r/spirituality 7h ago

General ✨ I’m deadass going to start worshipping myself

38 Upvotes

I have found no interest in the abrahamic gods or any religions basically but I still feel a need for guidance from a higher being or a sense of belonging so I decided as an act of defiance or
self love even that I am god to myself now and that I would basically have this belief system where I "worship" myself in the sense that I follow a moral code that makes sense to me and look up to my higher self as a source of wisdom and then feed my higher self wisdom so it can get wiser and wiser through educating myself , eating good food to stay sharp and working out , getting smarter and other acts of self love , I want to know more about such a belief system. Pretty sure I’m not the first person in history to pull something like this , does it have a name and where can I read about it ?


r/spirituality 6h ago

Philosophy Spiritual Confusion Pushing Me to Derealization

9 Upvotes

I’ve gotten myself into a really bad existential hole, because a lot of spiritual beliefs have made life feel pointless to me.

I’ve heard these beliefs from different teachers and spiritual frameworks, so I guess maybe I shouldn’t be combining them. But these are the conclusions they lead me to.

1. If life is a simulation and nothing here is ultimately real, then there is no obvious point to doing anything.
A common explanation is that Source created all of this in order to experience itself.
But Source is everything. It already contains everything. If Source contains all possibilities, all experiences, and all of existence, then it does not need to learn anything through me.
And if this reality is basically Source imagining or simulating experience through individual souls, then none of this is actually happening in the way I would consider life real.
That leaves me with the conclusion that my actions, my life, and even my survival do not ultimately matter.

2. If every possibility already exists in different timelines or dimensions, then my choices lose their significance.
If every possible choice I could make is already being made somewhere, then nothing is actually being created by my decision here.
Every outcome already exists.
So whether I choose A or B, both realities exist anyway.
And if all possibilities already exist eternally within Source, then the idea that Source needs us to “experience” those possibilities makes even less sense to me. Source already contains the entire thing.

3. If everything comes from Source and eventually returns to Source, then individuality feels temporary and meaningless.
I exist as “me” for a while, then eventually return to Source.
If returning to Source means losing my separate individuality, then this individual person is ultimately disposable. I am one temporary expression among infinite expressions.
And if Source already contains everything, then I was never necessary in order for Source to know or possess my experiences.
That makes it difficult for me to understand why I, specifically, matter.
It also makes me feel incredibly alone.

4. The spiritual idea of a struggle between good and evil also seems contradictory.
People like Lee Harris, Bashar, Mariya, Dolores Cannon, etc. sometimes speak as though humanity is involved in a real movement from negative toward positive, or as though positive forces need to prevail.
But if everything comes from Source and everything ultimately just is, then negativity is also part of existence.
Good cannot permanently eliminate bad if both are expressions of a neutral, loving source.
There will always be both.
Which means suffering is not some temporary sacrifice we are eventually going to overcome for growth. It’s just this guaranteed fact built into existence itself. And sure you can avoid suffering by becoming detached from the story/emotions, but it’s still hard to go through even detached.

5. Manifestation creates a different contradiction.
The Law of Attraction and teachings like Bashar’s say that our beliefs, state, frequency, or assumptions determine the reality we experience.
I can totally subscribe to “if I have a positive/deserving mindset and take aligned action, then I can attract wealth/good relationships/etc.”
But they make it seem like I’m living in a world where the Holocaust, Palestinian genocide, and Trump happened just because there’s something in me reflecting that reality into the world, and all I need to do is believe differently to quantum jump into a different dimension where none of it happened.
And if that is not what manifestation means, then there is actually an objective reality outside of my beliefs that I do not control.

I used to have a belief system based on “there is no point, and we all create our purposes. We have free will, and after we die we choose to reincarnate or bop around doing something else. We’re all very much real individuals. Source is just another word for energy and not some conscious creator. There is no bad, because once you’re dead you see there’s no need for bad behaviors, and by default the energy/everything is love.” But learning these new beliefs over time have gotten me confused and all of this has made life stop feeling real to me. Are the people around me real, or part of whatever reality my consciousness is generating? And is my consciousness even real, or something made up by source?

