I’m a fan of a band, and one of the members is a guy who is pretty comfortable being shirtless and appears shirtless fairly often
I recently found a picture of him without a shirt that I really liked and thought would look great as my lock screen, so I wanted to use it
The problem is that I’m gay and I still have a complicated relationship with my mom regarding my sexuality, and I know she will probably eventually see the picture and interpret it as something about me liking men and make an argument with me
She has already made comments and given me a hard time over things that are much less obviously related to my sexuality, even though they were ultimately pretty harmless and insignificant
Part of me wants to keep the picture because I genuinely like it and I don’t want my decisions to constantly revolve around what my mom will or won’t accept about me
At the same time, I know seeing the picture on my phone while I’m around her might make me anxious because I’ll be thinking about whether she notices it and what she might say
And to be clear, this isn’t some sexual picture of the guy or anything remotely inappropriate, he’s literally just shirtless and looks good
So I’m conflicted because I can’t tell whether changing the picture would simply be me choosing something that makes me more comfortable, or whether I’d just be censoring myself because I’m afraid of my mom’s reaction :(