Aging itself doesn’t scare me completely. But not living or enjoying my 20s does. Not sure who to tell this but it just feels well I feel nothing. I’m grateful to see another year but just imagined my life to be different at this point. I feel like I want to end my life but I don’t want to actually do it. I just feel numb and not motivated.

I wish I could be the person I used to be. I just feel like I’ve became a shell of myself. I know other people are going through far worse than me. But I’m allowed to feel how I feel regardless.

I just want to dig a hole and bury myself… Oh my God, I’m so embarrassed. 😭