Salam everyone! On July 19th I had my first ever panic attack. My heart was racing and my body was shaking and I couldn’t explain what was going on. I just genuinely thought something bad was going to happen to me. All I could think was “I still have my student loan to pay off”. It’s been over a month and I’ve gotten my heart checked out and nothing’s been found wrong at all but ever since that day, I’ve been having horrible thoughts about my life ending. And it makes me feel guilty. I think about what would happen to my loan if I don’t pay it off, and how much of a sin that is. And then I think, “am I that attached to the dunya?” And I think “I’ve always wanted to get married and start a family” and I’m scared I won’t get that.

I just want my normal life back, where I’m not so anxious anymore. If anyone’s ever been through something similar, please let me know and please keep me in your duas and I’ll do the same for you!

Body: Something has been on my mind lately, and I’ve been quietly praying about it. 🤍

I’d really appreciate it if you guys could keep me in your duas and pray that it works out for me, if it’s خير for me. 🤲🏼

I hope I’ll be able to share some good news with you soon, inshaAllah. 🤍

A few months ago I started talking to a guy online,I knew it was wrong but our conversations were innocent(haram nonetheless I know),we talked about books politics,movies.We started to confide in eachother,the more we started talking we both fell in love,calling everyday texting everyday.But then he confessed to me that he is bipolar with paraphrenia,he would have episodes while we are on call sometimes and they used to be very violent,he would punch himself and then wake up scared asking me why he is bleeding,he had two personalities that were “devils”.His ancestors come from a history of being witches,which ofcourse he does not support.His grandma did some sort of ritual on him and locked him in a dark room for a month,when he came out he was almost blinded in one eye and he had these two devil personalities.I have been making dua every single day,he ended things when he got worse and i cry everyday because of it.I know it’s wrong but believe me we really wanted to get married,his father knew of me and I wanted to tell my father about it aswell.Durint one of his episodes I figured out he had a personality disorder which he kept secret from me(DID).His father and cousin put ideas in his head that he is not suitable for marriage,yet he’s perfectly capable of having a job,doing multiple internships,going to uni,having friendships,driving.I was talking to his cousin one night about the grandma,and 10 minutes later she died at 108,this was last month when the earthquake in Egypt happend.After that I called him even tho we were over to see if he was okay,he was throwing up blood but the devil was gone,but the second guy was still there,after praying and praying the other “devil” left aswell.He seems to be doing better now I can see he’s working from his linkedn page but his dad has his mobile device and it’s hard for me to talk to him.I know all of this is wrong,yet I love him intensely,and I know he loves me too because even during these episodes when he is barely conscious he cries mumbling “I wish we could be married.i love you”Im sorry for ranting,before you judge me.please know I already am so ashamed.Please make dua for me and him,for both of our health,I cannot sleep at night from how fast my heart beats.Please pray his heart softens for me because even if he gets better my fear is he will be consumed by guilt and he won’t try to make things right either way,Please make dua that his dads heart softens for me aswell

asc everyone,

i have a really important exam upcoming that i want to do really well on (inshallah). hat are the best exam duas to make? and can you guys please make dua fo me <3

Assalamu alaykum. I’m writing this because I honestly don’t know where else to turn.

For a long time, I’ve been praying, making duaa, trying to stay patient, and genuinely doing my best to improve myself and my life. I’ve tried to put my trust in Allah and keep going even when things were difficult.

But lately, everything seems to keep going wrong. The harder I try, the harder life seems to become. Things don’t work out, problems keep piling up, and I’m becoming exhausted. I feel like I’ve given everything I have, yet nothing seems to change.

And I’ve reached a point where I’m struggling deeply with my faith. I keep wondering: Is Allah angry with me? Am I doing something wrong? Why does it feel like my duas are going nowhere despite trying for so long?

I know that Islam teaches us about patience, tests, delayed duas, and trusting Allah’s wisdom. I’ve heard those things before, and I still want to believe them. But honestly, right now I’m tired. It’s becoming difficult to keep telling myself to be patient when I feel like I’ve been patient for so long.