I’ve experienced what I would call “enlightenment” before, where everything felt incredibly vivid and I embraced “nothingness” with love and creativity/possibility. So I know these same kinds of ideas do not have to feel nihilistic to me.
But right now they do. Right now, “nothingness” feels lonely. Oneness and nothingness makes everything feel pointless. And I don’t know how to get back to what felt like truth. Also, I do take breaks from thinking about it, try to distract myself, and accept that I don’t need to know, but these same quarrels keep coming up over multiple years.

The idea that life is an illusion makes reality feel fake.
The idea that every possibility already exists makes choice feel meaningless.
The idea that everything is Source makes me feel interchangeable rather than supported.

Please, don’t give answers like “What even is real?” or “The human mind isn’t capable of understanding this.”
I think I need these concepts broken down plainly and literally. Explain to me like I’m 5.
I think a major reason I ended up here is that I tried to make sense of a lot of vague spiritual phrases without ever getting a precise definition of what their specific vocabulary was referencing with nuance.


r/spirituality 4h ago

Question ❓ I have this unsettling feeling fear of death

5 Upvotes

I know there’s a lot of people saying they had a near death experience, but did didn’t die they was just close to dying? Or was it just a hallucination like schizophrenia.

Or if they did die then, how would they know they actually died, and just wasn’t unconscious.

I experienced and general anesthesia, where my consciousness and my awareness was supposed to go blank. I experienced the nothingness which is a contradiction, I felt and sleep good and peacefully. But there wasn’t an experience behind it. I admit it was peaceful but it did feel good, it felt like I went back to my default state. But again I didn’t experience anything so it didn’t feel like anything.

But this is also a contradiction because there was no experience at all. It wasn’t black or dark, it was nothing. But when I woke up I felt as if I did have a good peaceful. experience of the nothingness .

Since I experienced this “nothingness” which is a contradiction why am I still scared of death?

It’s because I look at life and look at the things I love and even the things I hate, and the things I gone through and even the suffering I’ve endured. I enjoyed everything well not enjoyed but I was in for the ride. And ceasing to exist terrifies me because I have nothing to experience after I die there’s no coming back no reincarnation just lights off I wouldn’t even realize that I just died. It’ll be like before I was born.

That absolutely terrified me. People will be like death is like how you was before you was born, but me I think I should cherish life and the experiences and not go in with that mind set. I’m not a mystical warrior that’s fearless. I am a human.

And some of you guys you wouldn’t know you’re scared of dying until you actually had a near death experience.

Like I’ve had one before but not OBE, it literally was near death… but I didn’t experience angels coming to show me the new earth. I just experienced full on fear on me thinking how am I going to survive, and repeating to myself I don’t wanna die over and over again, and praying to God to save me over and over again.

I can admit that this was a miracle but I won’t say that I’ve seen an angel with big wings protecting me because I haven’t, I just statistically survived, that’s how I see it.

Yes I also had a OBE experience it was slight astral projection but this doesn’t fully answer the question, what happens after I die? Will go to to an afterlife will I reincarnate? I’ve heard don’t go to the light after you die it’s a trap.

I’ve just spent my whole life suffering you think I wanna deal with another BS light trap shit, now when I’m dead ima be lookin confused on where the hell amma go. Oh yeah people told me that the heavens are just false Gods being worshipped.

So where the fuck do I go then, if even the afterlife it’s still deceiving and evil, I’m thinking the afterlife supposed to the place you can finally rest. There’s so much uncertainty. It’s either go to a heaven where u worship a false god for eternity or go to hell or go back to hearth and repeat the cycle.

Since we’re humans I would think we would have the same existential fears underlying in our beliefs, since mainly religious people start praying to their Gods is because they fear dying and going to hell. But I was wrong some dude told me he’s tired of reincarnating he wants to cease to exist and he doesn’t want to experience life all over and again and again. I’m like okay that’s pretty interesting that’s the exact opposite of what I want.

But yeh I have so many questions.

There’s so many questions I have about death.

The only way is dying and finding out.. but it may be too late, or it may not be.

And there’s a whole bunch of OBE and Spiritual teachers, but they all say different things. So how do I know who’s right and who’s wrong?


r/spirituality 3h ago

Question ❓ How I went through DPDR and Psychosis and Panic Attacks all at once

6 Upvotes

Since, I don’t really want to get a mental health answer, I won’t post it in the normal mental health forum. I want a spiritual response to this or even a mental health response spiritually, and don’t tell me I’m experiencing a spiritual attack.🫤

So yeah, ima begin.

