AI is taking my job. I fucked up the last ten years of my career. Didn't save any money. Day 250, no weed. Watching too much porn. I'm too tired to masturbate. Day 250, no weed. Let's get to 251.

I’ve been a heavy user of carts for a few years and have been trying to quit. I’ve managed a few long breaks (longest was about 10 weeks) but have slipped a few times. I’m currently 3 weeks THC free after ~2 months of heavy all-day-every-day use.

I’m turning 30 this year & I’m used to people thinking I’m younger than I am, it’s been happening since I was a kid. But I’ve been stressed as hell about how I look this year. It felt like I was aging at a rapid rate & I thought it was genetics catching up to me. My skin looked awful (I’ve been dealing with the worst acne I’ve ever experienced), my hair has been dry and frizzy. But it was more than that too. Not sure what exactly, I just felt like I looked old and haggard. Like the lines on my face were more pronounced.

THREE WEEKS LATER and holy shit. Yesterday was the first time in a long time I’ve looked in the mirror and didn’t feel dread about what I saw. I look so much better😭 My skin is FINALLY clearing up, the dark circles under my eyes are gone & overall I feel I look younger and brighter. Just applying my face sunscreen yesterday I was poking my cheeks bc of how supple the skin felt.

It’s just insane to me how much it was actually affecting how I looked (and also how I perceived myself). I felt like a stranger & hated myself for it.

Anyway, just posting this to remind myself not to go to the dispensary today.

I just shit myself. Apparently, your gut gets so used to cannabinoids that once it doesn't have it, it has to completely rewire itself. It's not just the brain fog, or suppressing nightmares, etc - your entire system gets used to relying on a foreign substance to help regulate basic functionality.

I'm never going back to wasting days (years/decades) - and I hope at least one person reading this realizes that there's a lot more going on with this than we'd care to admit.

I used to make excuses, too. Cannabis helped me for a long time, but it isn't without its downsides.

Still very much pro-weed, but not for me any more.

I finally smoked enough. I don't need it any more.

It may be obvious but felt worth mentioning nonetheless. Everyone, please keep telling your stories. They resonate. If not always with everyone, I guarantee you at least someone. That resonance helps. And I think we can all use as much help as we can get.

Personally I find this sub often provides positive reinforcement, courage, compassion and other effective tools against the mighty urge.

It's been 300 days without weed - and it's so easy not to celebrate this! 

Because it somehow doesn't feel like a big thing. There is a side in me that says, not that much has changed, life is pretty much still the same. But that's not true. I've made big changes since then, but they are thanks to all the small thing. 

And this mindset shift that's happened - that's happening, is quite amazing and worth celebrating! 

For context: I have ADHD and Autism, both late diagnosed, and while I had a solid upbringing from a material perspective, there were a lot of bumps in the parenting, which all leads to some great levels of anxiety and long lasting depression. 

So, nicely said - I am working with a bit of rocky baseline. Probably also the reason I smoked as excessively as I did. 

The biggest change is really not running away anymore from my negative emotions. Needing to find a productive outlet for them. And honestly said, there are still too many afternoons and evenings spent doomscrolling, but there are more days than not where I am actually doing something to improve my day to day. 

It's taken a lot of my thoughts from "one day this great thing will happen, that will change everything" to "this is the small thing I can do right now. And through these small steps, big things have happened. 

I've also been more accepting of negative or uncomfortable emotions. Rather than lighting up because it "will make me feel better" (which it didn't), I've learned to sit with it. It doesn't always work, but there have been a lot of moment where my mind suddenly came up with a different perspective and taught me: "It's not as bad as you thought" or "yes that sucks, but it doesn't define you". 

Has this all been thanks to stopping to partake? Probably not. But if I was still high every day in my "productive stoner" kind of mode, I wouldn't have made the small steps. 

Soon after I radically reduced my drinking, stopped consuming caffeine (that shit is more addictive than weed! God, I miss drinking a cold coke), and I also got a new therapist as the old one was just not working. 