I’m not looking for judgment or a simple “just have more faith.” I genuinely want to hear from Muslims who have gone through a period where their iman became extremely weak, where they felt abandoned or wondered whether Allah was angry with them.

How did you get through it? What helped you rebuild your relationship with Allah when you were exhausted and couldn’t understand why your life was going the way it was?

I still want to believe. I still want to have faith. That’s probably why I’m writing this instead of completely walking away.

Jazakum Allahu khayran to anyone who takes the time to read this or share their experience.

My brothers and sisters, I’ve been making a very sincere dua to Allah SWT for a long time. Please make dua that Allah accepts this dua of mine and grants me exactly what I’m asking Him for. A stranger’s dua can go a long way. May Allah reward you all, accept your duas, and grant you what your hearts sincerely desire. Ameen. 🤲❤️

Postpartum. Going through divorce. I feel abandoned by Allah. And stuck. I cant pray.

Asalamalaikum. I’ve never made a Reddit post before but I just feel like it in hopes that anyone’s had a similar experience and can share some hope or anything.

A few days ago I got told my mum has cancer. I’ve been in a state since. I just can’t understand this. My family already went through a difficult time with my dad earlier in the year nearly having cancer but Alhamdulillah he’s okay now. And now, my mum.

Everyone’s telling me trust Allah etc and I’m just so angry and upset I have no motivation to do namaz (Salah) or Dhikr like my sister was telling me to do.

I’m also the worst, and I mean the WORST overthinker in the world. I catastrophise. I worry. I think. Toooo much. And I’m scared that I’m going to lose my mum. The doctors said it’s treatable and there’s options. But I’m terrified.

Idk what else to say. I have support around me Alhamdulillah. But im just feeling empty and a bit numb. I’ve cried like 10 times a day for the past few days.

Sorry if this doesn’t make sense. I just want advice or words of hope or just anything. Even insight into what doing Dhikr will do to help.

Jazakallah Khair.

Salam,

I am dealing with an anxiety attack and I will be stuck at work for the next several hours so not able to take some time alone right now but my thoughts of negativity are consuming me and I just feel an impending sense of anxiety and tearfulness.
Give me reminders from Quran and sunnah to calm me down and remember all day insha Allah.
And please keep me in your duas

Asalamualaikum, Im currently in my second year of university with a passion to study medicine InshAllah, how ever, im very anxious. My first year (last year) l was always distracting myself from studying because the year was kind of easy so I would cheat alot, my deen wasn't at the best condition, I was always bad at making decisions and etc. Now the the second year has come and Alhamdulilah I had 3 months of break to just get to know myself a little better, I have this drive now to just pray, study, and live life but the biggest one is tawakkul. I feel like I never actually studied well that year at all but the art if tawakkul really makes me want to just put my full trust in Allah but im always feeling this, "what if" always comes to me maybe waswasa but I hate cheating it makes me feel guilty and just bad for not learning. If anyone can give advice anything I would really appreciate it.
If there are stories similar to mine where it feels impossible please share it I would feel way much better because of you!

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*CONTROLLING ANGER *

*• Isti'adha (Seeking Refuge With Allah)*

Narrated Sulaiman bin Surad (رضى الله عنه): Two men abused each other in front of the Prophet (ﷺ) while we were sitting with him. One of the two abused his companion furiously and his face became red.

The Prophet (ﷺ) said: "I know a word (sentence) the saying of which will cause him to relax (i.e., he will calm down). Only if he says:

« أَعُوذُ بِاللَّهِ مِنَ الشَّيْطَانِ الرَّجِيمِ »

(A'udhu Billahi Minash Shaitanir Rajeem — I seek refuge with Allah from Satan, the outcast)."

📚: Sahih Bukhari 6115

*• Avoid Anger*

The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said to us (his companions):

"If one of you becomes angry when he is standing, let him sit down, and if the anger goes away (all well and good), otherwise let him lie down."

📚: Sunan Abi Dawud 4782 | Sahih

*• Seek Solace In Silence*

The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said:

"Teach and make things easy and not difficult. When one of you is angry, he should be silent."