I mainly get DPDRwhen I’m sleeping, I’ll just think about my friends and my family, and how there’s someone that loves me. I’ll even forgot who I am for a brief moment.. it’s sort of a state of me being disconnected to myself.

So I’ll be reminiscing on how I am a human being, I’ll be shocked that I have a hand, or if I have a girlfriend, that loves me, I’ll be thinking in my mind and dissociating with my identity and how am actually a human being having a social life. It will all just seem so strange to me, it just felt like I am a stranger to myself and to the memories that was floating back to me, like my happiness and my pain and my suffering, it’ll feel distant.

In this stage I didn’t really care about it, I know it was DPR, but I only started to care when I had a terror panic attack. While be being in the state of DPR I was thinking about me ceasing to exist, I was reading and listening to existential alchemical books on immortality, and I fell back to deep sleep and out of nowhere I felt, all my nerves firing out once, I woke up and jump leaped across the room in a span of 2s, then I went full terror mode screaming at the top of my lungs. I didn’t know why I was screaming or why I was in terror, it just happened all at once.. afterwards it felt like my life force was flickering.. so I thought I was about to die. Some guy told me my Shen broke and was disturbed and it needs anchoring, but idk what that is or what that means

This caused me to be scared of going into deep sleep or DPDR while sleeping and it gave me pyshosis since it was intense I thought a demon was shooting energy beams at me or trying to enter my body because of how intense the nerves firing which felt like me being electrocuted And no it’s not a hypnotic jerk, I felt the shock in every nerve in my body, and I went into spiritual psychosis.

But now I know it was just a panic attack.

Im doing way better, now. I don’t really need a therapy advice. I just want your spirit view point of this, and has anyone experienced something like this?… even just the DPDR


r/spirituality 9h ago

Question ❓ My manifestations are coming to fruition and I’m scared of them. Any advice?

14 Upvotes

Does this happen to anyone else? If so how do you overcome it?

I manifested my dreams coming true. And I should be thrilled - I am! My most important goals that I’ve worked my entire life to achieve are finally here.

Except, now that they are within reach, I’m absolutely sick. I feel so scared. I’m so grateful but I’ve never felt more terrified, I actually cried when I got the news today. Not from joy but from anxiety. It’s like my body (or ego?) is actively rejecting the things I spent my entire life working towards now that they are in my hands.

It’s as if you spend your entire life wishing to be on a boat, and suddenly you wake up as the captain of a cruise ship. Yes it’s something I’ve always wanted so badly. But now that it’s in my reality, I don’t know how to have the confidence and optimism to fully enjoy it and expand on it. I feel like, “what the f did I do“ and I don’t know how to overcome this. I don’t want to sabotage this. It’s not a bad thing, I guess I’m just scared? I don’t know.

Anyone have any advice?


r/spirituality 5h ago

Question ❓ Anyone whos theist but doesnt believe in structured religion?

7 Upvotes

i posted this in r/teenager but i want to see what other ppl have to say about this so:

i feel like i see a lot of athiests and anti-thiests in like subreddits or tiktok but like i rarely see anyone who says theyre theist.
what i mean by thiest is basically anyone who believes in god but isnt in a structured religion. like i personally left Islam cuz i dont believe the quran ia a revelation and a bunch of other stuff like being gay is a sin and stuff. but (cuz yknow, i was born and raised islamic) i still agree with stuff like not being a dick to anyone, being kind, midning your own business, and everyone has their own journeys/relationship with god
i just believe in god, i dont necessarily think god is kind but i also dont think god is mean. i think god is indifferent most of the time but also can listen or answer prayers. and i do believe in hell and heaven (it makes me feel better about myself >;3)
but im curious :> what do you guys think of theism (my description/idea of it) and are any of you theists?
im open to any and all conversation/discussion!


r/spirituality 14h ago

General ✨ Go with the flow or fight the universe?

25 Upvotes

I give up. I’m not fighting against the universe anymore.

I think I got the message. I’m about to lose my driving licence, and I was going to contest it and try to save it. Then, while I was doing that, my tire blew out in the middle of nowhere, and I had to walk 9 km home.

I’m also letting go of someone who has clearly shown me that I’m not a priority anymore.

