in man ?

My zodiac: (Moon Sign) Capricon.

Hey. So during the eclipse a few weeks ago I began crying in the mirror. My trauma or past just came flooding out of me. Then for some reason I stood up. My hands came out besides me and it felt like electric/lighting was coming either from me or going into me. My hands became balls of energy. Like they wasnt solid. I started saying affirmations. I felt powerful. Like very powerful and after a minute or two of this I dropped to the floor. I then while in a child like pose felt I had to put my big toes and heels together and I lay there. I had no energy to move. I’m trying to find out if anyone knows what this was. I’m trying to research but since I feel anxious and depressed. I have no energy and everything seems to be going wrong in my life. Is anyone knows what this was exactly I’d appreciate the response. Thank you

Hi everyone!!!! ^^

I'm a teen who just started my esoteric study after years of being disoriented. Since I was a kid I have been always affascinated by crystals,tarot reading,candles etcc....

However, I don't really connect with "Green Witchcraft" or nature-based spirituality. I don't believe in deities or spirits of the woods. For me, everything is about frequencies, mind power, intention, and energy fields. Crystals and incense are like "frequency tuners" to me, and candles help my brain focus.Is there a specific branch of witchcraft or esotericism that focuses purely on energy work, psychology, and vibrations without the nature/pagan aspect?

I have collected many collecting crystals since I was 8~9,(i never counted them but i think they are 90~100). I honestly dont know where to start. Any books recommendations? Any tips on where to start? Thank you sososo much.

P.s i have a witch cross on my hand idk if that has to do with anything!

I have not met anyone who understands what I am about to say.

When ever someone thinks of me be it either thinking about me in love or just listening to me very attentively with full attention, I can feel it it my head, the top and center part of my brain I can feel it. As if some nerves in my brain gets inflated. I explained this to my family and friends, and none of them were able to grasp this concept. I want to know if anyone here can recognize this thing or not.

Why do some people have "heavy" energies even if they are beautiful people? Because of old souls with heavy baggage, heavy memories to free up? Absorption of the surrounding negative energies?

Why is it that some people have light energies and other heavy ones, when things aren’t circulating, things are crystallised? Thanks

My wife and I had my sister, brother-in-law, and niece over for dinner the other day. We just ate and visited. It’s a long story with my brother-in-law, but I’m honestly not a fan of him for multiple reasons I still want to spend time with my sister and new niece, though. It all started when he came in, hardly greeting me or my wife, sat down, and just played on his phone for pretty much the remainder of the visit. His overall demeanor and presence was just so empty and heavy for me and my wife.
After they left, we were rushing to tidy up and get ready for the work week, so I didn’t have much time to feel it, but when I was finally in bed I felt super uneasy and really didn’t get good rest waking up a lot and feeling low-key scared. Then this morning when I woke up, my wife got up and chatted with me, which isn’t normal since I wake up quite early for work, and said how uncomfortable she was last night too, hearing what she thought was chattering and a dog barking. Idk, I didn’t hear any of that myself. But after that I told her I felt the same unease and discomfort, and we both felt it was lingering negative energy from my brother-in-law. We moved here a couple of weeks ago and have never felt very uncomfortable, and it’s just apparent he left something negative when he and my sister went home.
If y’all have suggestions on what to do in our home to cast out any negative energy or presence he left, I’d appreciate it. Along with that, any suggestions on how to move forward? I want to spend time with my sister and new niece but really don’t know how to do that comfortably with him around, and I really don’t want him back at my place. How would y’all handle that?

Somebody opened a portal that attracted a bunch of negative entities talking in my head, materializing objects, etc. I don’t know anything about this stuff and I’m wondering how I can send the entities back/get rid of them?

People have said to just work on yourself which I have tried to do shame work but mostly I’m concerned about the actual portal and whatever earthbound/parasitic entities have come through to attach to me.