📚: Al-Adab Al-Mufrad 245 | Sahih (Shaykh Albani رحمة الله)

*• Remember That Repressing Anger Is One of The Qualities of Muslims*

"Those who spend (in Allah’s Cause) in prosperity and in adversity, who repress anger, and who pardon men; verily, Allah loves Al-Muhsinun (the good-doers)."

📚: Qur'an (al-Imran 3:134)

*• The True Strength*

Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) said:

"The strong is not the one who overcomes the people by his strength, but the strong is the one who controls himself while in anger."

📚: Sahih Bukhari 6114

*• Acting On RasulAllah (ﷺ)'s Advice*

A man said to the Prophet (ﷺ): "Advise me!"

The Prophet (ﷺ) said: "Do not become angry and furious."

The man asked (the same) again and again, and the Prophet (ﷺ) said in each case: "Do not become angry and furious."

📚: Sahih Bukhari 6116

https://youtu.be/t7ygefn5KrI

Hey everyone,

I'm looking for a female Muslim therapist who does online sessions and is good with trauma, mental illness, and related issues.

I've already looked at places like Khalil Center, the Institute tor Muslim Mental Health, and Shifa Therapy, but I'm struggling to choose because I don't know anything about the individual therapists there.

If you've personally worked with someone and had a good experience, I'd really appreciate any recommendations.
I'm more interested in hearing about specific therapists than clinics.

JazakAllahu khayran.

Assalamu alaikum,

I recently lost my job, and I’m currently going through a very difficult financial situation. I’ve been applying for jobs and doing my best to find something as soon as possible, but things have been really stressful lately.

I would really appreciate it if you could keep me in your duas and ask Allah to open a door for me, grant me halal rizq, and help me find a good job soon.

May Allah reward you all, ease the difficulties of everyone who is struggling, and grant us all halal and abundant rizq. <3

For the last 5months I have been going through extreme loneliness

I have no friends and it's killing me

I feel like I'm addicted to posting on Reddit

Trying to find comfort because I have no one else to talk to my mental health is deteriorating

I have practically begged local lads to let me join them but everyone has dropped me

I'm scared I don't have the energy to continue living like this

My health is deteriorating

Alhamdulillah I have a roof over my head

And my health but it's declining

The stress is unreal

I spend morning noon and night stressing of being alone

Everyone always replys go out do this

Join mosque

Join volunteering

I swear by Allah I have tried but no one will help or let me join

I don't even know what I'm looking for on here

So many people said message me etc

I messaged and after one or two messages everyone disappears

Please pray for me

Ya Allah I beg you Infront of all these who read this please send your mercy on me I'm drowning in dispair

I know this has been discussed over and over, but I’m going for Umrah in early September and I’d really love to feel inspired. Please tell me about the most incredible times your duas were answered; I’m going through heartbreak, and that is the intention behind my Umrah.

She's hospitalized at the moment. She's got multiple chronic conditions and we think her organs might not be able to keep up.

She means more to me than anyone else in the world. I consider her my person. Please pray for her, please pray she finds ease and health. I can't lose her.

It will get me out of some abusive situation and get me back on my deen. Please pray that Allah makes this university better for me if its not right now. Please i need this so much and only Allah can help me.

Salam Aleikum, dear brothers and sisters I am going though a hardship in which I can do nothing but rely on my lord Allah, may I ask for your duas that Allah relieves this hardship for me and creates ease for me?

Jazakallah hu khairan
May Allah reward you all.

My father is in hospital please dua for him . He has swallowed some toxic pils due to tension . the (Gandum vali Goli)

Asalam Waleikum brothers and sisters. I am here to ask you all to please make dua for me to get an acceptance in the university i am currently waitlisted in. Have already took 2 years of gap, I really don’t wanna miss this.

Please make dua for me. Please!! Literally my everything is on stake for this. 😭😭😭

I’ve heard people say that when you ask Allah for something, you have to believe that He is going to grant it to you.

I do ask, and I do make du’a over and over, but in my heart, I don’t really feel like it is going to be granted to me. Not because I think Allah cannot do it, but because in my life, whenever I wished for something, the modest version of it was granted to me, not the actual thing I wanted.