It is what it is. I’m not fighting anymore. I’ve accepted it. I guess I’ll just see what fate has in store for me.

this is not a religious post btw. Idk what it is tho sorry


r/spirituality 1h ago

Question ❓ Think I pissed something off... Help?!

Upvotes

I can never remember a time where I didn't wax poetic about the universe and what it all meant. What religions all meant and why all of them and all of there details never made any sense.

I've also always felt spirits around. One of witch would either lay next to me or sit on my bedside aparently. Its never spoken before, but now its 'taunting'.

A few months ago I got into Witchcraft and decided to worship a few deities. The two main ones being arachne and heckate.

Things got WILD. Heckate originally did not want to work with me at first but after begging her to she popped out as a musican, Pete Wentz, whos band I'dbeen listening to, danced and left as a giant spider jumped out of my throat.

Awhile later I got bugs launched at me for so long I thought I was going to die! Until eventually I was under the sea. I tried contacting spirits of the deceased that I knew for help but I think it was a bust.

Now I keep feeling energy pop around the room and crawl all over me. As I see worms, bugs and parasites as I hear voices.

I've tried everything to get it to stop.

What do I do?


r/spirituality 11h ago

Question ❓ What is Ego in spirituality?

9 Upvotes

Hiii! Today i came across the term ego and i was wondering what it was and how does it work in spirituality?

Love, Luella


r/spirituality 9h ago

Question ❓ Anyone else feel like they used to be a god/goddess but are here now ?

5 Upvotes

Idk recently. i feel like i used to be a god, but i am here now for a reason : Is it saving people, or is it punishment, or is it something else idk but for some reason researching portals and how to make dimensions resonates with my soul. Does anyone have any advice. Oh also recently i had my skin look like i had scales on the top of my whole hand like it was indented all on the top which looked like scales when i was just at my computer concentrating on my research for my project.


r/spirituality 9m ago

Question ❓ Why does flies keep following me?

Upvotes

So like most of the time flies keep following me and keep landing on my face and hands.. idk why before y'all say it's cuz of my body odor or smth i bath everyday 😭 even right after bathing they come near me 😭 i even killed the 2 flies which r always in my room but the next day another 2 spawned up Outta nowhere.

Is there any spiritual reason or scientific reason behind this or am I just overthinking?


r/spirituality 9m ago

Question ❓ Something unusual happened while sleeping, help me figure it out!

Thumbnail
Upvotes

Today during morning time, I was very sleepy and decided to take a nap. As soon as I closed my eyes I saw different types of eyes 👁 in different weird shapes, outlined in white color with black background. The picture kept changing quickly and I could see different types of eyes. Those were outlined type images and it strongly felt like I was entering a zone and lowkey was enjoying that visual experience for the first time but was a bit hesitant a bit at the same time, then a sound I heard when I finally felt like I entered something and I quickly realized that now I am paralyzed (sleep paralysis occured) and I knew that was it. (It felt like I entered some other world or zone) I was like.. hell no! not the paralysis again. I started praying and was quickly able to come out of it. I am familiar with sleep paralysis and have had experienced various types of it. But today I experienced seeing those doodle type outlined eyes (those were various types and images kept changing very quickly as soon as I entered the paralysis state).

Can someone please help me understand what it is and why did it happen? Also have you ever experienced any such thing or is it just me?


r/spirituality 22m ago

General ✨ Universe punishes not the evil or good one ; it punishes the weak one !!

Upvotes

Just came across this idea and felt so true !!


r/spirituality 17h ago

Relationships 💞 In Genders Wars, there's only One Side. The Right One.

23 Upvotes

In spiritual spaces, the “gender war" is often related to releasing anger for one another. 

TLDR: women do not want war, we want vocal acknowledgment that the patriarchy exists and benefits some, while harming others.

When told to release my anger about the subject, it feels a lot like standing on a busy subway while being repeatedly groped by those around you, while everyone else looks away. When limits are reached and you yell, "Stop it!” Finally, someone looks up and says, “Don't be angry, it's not spiritual.”

Even calling it a gender war is detrimental. First, it trains us to treat people as players on a team instead of as individuals. We pick a side by looking at what's between our legs. We then collect stories and “data" that confirm the team we've already picked. 