I am a hypersensitive empathete medium, etc., except that when I was young, I didn’t think it was mediumship. I thought everyone was like me; besides, I wasn’t like the others enough, inferior. And I didn’t learn to protect myself, I attracted toxic people into my life. And I don’t see why I was so different from everyone. But in fact I absorbed everything: emotions, energies of people and places. I was parasitized to the extreme. Moreover, I engaged in excessive behavior with these people in these places. I also had a demonic attachment that really ruined my life, but do you think that through the empathy I was able to absorb it from another person? Because I was surrounded by people with bad energies and one who had done witchcraft all you wanted

Thank you

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A few years ago, I managed to open my third eye through some practices. Months later, I was having vivid imaginations in my mind's eye and I was seeing people that looked like it was in real life and it felt so real. It felt so vivid and weird. I kept seeing in my mind's eye through my third eye people that looked familiar but they were being extremely abusive to me and they were attacking my actual spirit being. I saw that I was being attacked so much by some female that looked like it seemed real in my mind's eye somehow. Also, these visions seemed to be happening by some concentration and focus on my heart chakra in the middle of my chest and my third eye.

They both seemed to be stimulated and I felt my heart chakra being activated while this was happening. I tried to make these things stop by thinking about something else or imagining something else but it didn't work. I found out that the only way that I was able to communicate with these beings and the people torturing me was through telepathic communication from my soul and heart. Everything that I wanted to say came from my chest area but as I was being tortured more and more in the visions, the chest area started to show that it was getting weaker and weaker. It seems that whatever chakra in my chest was slowly vanishing. Nowadays, I can no longer feel it. I also started to lose multiple qualities of my original self: I was losing my ability to visualize/imagine/daydream, self-introspect/self-reflect, remember things, learn things, have divine willpower, dream effectively, feel orgasm, joy, losing parts of my core values and inner beliefs, etc.

I also felt like my logical/introspective side of me was slowly disappearing and vanishing and for the past two years, I have been struggling on a thread to get back to normal 100%. It feels awful. The only way that I could feel normal again is if I managed to fight against those oppressors that were attacking me, and that was through visualizing myself fighting back against them but I had to be in a very specific concentrated state for that to happen. I had to really concentrate and visualize myself fighting back against them, so it showed that something real was happening somewhere here. Can someone please help me and how do I get back to normal 100%??

I want to preface this by saying that if you would of told me this was going to happen to me about a year ago I would of kept an open mind but not have been really what was going in.

The gist of what us going on is u have been practicing energy work more intensely for the past year in the form of chi kung acupressure and mediation and I reached a point in my practice where i both intellectually and experientially see the interplay of energy among people and our environments. I can see how i m energetically progressing to the degree that I'm affecting and honestly having an effect on my environment. Like more and more ill have a sixth sense of knowing when people are staring at me are reacting to me. Sometimes ill catch people staring at me and I can sense just s great interplay of emotions coming across there face with an intensity like I killed there cat or something.Its also been a theme throughout my life that complete strangers will stop and tell me the deepest darkest secrets of there life with no preamble I'm learning to set boundaries know and I'm realizing it's because it's I'm a grounding figure and have an apparently grounding demeanor. Frankly I would think it was all bullshit if it wasn't for my experience meeting s physic at my time who for an hour kinds if opened me up to my deepest hindrances and questions in a penetrating way that msde me realize he wasn't full of shit.

I think the biggest thing I'm suffering from is as I do more work and pair with this with more internal work and enegery work is I'm realizing more and more the limits of my own and especially the people around me wisdom. I have always prided myself on my Intution but lately is sharpened so much to the point I can usually see the unconscious aspect in other peoples reply. It made me go even more into my own world more and speak even less. It just feels like I got blessed with some estoric knowledge that does nothing but future alienate me futher. I'm hopeful because I'm seeing a light ahead but in all honesty most days just ...what the fuck.

I noticed something, my in laws have been in our home for almost 6 months leaving soon. It’s been such an emotional drain. Now at dinner, our children are leaving as fast as they can from the table- like within minutes. Can children pick up on these things as well?

I'd like to get your opinion on the direction to work on chakras for a story I'm working on. The premise is that she had a traumatic incident as a child where a spirit was looking for a new host and latched onto her jumping from a decaying beast through physical contact. As she grew up it drained and influenced her energy negatively, creating chakra shadows and blockages. She leaves home to find a change and eventually ends up knocked out and the parasite begins vying for control of the body.

The crown chakra in my world is more like a gate to the spirit realm. Practitioners can view/sense spirits and energy with the third eye, and astral projection is using the minds eye to visualize ones energy in other worlds. Accessing the crown chakra while projecting can send one to the spirit realm which appears as one feels. Sleep paralysis and nightmares vs blissful lucid dream kind of thing. She's assisted by an energy healer to enter the subtle chakra realms and balance them by clearing blockages and absorbing the shadows to become balanced, and eventually put the parasite to rest.