I think of it as a house that was on fire. With the flames on, I couldn't do any changes. But now that the fire and smoke is gone, I can have a look at what's been destroyed, what needs tearing down. What can I keep, where can I redecorate. Where do I build new?

And that I can do step by step, little by little. 

And that is worth celebrating!

I'm glad I found this community when I did, it offered a lot of strength and support. So than you, everyone!

Today I'm 14 days w/o after 20 years as a heavy daily smoker. Been through a lot in the last 2 weeks, starting with an upset stomach for a couple days, then a week of non-stop sweating 24 hours a day. Now I'm coughing up dirty mucus every couple of minutes.

BUT, I finally have some positives to share! Last night I saw The Odyssey at a theater and I can honestly say it was the most enjoyable movie I can remember, especially because I didn't fall asleep, like usual. I never realized how much the weed was blunting the experience.

Now I just got back from a long walk while listening to music on my headphones, and it sounded just as good as that first time I got high and listened to a favorite song.

After all these years I didn't realize that it wasn't enhancing these experiences anymore, and was actually doing the opposite. I can't wait to try a really good steak while sober to see if the effect is similar.

I’ll hit a year of no weed on Thursday and have been contemplating trying it again. I miss the big clouds of smoke I get from a bong hit and disconnecting from reality. Previously I smoked for 7 years, up to an 1/8 a day.

I’m saving money from not going to the dispo every other day and am much more emotionally stable and my life isn’t revolving around weed. Ive been single for a while and weed was always there to keep me company.

Can you folks list some reasons why I shouldn’t go back?

I had smoked since 1996 and spent most of that time working in the cannabis industry. By the end I was experiencing unbelievably severe anxiety that almost completely went away when I stopped smoking. I would usually stop smoking every year a couple weeks before and during burningman so I could breathe out in the desert. I just liked being able to breathe in general so I kept it going and now here I am

I’ve been in this sub for about a week now… not long, I know. But today I’ve seen more struggles than wins, and I wanted to share something and speak to my fellow people who are just starting or debating if this is the shift they need. And here’s what I have to say…

Two things. One, anything worth having is worth working for. And two, it doesn’t work unless YOU DO. You don’t quit, snap your fingers, and feel better. Think back to the times before you starting smoking. The things we all yearn to recover and experience again. This is your “why”. Why am I doing this? I want the mental clarity. I want to save money. I want to not feel dissociated. I want to laugh authentically. I want to FEEL things. I could go on.

My point is, we can’t point the finger. At the end of the day, we are all here because of the decisions we made years back. A joint with friends on a Friday night turned into a decade of abusing our lungs, brains, and bodies. This takes work, and it takes self realization. This isn’t about proving that you can do it to a spouse, a friend, a parent, a sibling, or anyone.

This process gets easier when you do it FOR YOU. Be selfish here people. You are reclaiming aspects of your life that have been gone for so long… it doesn’t matter what I think, whether you’ve quit, or are thinking about quitting, I am proud of you. The people around you are proud of you. But are you proud of you? Celebrate the small wins. Did you get through day 1? AWESOME, go grab a sweet treat down the street. Maybe a month? FanTASTIC! Go take the girlfriend/boyfriend out for a little dinner and a movie.

You can do this… it takes remembering your “why” and that you have to be doing this for yourself, and no one else. Find it in you to be the best version of yourself. No more “trying” to quit. You DID quit. And you CAN do this. You are worth the result and never forget it. Again, anything worth having is worth working for my friends. So go and get it. Much love people.

Y'all are freaking me out. I was daily user, double hitting carts almost every hour, waking up and smoking 3-4 times every night.

First couple days sober I would have intermittent sweats or chills but today I'm feeling pretty good.

At work I would take walks every hour or so to hit carts. Now I'm walking and doing deep breathing and it seems cool for the time being but looking at what everyone here has gone through compared with how heavily I was using... Fuuuuuuuuuuuck.