I have been guilty of this myself. I have thrown out statistics, true and researched ones, to raise my “batting average,” because it often feels like numbers are the only real defense I have that does not require going low. I do not want to become someone who manipulates and harms men for advantage. The facts can still be right and still be used as team ammunition. I've realized that feeling like you have to swing that way is part of the problem, not proof you are winning.

Like politics, we've turned sexism into a team sport. 

The REAL truth is, we should be taking each and every act as done by an individual, and not a gender. There should be no scorekeeping. We should all just be on “team human”.

Most women do not assume all men will be violent or treat us badly. Most men we meet are not that. 

Yet, we also realize that we have always lived in a patriarchal culture. And that is what we need acknowledged most from the men in our lives.

Women are not outside the culture. We reward status, excuse cruelty in our own circle, and sometimes treat men as providers or opponents instead of people. That is not a free pass for anyone.

The patriarchal culture started long ago, so a reality driven woman should put no blame on a man for that culture existing.  But a man should be comfortable enough in himself to be able to acknowledge what that culture has benefited him with, as well as how it has harmed women.

Simply, the part that actually divides us is when men will not admit that this culture exists. This is the CRUX of the issue for so many women. When men see another man being awful, cruel, degrading, predatory, or dismissive, too many stay silent. They look at the floor or change the subject, as if calling him out would mean calling themselves out. A good woman should also stand up for the man being harmed, not leave him to keep score by himself.

Men often bring up the times they have been hurt by women as a counterpoint to a testimony of trauma. That pain is real. Yet, it does not cancel the duty in front of them. Protecting your team, or protecting your self-image, is not the same as protecting the person being harmed.

This is why so many women get upset over the “battle" comments. It's because not standing up for others as individuals is actually a FAILURE OF CONSCIENCE, not a war. 

As humans, one of our greatest needs is to be believed and given acknowledgement of our pain. But we have to do that by each individual case, without comparison. We've all been hurt, we've all suffered trauma. But it's the denying of that trauma because we associate with one gender or the other, or we are on the " winning team" is devastating and extremely dividing in spiritual and worldly spaces. 

Only when this reality is acknowledged can open communication and true healing begin.


r/spirituality 13h ago

Question ❓ Is tantric sex for real?

9 Upvotes

Can we achieve higher state of self with the help of tantrism sex?

Because sex is something bodily..

And higher state of self is surpassing all those things.


r/spirituality 1h ago

General ✨ Mathematical zen koan

Upvotes

Say you have a dot. That dot explodes into an infinite number of dots. Each of those dots explode into a new infinite number of dots. Each of those dots explode into a new infinite number of dots, ad infinitum.

How many dots do you have in total?


r/spirituality 1d ago

Question ❓ Anyone else’s butt hole guide them?

139 Upvotes

I know I can trust my butt. When I’m in a situation and my butt hole clenches it’s a big sign from the universe.
Usually I’m free and happy…but if I’m in a situation that isn’t so…I’m clenched. Nothing passes through. I didn’t have to train or anything, it just is. So now I’m wondering why does my butt hole always steer me in the right way.? When it’s loose I know I’m being guided from the heavens. Love my butt.


r/spirituality 14h ago

Question ❓ How do people sit and meditate without their body giving out?

10 Upvotes

So i am aiming to sit in the lotus position right now i just do crossed leg sitting up straight until i can reach lotus.

I meditate for 10-15 minutes, i don’t like short meditation sessions

but whenever i meditate one of foot goes to sleep, my back hurts trying to sit up straight, i guess i’ve struggled with posture from sitting down all day (I am 19 btw)

I’ve started yoga to help with this but i don’t know, my muscles feel weak.

Its frustrating because i feel i can’t go deep into meditation nor visualize and bring my attention where i want it.

I know people might just say to lay down and meditate but that is not the correct meditation pose, I just need advice on learning to sit in the position without any sort of pain


r/spirituality 5h ago

Question ❓ Healer for soul hijacking?

2 Upvotes

I am currently being hijacked by what I would call an infestation of parasitic energies manifesting in different forms. They are a group of humans using me as a battery source. The energy is like a poisonous infection. It starts as a hijacking of my consciousness and spreads throughout my bodily sensations.