My question is, would it make more sense that she starts at the crown/third eye and work down to the root to regain control of her body with an open mind, or enter the root through the body and work up to clear the blockage of spiritual energy at the crown?

She doesn't know much about chakras and healing, in fact she rejects spiritual energy because of the trauma causing her to hallucinate and become paranoid so she tells herself nothings there, so maybe she needs to work root upward to release fear and align the chakras. But going somewhere new is what opens her crown and sparks a kundalini journey, so maybe she enters through the crown and works on her perspective and asks herself who she is first in the third eye and throat before tackling identity and desire.

I can see either way working but I'm wondering which way makes more sense to you? I've been going back and forth for months.

My mother grew up as the youngest sister in a family of twelve. She was always sheltered, never traveling alone and always having someone to pick her up and drop her off. When she married my father, that dynamic simply carried over, and he took on the same role. Growing up, our household was shaped by her emotional and verbally abusive behavior toward both my father and me, which stemmed from classic narcissistic tendencies.

Her approach to me was a confusing mix of trying to be my best friend while simultaneously being mean and belittling. She would act rude to my actual friends, turn around and be cruel to me, and then later flatly deny ever saying a word. At the same time, she was intensely competitive. She struggled to keep friends or maintain relationships with family and neighbors because everything became a contest for her. If she was not given all the attention at special events, she would throw full tantrums, yet she never hesitated to use me to amplify her own public image.

As I grew into adulthood, she began copying my style, my jewelry, and everything else about me. If I got close to anyone else, her jealousy would flare up immediately. Eventually, after many explosive fights, she learned that she could no longer pull her nonsense with me.

Still, I have always felt persistently drained, like someone was actively leeching my vitality, and for a long time I kept wondering who or what could be causing it. I have read about energy vampires, and while I know this dynamic is not the sole root of all my fatigue, since my mental health treatment plays a big role as well, the connection to her behavior felt impossible to ignore. Her reactions whenever she did not get her way were a massive drain, largely because she had a habit of throwing out genuine curses in those moments.

Once, when she was thwarted, she turned to me and said, "I hope your life comes crashing down." When I confronted her about it later, she immediately backtracked with extreme drama, claiming, "I never said this, and if I did, I should be struck with lightning." I couldn't help but respond, "Well, you will be, because you did."

I had an epiphany about all of this recently while I was just going about my household chores. It suddenly hit me how much of my energy she was actively trying to siphon over the years. Today, we live continents apart and maintain a quiet, amicable relationship, speaking for only a few minutes every month or so. Having established my boundaries, she no longer tries those tactics on me; instead, she now pulls all of her nonsense exclusively on my father.

I tried to avoid using AI for this post, but I’m mostly armchair educated and don’t always have the ability to communicate my thoughts and ideas as clearly as I’d like to. I used an LLM to help simplify and organize what I’m trying to present. The ideas and experiences themselves are my own.

AI assisted:
I’ve been exploring healing through subconscious communication, among other things, for many years.

It began with using a pendulum, asking questions internally, and receiving ideomotor—or involuntary—responses as feedback. This was originally introduced to me by a psychologist as a method of working with trauma-related dissociation.
The basic idea was that many of our inner conflicts can be understood as different parts of ourselves that developed through memories, emotions, experiences, and patterns. Rather than fighting these parts, we can communicate with them, understand what they are trying to accomplish, and help them heal and integrate.

As we become more integrated, we can move toward a healthier and more complete version of ourselves—a concept I think of as the higher self.
Over time, I no longer needed a pendulum. I learned to recognize much subtler ideomotor responses through small movements in my fingers or hands, and sometimes through direct verbal communication.

I’ve also continued exploring the more spiritual and metaphysical possibilities of this process.
I’d now like to share some of the questions and intentions I’ve developed so that others can experiment with them for themselves.
You can use a pendulum, subtle ideomotor responses, or whatever method of internal communication works for you.

The Questions

Can I speak to the subconscious?

Are there any barriers to communication?

Are there any parts that are ready, willing, and wanting to receive healing?

If there are barriers or difficulties:
Can the subconscious use the energy field of claytorus1111 to gain understanding and assist with communication?

