Thoughts i can't share on Instagram & WhatsApp 😭

I saw him get roofied a couple years ago he’s constantly drinking while driving I found coke in his sock drawer he always has to have the latest iPhone he knows all the lyrics to Fergie’s Duchess album he drives a red convertible hot rod car with a vanity license plate and he doesn’t have a plan for retirement his parents are in their late 90s and he doesn’t take care of them they are living in an apartment complex that is meant for young adults they are the only two people living in the building over the age of 45 and whenever I visit the neighbors look at me with judgment that I’m allowing this and that I’m associated with them

I go to work then fall asleep. I don’t even have energy to make it to the bed usually I just sleep on the floor. I don’t brush my teeth beforehand either I just don’t have the energy. Then I wake up workout shower and all that and go to work rinse repeat. On weekends I’m tired from getting up early so I don’t do anything then I go back to work.

I don’t know how I’m expected to live like this for another 40 years it’s already been 5 and I feel dead inside. I can already see people saying come back in 15 years you’ll be used to it that sounds horrible I feel sorry for you guys. If that’s the future what is even the point? And the little “happy” moments in between isn’t enough to make this enjoyable

What about you ?

I’m a few months into handling my dad’s estate and starting to wonder if doing it all myself is actually saving me anything I work full time and the estate is in another state. I’ve already had to take time off twice just to deal with the house, and every trip seems to lead to something else that needs handling after I get back.

I started out thinking paying for help would be a waste when I could technically do most of this myself. Now I’m looking at the time I’ve lost from work and how much of my week this keeps eating up. DIY route isn't worth it anymore I think so who could I hire to help with this?

If you also want to add your age & how your relationship with them is, feel free!

I truly thought I would have everything organised and ready to retire by 35😂

When I got into a good position and started seeing some success, grinding all by myself, I noticed that people around me started getting annoyed for no reason. They behave differently now and sometimes make fun of me. I can tell they’re not the same anymore.

It was nice having money yesterday. See you all on October 1st.

Not talking about Tame impala here. I feel like a BIG ASS FUCKING LOSER. Its alot. My job my frds my relationship my parents my life my health my body my mental health. None of these seem to work for me in good way. Its driving me nuts. Moreover i dont have any goal.