Also, I think that because the thing I wish for is so good and would make me feel so secure and content with life, it won’t be granted to me because I feel like, “What else would there be to upset me or test me in this life?”

Aren’t Muslims supposed to be tested?

I’d really appreciate hearing how other Muslims understand this, especially regarding having hope in Allah while still feeling deep down that the specific thing you’re asking for probably won’t happen.

This is so embarrassing to admit but I am just.. in a bit of a rut and idk where to go for help. For context this is all in Canada and this started when we were 16 and I am now 20. We both grew up just like any other kid in Canada, not super Islamic or anything but not completely crazy either. I met her in class and we connected pretty instantly and things kept progressing from there, she never wanted marriage with anyone cuz the only marriages she’s seen are broken ones in literally her entire family 😭 but then i came along, and she opened up. a year or so in I became.. very expressive of the fact that I had feelings for her and she said the same thing back. We alhamdullilah didn’t do anything insane, a few words of affection no physical touch nothing of that sort. But, I was a different case, shame me if you’d like on this you wouldn’t be in the wrong for it, I found adult videos when I was 11 and had been addicted since, so eventually, I started… saying stuff that wasn’t too good, and she played along for a bit but snapped out of it, she told me to stop it too but at that point I started thinking her not wanting to be close to me meant she didn’t like me ( ik ik it’s stupid just… bare with me) she was never too expressive of her feelings with me and I always had a problem with it, when she just was closer to and more aware of Allah and she made it clear to me that once we were married she’d open up, I am really proud of her. Eventually I did snap out of it too, but the damage was already done, she became more and more distant and I never fixed that addiction of mine, if yk anything about that addiction yk it makes u objectify women to an insane degree. A day came when we were talking and some stuff happened and I started insulting a hijabi woman ( who was a friend of hers) with stuff that’s degrading to women. This was her first time seeing this side of me, and honestly this was my first time seeing that side of me too, but it was the tipping point, she ended things saying it was difficult but she didn’t wanna marry a man like me. That all happened about 3 months ago, since then I’ve fixed my addiction, educated myself immensely on women, the struggles they face and I am trying my best to atone, I also apologized to her friend on two separate occasions about the stuff I said about her ( I didn’t say it to her face it was backbiting ) but I just.. even with my addiction her beauty was so much more than anything lust could compare with, and I am not talking about physical beauty, I was alhamdullilah good at atleast lowering my gaze, I am talking about her character, she was the kindest soul I’ve ever met, she was compassionate, driven to an insane degree and so much more than I don’t even wanna say cuz I am genuinely gonna break down. And I just… threw it all away for nothing??? I threw it all away cuz of my stupid male ego, my stupid lust??? I used to ask Allah for so much, but now I js ask him for forgiveness over and over in every single prayer. As for marriage and women, I’ve become someone who loves every single woman on this planet but never wants to marry anyone who isn’t her. And I know I sound like the most classic first love story ever but atleast for right now that’s how I feel. Everytime I see a woman I think of her, everytime I see a prayer mat I think of everything wrong I did. And I just don’t want anything or anyone that isn’t her, cuz I will literally js try to make that new woman into her and that’s unfair.

I don’t know what to do, I keep asking for forgiveness and hoping Allah just knows what I feel, I just wanna talk to her one more time, show her I’ve improved and get both our families involved so we can stay as far away from haram as possible. But it feels so hopeless. Especially cuz of the fact that I don’t even feel like I am worth enough to ask Allah for something other than forgiveness, piece of garbage like me doesn’t deserve to ask for a woman or a money or whatever stupid desire, all I can ask for is forgiveness

This was a rant ig? I put it as controversial bcuz well, it was a haram relationship and I am really glad that aspect is over, but I am still regretful and I want another chance cuz we didn’t even know it was haram 😭 obv thats not why it ended but i js… idk. I sound pathetic ik feel free to laugh, i hope i make someone smile atleast.

Asalam Waleikum brothers and sisters. I am here to ask you all please make dua for me to get acceptance in the university i am currently waitlisted in. Have already took 2 years of gaps, I really don’t wanna miss this. Please!