Can anyone recommend a healer which deals specifically with subconscious hijacking, and parasitic poisoning?


r/spirituality 8h ago

Question ❓ Derealization

3 Upvotes

So I know this is extreme anxiety but why? It feels like I have an existential crisis and scary intrusive thoughts of nothing being real or everything out to get me? I had my spiritual awakening back in 2024 and alothough it was scary it was so liberating and beautiful to know we are all one. But recently out of nowhere, I’ve had thoughts of doom. It’s so scary when this happens almost like I feel that god abondended me in this world full of suffering and hate. Why is this happening to me and how do I resolve this. I’m aware this is me not being grounded at the moment but since I’ve never experienced anything like this what could it mean?


r/spirituality 8h ago

General ✨ What if “bad luck” is sometimes just a pattern you can’t see?

3 Upvotes

I know random things happen, but I’ve been wondering how often we call something bad luck when we’re actually repeating the same decisions without realizing it. Different people, different situations, somehow the same outcome.
Has anyone ever noticed this in their own life?


r/spirituality 7h ago

Question ❓ I feel like I have met my boyfriend before and it’s very weird. Need help.

2 Upvotes

I don’t even mean this in a romantic way it’s definitely scary to me because I have always had a son in my dreams , I don’t really know who the boy was , but I thought it was my son , it was a baby boy when I first met him we had the exact same age in my dream. Then I would meet him randomly in other dreams and he was the clearest person I ever dreamed of. Especially since his features are quite uncommon where I am from. He is a blonde blue eyed little boy with a red nose who didn’t speak much and we were looking for his mom in every dream.

I met my boyfriend and we had a very instant connection , the first thing I said when I met him for the first time was “I miss you" and then I apologized and said sorry that was weird , and recently he showed me a picture of himself as a baby and I instantly remembered that boy , looked strikingly similar especially the nose like I could’ve sworn it was him. I am not really religious but this is weirding me out like I am genuinely tripping why does my boyfriend look like a random baby I see in my dreams sometimes does anyone know if this is a thing what’s going on. I can’t stop thinking about it.


r/spirituality 9h ago

Question ❓ Cambio dependiendo de con quién estoy... ¿pero quién soy cuando nadie me ve?

3 Upvotes

Llevo un tiempo dándole vueltas a esto y quería ponerlo aquí a ver qué piensan.

Me di cuenta de que tengo una versión de mí para el trabajo, otra para mi familia, otra para mis amigos más cercanos, y hasta una distinta cuando estoy con mi pareja. Ninguna es falsa exactamente, es más como que me ajusto según el contexto sin darme cuenta.

Pero el otro día estaba completamente solo, sin nadie a quién ajustarme, y me costó reconocer qué quedaba ahí. Como si hubiera pasado tanto tiempo actuando distintas versiones que perdí de vista cuál era la de base.

¿Les ha pasado? ¿Cómo hacen para reconectar con esa versión que no depende de quién los está viendo?


r/spirituality 15h ago

Question ❓ Karma?

6 Upvotes

I feel stuck in life and nothing has been going in my favor for a couple of years but I fear it is due to me experiencing karma for things I’ve done in the past. When I was in my early 20s I made mistakes and acted out of impulse & emotion when the version of myself now would not. I was so stupid and have a lot of regrets. I’m now entering my late 20s and am wondering if it’s possible to still be experiencing karma for those mistakes? Is that what could be keeping me in this loop?

If it is because of karma when does it end?


r/spirituality 9h ago

Question ❓ what can spiritually explain my lack of fortune

2 Upvotes

(just to preface im pretty new to spirituality)

Throughout my life I’ve always been the type of person that never had anything for granted. I’m not necessarily talking about big stuff, but even things such as finding a 5$ bill on the ground. I never had those “small lucky moments”. But I feel like its been getting worse.

Recently in my academic life I’ve been VERY and I mean VERY unlucky. I started college last year and gor assigned the worst professors, my classmate/friend sadly passed and overall I started being seen by some of my professors in a very bad light. I look at other students at the same university who had the luck of having normal classmates and great professors. I must only wonder why. I know this might sound dumb and unimportant, but truly it has impacted my life so much and my way of explaining it might not be the best.

Nonetheless, there’s recently been a bunch of things happening to me that have no apparent cause and that can only prove that my luck is inexistent. This feels bigger than just coincidences. How could this be explained from a spiritual perspective?