The dreams haven't come back but that's what I've been dreading. I buckling up.

hello, today is my second day fully weed free and it was a very rough morning. i woke up extremely anxious. cried for a while. got upset that my boyfriend has to go to work. cried more, decided i cannot handle being out today so i stayed home. now i’m just sitting here in my messy apartment that i need to clean wondering how i’m gonna get the day started without the constant flow of dopamine i get from hitting the cart, and just from having it with me and knowing i can hit it. my boyfriend asked me why i didn’t wait until my counseling appointment on friday to quit for good. i simply didn’t feel comfortable using my crutch anymore once i decided it was time to quit. i just want this thc out of my system. i want to be normal.

I have been abusing thc gummies for a while and have realized how addicted I am. I only take them at night and not even full amounts most nights. I recently tried to quit and broke down and caved on day 5. I attempted to return to my normal nightly doses but the anxiousness and panic presumed and sent me spiraling for days. Today I had some suicidal thoughts that really shocked me. That scared me so bad I started researching into care to help me detox and regain my life. I don’t think I can do this by myself. I have a 9 night work trip overseas and I am terrified of being hostage to my addiction in that setting. I need to admit I’ve lost and seek the help I need

Can an addiction care center or medical detox really help me?

I'm 28. I’ve tried to quit before. Usually by now my skin would be crawling and I’d be looking for scraps to smoke. This time is different; I don’t feel the urge to look for weed anywhere. I'm going to smash my bong with a hammer. My brain feels foggy af. I’ve been journaling, watching TV, and doing chores when I feel restless. I just want to be sober and sane for once. 

I was smoking all day everyday for about 10 years. What a waste of my time. It was okay at first – When I was 18 and starting college I only smoked at the occasional party and always with friends. But by the time I was 21, getting high was my main hobby and I did it alone. I should’ve quit a long time ago.

For the first time in my life I can admit that I have a substance problem and I want to get better. Usually if I can't get high I'll get drunk, but I'm going completely sober. The last time I smoked I felt sad, numb, and withdrawn. It felt like my mind was begging me to do something different. I never want to feel so lost again.

Before I was a stoner, I used to read a hundred books a year, had an active social life, was super creative and intelligent. I still believe I’m capable of being the person I used to be. Maybe even smarter this time around. 

My partner of 5 years who I live with is still a daily weed user. I don’t mind that they still smoke, but I’m thinking about asking them to only smoke outside and to put away their joints so I don't have access.

Thanks for reading.

Hello everyone,

I wanted to ask whether anyone has had a similar experience to me when quitting.

To give a bit of context: I am 30/F, been smoking since my 15th, almost daily since my 18th. After having a bad anxiety attack over 2 years ago, I switched to smoking only hash. I had many unsuccesful attempts at quitting before this, always picking it back up after a few days or weeks. But I've carried the desire to quit completely with me for years now. Because what started as a way to deal with social anxiety (ironic right?), an outlet for creativity and a way to self-medicate my depression, ended up being an impediment to making personal progress and growth.

I have used a recent trip abroad as a jumping off point to quit, as I was very active on the trip itself, hoping to push through the habit on my return. So far this has been surprisingly successful, especially because I live in a country where it is legal to smoke and I am surrounded by dispensaries. I only notice pangs of missing it here and there, which I am able to ignore so far.

Contrary to many other posts here, I am able to eat, focus on my hobbies, and I sleep well (with vivid dreams). But I do feel extremely tired, needing additional naps wherever possible. As such, I am wondering whether anyone else has had a similar experience, i.e. whether it is related to quitting and the body processing no longer ingesting THC. Because I am starting to feel that it could be a health issue rather than a side effect of quitting.

Aside from my question, I also want to express my gratitude for this subreddit. I have followed it for many years and have found it very helpful to follow the experiences and trajectories of others in their quitting journey.

Thanks for reading, hope to hear from you!

Today is day 1 for me. Again.

I’ve quit many times & always think I can just “smoke this once,” but before I know it I’m back to daily use.

I want to quit.
I need to quit.
I am quitting.