Then:
Can the subconscious please tag and work with all structures, elements, and patterns that are ready, willing, and wanting to receive healing?

And finally:
Please do a massive change history and everything necessary to reinforce the updates throughout the underlying structures and patterns of these parts.

By “change history,” I mean the intention to incorporate the healing throughout the underlying memories, emotions, associations, and patterns that give a part its structure—not to erase what happened, but to update how those experiences are held and responded to.

My intention is not to tell anyone what they have to believe. This is a practice I’ve developed through years of personal exploration, and I’m offering it as something others can explore for themselves.
Take what is useful, remain curious, and pay attention to what you experience.

Recognizing an Ideomotor Response
An ideomotor response is usually very subtle. The goal isn’t to consciously move your hand or pendulum to produce the answer. Instead, relax your muscles, ask the question, and allow the response to emerge on its own.

With practice, you may notice a small movement, twitch, pressure, change in direction, or other sensation occurring before you consciously decide what the answer should be.

One of the best ways to practice is to remain genuinely uncertain about the answer. Don’t try to make the response happen.

Ask. Wait. Notice. Allow.

It’s also important to remember that an involuntary response doesn’t necessarily mean the answer is objectively correct. It may reflect unconscious thoughts, expectations, emotions, memories, or other information your mind is processing.

The value is in using the response as a way of exploring what is happening within you.

Back in 2023 i experienced an invinsible energy that came into my room and that made my body vibrate horribly every night. I could barely sleep under this period in feb 2023. Anyway this energy eventually changed to now being on my head. I can feel it all the time moving around. Have contacted multible mediums and healers but none of them managed to fix the problem. I have bough Palo santo and dragonsblood and saged where i live. I have bought quartz, black tourmaline, black obsidiand, onyx, and selenite stone and nothing worked. So i need advice on what do do.

did it ended well as u imagined???

i wanted to get revenge on my abusers(a group of people) who constantly blackmailed and bullied me for exposing one of them for their wrongdoings.. but they have high social status n power so manifesting revenge would be difficult

it hurts so bad when the wrongdoers just go ahead w their lives while i remain crying

please be kind to reply

(tw: several mentions of death and final illnesses)

Hi, I'm new here, although not new to considering the possibility that I have some intuitive gifts I'd like to explore.

I've been thinking about this a while and because this just happened again, I'm now interested in exploring what this might mean. It may sound ridiculous. My apologies in advance.

Might it be a sign that I have some sort of psychic/intuitive/mediumship ability if an oddly high number of people in my life with whom my impressions/interactions were largely negative (some of whom were genuinely "bad people" and some I wouldn't think of that way), to the point that I'd consider them enemies, as well as a couple people who have inconveniently sensitive information/secrets about me, have gone on to have untimely deaths (not due to me!) or otherwise be whisked away to locations so far away that they have practically zero odds of ever coming into contact with me again? It's not every such person in my life, but the number of them to whom this has happened seems to be higher than chance predicts.

In one case, the guy was a colleague on the older side, and every interaction I ever had with him was negative. One of these got me temp banned from a forum/group/site for a good year. A year or so later, he went in for a very routine surgery but he died on the table, and it was very unexpected. Lived across the country from me, in case anyone is suspecting any involvement from me--there was not! I found out way after the fact. I want to say it was a joint replacement surgery.

Another former instructor with whom I often butted heads (to the point that it affected my college app process) ended up passing from ovarian cancer at barely menopausal age. A close friend of hers at the same organization who had some sensitive info about me/her/us (though I did not really know her personally) passed of a heart attack in her 60s a few years ago. Found out because we have some other close friends in common.

It was the above two examples that got me suspicious, especially when my instructor's friend also passed. I found out about the instructor's death a few years after the fact but realized it had happened right around the time the other guy died in his routine surgery. I mean we know ovarian cancer is sneaky and can take you quickly but it's just too coincidental.

In less extreme cases, some others have been offered jobs in other countries and moved overseas, been offered retirement at much earlier ages than expected, or been let go from the positions that brought them into contact with me. For example, a faculty member in my grad school program who thought very poorly of me and my work, who was whisked away into an admin position that severely limited his interaction with my department, then took an early retirement to follow his new girlfriend overseas. He would not have been expected to retire for another 10-15 years and he basically had his dream job at our institution.