Please make dua for me.

Well idk how do I say this but life have been rough for me not family drama or financially (yet ,that's another case) from past 1-1& half year i am not praying idk what happened i used to pray 5 times used to have a fear. now, there is nothing I don't have that guilt now for missing salah idk what's happening I don't Sleep well i don't feel well in life I used to talk to allah when ever I don't feel good or atleast used to come out of it now it's all gone I think I am becoming more and more idk what ,

masjid is legit 1 min walk so near yet I skip I hear the azaan and yet I don't go i think I'll go later then I'll skip it sometimes i ignore it ... It's make angry how and what I am becoming like and am doing nothing interesting too clg and studies that's it I stopped gym don't feel like going after going constantly 3-4 years with my best physique now I am getting fat too nothing make me feel good ,

Got Friends I have been avoiding them as much as I can sometimes i feel like a need a break I love riding bike I'll probably go as far I can like a long solo road trip but my bikes need some repairs anyways ik i am sounding depressed i think I am depressed well in January I had met with an therapist didn't make any difference

I've experienced phases of Waswas before. This phase has honestly been the worst one of my life and I keep missing prayers because of it.

It always begins with Ghusl. Rinsing my nose, ears, mouth, anus, perinium, urethra, balls. I rinse but it feels like I havent. Even if water has logically touched these spots, I can't stop washing again.

Then it's wudu. It feels like I forget every step I do. I wash my face once, then then twice, then it feels like I havent washed at all the alleged third time. Or water never made it onto my hands.

Then its prayer. Three or four rakaats? Did I miss a verse? Did I miss a letter? I find myself at the final verse and have forgotten everything. I find myself hyperfocusing too much on a tiny mistake. A tiny unnecesary movement, an unnecessaey sound escaping my mouth. I have a list of prayers I need to qadha.

Then it's my niyyah. They say to recite niyyah as you rub the water onto your face. As you peform the takbiratul ihram. Failure to do so invalidates EVERYTHING.

https://zulkiflialbakri.com/artikel/niat-wuduk-sebelum-air-sampai-ke-muka https://muftiwp.gov.my/ms/artikel/al-kafi-li-al-fatawi/5837-al-kafi-1974-kedudukan-niat-ketika-takbiratul-ihram

I repeat the beginning over and over and OVER again and I only move on when I grow tired. Never because I trust myself.

Then it's purity. I open my urethra up to wash my pee. I soap my anus multiple times until it feels right. I stay in the toilet longer than I should be as if I were showering. Then I wonder if my body has splashes of toilet water. Do my clothes have traces of pee? I sniff and sniff and sniff and sniff and sniff. I constantly put my clothes and undergarments into the wash. Then, it's najis. I look down everytime I walk to make sure I don't step in poop. I look back and retrace my steps to make sure I didn't step in poop. I check my shoes. If I hit a wall, I feel unclean. If I step in sand on the road, I feel unclean. If I walk by a non-halal restaurant, I feel unclean.

Dog poop and pee could be everywhere. Pork smoke could be everywhere. Cat poop, dog poop, i dont care. It makes me want to peform the ritual cleaning for Najis Mughalazzah. All because I walked through steam from a non-halal grill. A non-halal restaurant. Stepping in unknown poop. Touching the dry shirt of a friend that was ripped cuz of his dog. Eating the food from a non-muslim friend. I did the ritual already. I rinsed my mouth with dirt, so did my lips, face, neck, torso. I rub the coarse dirt onto my body.

And now, I've been missing prayers. I hate it. I find it difficult. I never find peace doing it. I have so many I need to qadha. Some out of doubt. Some out of necessity.

I'm so SO exhausted. But I dont think I deserve redemption. I've sinned so much. I'm not like the other people who can do good.

And now I dont know if I can trust my memory or not. I want to trust that I did Ghusl last Thursday AND last friday. The memory feels clear, but what if it isnt? What if, what if, what if.

Help?

I dont even know anymore

I'm doomed

And no amount of advice and Quranic verses can help.

Maybe this was my destiny?