My partner is heavily addicted & apparently has no interest in quitting.

It’s like the more I ask him to, the more he resists. He’s a stubborn MF.

Leaving him is not an option I want to consider. We have a beautiful life together with kids, a home, business, etc. & are aligned on pretty much everything—except smoking.

He grows it & smokes it & grows it & smokes it.

I started smoking again, in part, because I appreciated feeling connected to him again. Like, really connected.

When I’m not smoking & he is, I find myself irritated with him & start to think of him as a lazy POS even though that isn’t true.

I’m scared to be the only one quitting. I’m scared of what it will do to us because I know I’m going to get irritated, mouthy, & judgmental of him.

I’m curious to hear from other people who might be the only one to quit smoking in the relationship. How did you deal with your partner smoking? Any tips?

I’m not interested in hearing a bunch of people telling me to end things with him because it’s not that simple when you have a life & family together. This is the man I want to grow old with. But I am worried about being the only sober one.

Help. 😭 TIA. 🫶

Made it to one week sober (for the umpteenth time) and I am so sweaty 😩 lol trying to remember how uncomfortable I feel so I can stick to my goals of quitting for real this time. Physically I feel awful and can’t sleep, but mentally I feel much better already. 💪🏻 maybe it’s all in my head, but even my face looks less puffy and bloated. Anyone else just starting their quitting journey? We got this. 🙌🏻

So this is my first time posting here and I can’t help but feel like a huge cliché, but the title does say it all.

I’m currently on around 40 days without weed. I won’t go into my whole life story, but let’s just say that trauma and addiction have riddled my life.

Started smoking my first weed at about 14 and around the same age I was stealing wine from my parents to get drunk by myself in my bedroom. Escapism has always been a huge thing for me.

Fast forward to now (32), I quit drinking for 1,5 years after heavy addiction and like I said I am now doing well in my 100th attempt at quitting weed (40 days now). I am going to be a father in 6 months and it’s time to fucking do this.

Now quitting itself, as in getting ‘clean’, is difficult but I’ve managed to do this multiple times in life. That’s not the hard part for me.

The hard part is my complete disfunctionality and depression at this point. It’s not like the world says ‘oh you’re quitting, here take a couple months off from all your responsibilities.’ It’s honestly suffocating.

Work makes me feel like absolute shit, but I don’t know for sure if it’s the work or if it’s my current state of mind. Family events already feel like it’s ‘too much’, leading to further guilt and honestly increases the urge to just pick up smoking again.

How do you deal with this? I wish I could just disappear into my books, exercise, walks and games for 2 months until this slowly gets better. I am motivated to continue, but how the hell do you keep yourself functional during this time?

Title says it all. Really think this is truly the only way for me because I have so much coinciding mental illness that goes along with the weed addiction. Anyone have any experience with this?

Hey guys! I've been a daily smoker for over 10 years (27yo). I have been into inpatient programs twice for mental health and I have chs. Each time I stop smoking I go through horrible stomach pain and vomiting. After I few days I feel better and end up convincing myself that it's not the weed ... Then I end up smoking again and I get the same horrible stomach pains restarting. How do I convince myself to stay clean?

This is my first week of not smoking hash, I feel the energy returning.

It's not my first time trying to quit, hopefully I can stay strong. The me of tomorrow, wants the me of today to stay sober.

I just want to feel NORMAL. I don’t want to go to MA bc it feels punitive and I don’t want to continue to suffer. When will this stop, it feels like never. I parked at the dispo last night and left, this is the longest I’ve been without it in over 2 years

It’s too hot outside to walk. Nothing is interesting on any streaming service. It’s 5 PM AND I AM SOOOOOOOO BORED

Idk what to be doing with myself right now so beyond bored which is only making things so much harder as all I can do is think about how hard and shit things are right now and I’m so fkn tired all the time.

First few days I was surprisingly quite productive had an interview today think it went well but now I’m just sat around doing f all. Trying to find things to do to stay productive but idk what to be at.