And sometime this past week, someone I'd lightly consider an enemy passed suddenly. Not sure of the day since they lived alone and were not discovered for a couple of days. They had some chronic illnesses but nothing that would suggest a sudden demise in their 50s. There was a small chance this person and I would have had to interact in the near future at some professional events and I was kind of dreading it. And I don't know if it's correlated, but the morning after I found out about this, my soul cat was much more outwardly affectionate than usual. Very loud purring, cuddling on the bed when he doesn't usually hang out on the bed.

Sometimes this even extends to people with whom I temporarily butted heads but later made up or had no ill will towards. A guy who fits that category passed of an AVM in his 30s. It might have been 10 years after we last saw each other. Also two girls from high school who later self-unsubscribed, although clearly there were underlying issues involved (and that graduating class is so generally cursed that deserves its own post).

If this is some sort of power on my part and not something benevolent above or attached to me that's just removing these forces from my life on my behalf--I'd like to harness this in some way or at least control it more explicitly. (Honestly, like sparing them from actual death but conveniently opening up very faraway job opportunities, that would be great.)

I do get some degree of deja-reve and "thinking of someone random and then that person pops up soon after." And I seem to have at least some ability to manifest things I need/want. Like

if I'm dumpster diving (a casual hobby of mine) I may find something that I had just thought to myself the previous week that I would like one of, or that my spouse had wanted but had not even gotten around to telling me he wanted that thing (a pair of brown shoes last week from the thrift, and he had not told me this before I brought them home)

Of course I don't want to go into much more detail than this because if I do, I'm probably going to end up on someone's watchlist. It's that improbable.

Am I imagining things or could this be some sort of "good" attachment/forces/intuition associated with me? It's almost like the universe is removing "obstacles," whether situations or people, from my life (or the planet) at a rate higher than chance would predict.

Perhaps another wrinkle in this is that I strongly feel I had some sort of hex attached to me between early-mid April and the end of May. Tons of terrible luck all around that pretty suddenly cleared up in June.

Thank you!

I’ve been going through some heavy things. Anybody know how to get rid of voices and witchcraft?

Hi, friends

I don't know if it is the right place to talk about this but why not give it a shot... Community might help...

So, I have a friend, a close friend and When I am around him or talk to him (both physically and through internet) I feel drenched, my energy drain, bad luck, misfortune coming out of nowhere (not every time). I have got dreams signalling me to stay away from him for my own good but there's a problem..

My close friend is one of a kind a nice open-minded person. He is well trusted and never betrayed me (maybe) I don't want to lose him.

What should I do? Is my friend a energy vampire? Should I cut of contacts with him (which I don't want) or talk to him less?

Thanks in advance. Have a great day....

In 2023, I let a girl into my life. We were close friends from college and became roommates. Throughout 2024, things in my life started falling apart while living with her

I always felt drained, like she was feeding off my energy for her own success and brought negativity into my life while living with her during that time things fell apart across school, business, and finances, and Looking back at old photos I look like a completely different person.

In 2025 I was forced to move out and went through a financial crisis. That period is honestly a blur to me and I completely lost who I was. I managed to graduate on my own, but lost almost everything: car accident, no income, no place to live, and my family got hit hard too.

I’m looking to do a cord cutting ritual to release her from my life for good and reclaim my energy, but I want to make sure I do it right and are there any consequenc

Hi everyone,
I’d love to get some perspectives from experienced mediums, Akashic Records readers, and energy workers here.
Recently, I had a very intense and transformative session with an Akashic Records practitioner. During our first session, she identified a heavy energetic block located at my 3rd chakra (solar plexus / stomach area). We worked together to clear it, and the release was immediate—my ongoing anxiety dropped significantly, and my stomach issues (gastritis) felt much lighter. It was a truly profound experience.
However, before our session today, I casually mentioned to her that I occasionally smoke cannabis on weekends to relax. I don't drink alcohol or coffee due to my stomach, so a joint on the weekend is really my only way to unwind.
She immediately told me that I have to quit entirely if we are to continue working together. She explained that from an energetic standpoint, cannabis makes the auric field overly permeable and introduces unwanted energetic interference. While she wasn't judgmental about it on a personal level, she gave me a strict ultimatum: it’s either her sessions or the cannabis.
This left me feeling quite confused and torn:

1. I fully respect a practitioner’s boundaries and technique, but an absolute ultimatum for casual weekend use feels a bit extreme to me.
   
2. Does weekend cannabis use *really* linger in the auric field so heavily that it prevents legitimate Akashic/energetic work days later?
   
3. How do you, as readers or clients, navigate boundary setting around plant medicine/substances versus respecting a client's personal autonomy and free will?
   I’d really appreciate your honest thoughts, experiences, or advice on how to handle this situation. Thanks in advance!

So I finally did a cord cutting for me and children’s father… we have been together for almost 15years and still live together. When I usually do my workings I just simply let it do what it do but this time I gave reading the movement of the candles a try since now I’ve been more in tuned with my gift as a seer. I will say the flames were very still in the beginning then his started started swaying toward mine hard to the point where the twine was tied caught fire, it burnt down to the knot that was on my candle and stopped at the knot the candles continued to burn then his candle started burning the twine it burnt one side of the twine (it was tied around the candles as if it was a rubberband) while the candles are still connected his flame shot straight up high flickering hard eventually setting the last part of the twine sending my candle wild. My candle started burning faster than his to the point where my complete burned out with the wild flame to the very end. His became more calm as mine went crazy.

How I read it was like how our relationship was, we were young simple minded little things bothered us more than it should have but he would ultimately cross a line and watch my reaction. He look back and see how his actions set the tone for the relationship. So in the candles he initiated a lot of the toxic energy but I would bypass it and overlook it (not letting the first flame sever the cord) his candle got more reckless and did the damage enough to the break the bond but I still stayed connected matching energy just a tad to keep the flame alive the final burn he did the ultimate thing causing me to react over the top emotional and irrational to reach the point of completion will his just watched.

Part of me always felt like his ego was played in my face in the terms of tit for tat and then hide his hand like I was dramatic or being irrational and whatever he did was justified for something I did or didn’t do. (he has a double Leo in his big 3 moon and rising, Pisces sun)

Before I start ranting what do yall think the candles said.

I’m very new to all of this energy/psychic stuff, so I’m coming here with genuine curiosity and would love to hear from people who have more experience with it than I do.
Something I’ve noticed throughout my life is that people’s reactions to me can be strangely polar. Some people will seemingly arbitrarily dislike me, sometimes without knowing me. Yet I’ve noticed almost the exact opposite pattern whenever I find myself around people I consider truly special, gifted, benevolent, deeply intelligent, or unusually high-achieving. They single me out immediately. Those people tend to really, really like me. Sometimes almost to an addictive extent, as in they seemingly can’t get enough of being around me.
I’m beginning to explore ideas surrounding energy, intuition, psychic sensitivity, etc., I’m curious whether people in these communities recognize this kind of polarization as a phenomenon.
I’m extremely open-minded and genuinely love how lost I am in the midst of this beautiful life. I’m a very deep thinker, and I generally don’t partake in the kinds of conversations most people around me seem to be interested in. I’ve been this way from birth. I was born at noon on the winter solstice.
Even at around five years old, despite being raised in a Muslim family in the U.S., I remember recognizing that I didn’t actually believe what I was being taught religiously. I outwardly performed belief because I understood that rejecting it would bring consequences, but internally I didn’t buy it. Independence of thought seems to have been present extremely early in my life.
Lately I’ve also had a persistent intuition that I may have certain abilities or sensitivities that I’ve buried or suppressed over the years. I don’t want to prematurely label them or convince myself that I possess something I don’t. I’d rather explore and see what actually emerges.
Part of that exploration for me right now is purification, specifically *chitta shuddhi* as it’s discussed in the Advaita Vedanta tradition: purification/clarification of the mind. There’s a part of me that feels that rather than chasing extraordinary experiences or trying to manufacture “abilities,” I should simply continue this inner work and allow whatever is genuinely there to reveal itself naturally.
So I’m curious: Have any of you experienced this kind of extreme polarization from other people? Do certain personalities, sensitivities, or energetic qualities tend to produce dramatically different reactions depending on who encounters them? And for those of you who discovered intuitive or psychic sensitivities later in life, did inner work or purification play a role in uncovering them?
I’m here to learn, so interpretations from different perspectives are welcome. I’d love to hear your experiences.