This specific genetic condition is one that you do not want to even be a carrier for. Carriers also have pretty significant health issues, including increased risk for diabetes regardless of lifestyle and diet, various internal organs failing or having issues. I have had lifelong issues with these organs, including various appointments which involved invasive biopsies. I recently did genetic testing and found out I was a carrier. My father then said oh yeah, he's a carrier too. So that wasn't important to say before? You know, when I displayed all the nasty symptoms of being a carrier? This is not to mention the fact that had I not done this testing, I could have unknowingly given my children either the carrier or full thing of this condition. But no, I have to sit through multiple appointments now with all of my doctors outlining what my genetic counseling team told me.

I don’t understand how being mean to people is normalized as a joke. I have coworkers and managers that bully me for my height, mock me constantly, say “we’re best friends”, etc. and say it’s a joke. How is that funny? I had friends in college who would joke that I couldn’t dance or sing, that I looked like a kid. I would always be too loud around them or not understand certain social cues. But they were just joking and I was supposed to accept that. I don’t understand why the world is so mean. Like I don’t understand how belittling someone is funny. I had a friend who was made fun of for eating green peas and everyone was laughing at her and one friend was going around to other tables, asking if they ate green peas, and I said this behavior was wrong, and I was seen as the problem. Why are other people even involved in the first place? What’s so bad about eating green peas and why must you yell and ask everyone in the cafeteria if they like to eat green peas? I don’t get how it’s funny.

It was my birthday yesterday. And I shouldnt have been surprised. But everyone forgot this year. Usually at least one person remembers or my grandmother. But with grandma losing her memory lately i dont blame her for forgetting. But this year not a single person remembered. My parents usually forget. Im one of four kids and the others always needed more attention. So theirs were always on the calendar. But somehow i always got forgotten. That part i have accepted. But without grandma this year it felt so empty and gave me this glimpse into a future without her that terrified me.

Im always the person who remembers everyone’s birthdays. I have each of my friends set in my calendar with a reminder the day before. I always text, or get a gift or a card. Just let them know i see them.

My roommate has memory issues and said something the day before so i dont blame them. They truly tried. After losing my one grandma a few years back i already noticed the absence she always filled for holidays. Both grandmas did their best to remind me i mattered. But now im facing a future where i have to remind myself.

Thanks for listening if anyone did. I just needed it out so i can continue my life.

ETA: Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes and even just reading the post. I did order myself a dessert as a treat on the advice of some of you. I felt silly making the post in the first place but now im glad because i feel much less alone. So thank you again everyone and dont let anyone ever dull your sparkle!

I came here looking for advice on my past posts and in one I was told I was ragebaiting, i wasn't

Is asking for basic respect a bad thing?

I know that I will always be different not enough for most people. Idk when I will get an injury I could get it any moment my life is just stressing and being sad I try to make myself happy but it's just not true

ive had a little confidence built up today just for my classmates to call me ugly 🥲 i thought i looked okay but its never enough for anyone nowadays

gosh i just wish i was pretty maybe then id actually be able to dress up nicely for once

everyone thinks im just ugly, weird and gross and i just dont know what to do i realy have no motivation for anything

ive cut my hair, ive got glasses that suit me, i tried doing make up, i tried losing weight but none of it works im genuinely hopeless

i just wish maybe i was a little bit taller and good looking

it'll probably fix most of my problems

I, 41 M just found out my 39 F wife has never actually seen The Never Ending Story.... And what few mins she saw she didn't like. I feel led on and lied to. I love her, but now I'm not getting her that daily redbull until she watches the entire movie. I'm petty

In photos my skin looks horrible, my face shape looks horrible, my body shape looks horrible, my hair texture, hairline and color is horrible, my sideprofile is horrible, my nose and eyes are horrible, my double chin is horrible, i look horrible because im fat but when im slim I look still horrible. Even my very good lookin clothing turn horrible looking when i wear them.

I would really enjoy takin selfies and outfit pictures but i just look way too strange and ugly on photos especislly outdoors.. bright lights are my big enemy

Just wish had money to fix this all

i love and care for him so much, i admire him so much as a person but he can just be so mean to me

for example all day at work today (we work together at a restaurant that his parents own) he seemed so cold and distant, he barely talked to me all day & when he did he was just yelling at me to do something

as soon as we got back to his house from work & showered & got intimate he became happy again. i wasnt even really ready for intimacy at the time because i was tired from work, as soon as he started touching my private area i said no but he kept going, then when i started crying he just left the room until he could come back and try again

as soon as we were done being intimate he took me home & didnt hug me or tell me he loved me before he left, he usually does both

he does these kinds of things often, he can be super sweet at times but then other times he can be so cruel, sometimes i feel like hes only happy when i let him hit

I don’t understand why this is a thing! I hate feeling so randomly stressed, I hate the feeling in my chest it gives me, and I hate feeling like I’m going to die over some random thing my brain decided was big deal for some reason! Why?! I wish I could shut off my brain sometimes, or just not care! I can’t stand anything about this! I just wanna feel okay.

i NB20 and boyfriend m25 have been together for a few months and i've been best friends with his little brother for almost 10 years now (my best friend was excited when me and my boyfriend told him we're together.) when i was 12, their mother was terrible to me when i was trying to get away from my abusive household and sicked her oldest child on me. i never actually let it go, i was a child searching for an adult to help me. i told my boyfriend i didn't want anything to do with his mother until i could prepare myself or the such. on my boyfriends little sisters birthday me, my boyfriend, and his son were at Spencers (we were in the front of it and looking at the plushies and backpacks they had, my boyfriends son was walking further in the store and i went after him, his son saw bfs mom and ran to her. i was panicked and ran to my boyfriend to tell him his mom was there. she said 'apparently we have a past.' to me and i was very obviously uncomfortable to be around her, so my boyfriends sister walked around Spencers with me and got me away from their mother. maybe a week later his little sister told me their mom said 'i don't remember her so i'm not apologizing,' i immediately told my boyfriend and he was pissed off, she had been better with her kids for years, but she said that about me. i told him until she can give me an apology even if it's 'i'm sorry i don't remember you, i'm sorry if i had done something that upset you.' that when we have a kid she will not be allowed to see it whatsoever because if she can't be nice to me or try to make amends that she can't see our child because it'll be a part of me and he said that was understandable, he is really upset that she said that about me.

i just got my drivers license 3 weeks ago. my dad mostly works and my older brother is my guide while i gain more confidence on the road.

to start off, we never had a good history to begin with. he was super hostile with me when i was younger and yelled a lot.

so, i was already cautious having him in the passenger seat to guide me. lately he has been calmer but still yells a lot. sometimes before bed i hear him yelling at his gf saying mean stuff while playing games.

today while driving home he was ok at first but started getting hostile at minor errors or judgments he would not make. and increasingly sounded more and more hostile.

i did my best to keep my cool and didn't yell back and kept telling him not to yell. so, then i started driving worse.

i'm just so so so tired of it. i know i am not half as bad a bad driver as he says i am but how am i gonna be better if he is so hostile and yelling all the time???

he has always treated me like garbage. it's not easy to be a mentor but that's his responsibility to remain calm just as it is mine to drive safely. but how am i supposed to drive safely if he is so critical of tiny errors. who wouldn't get triggered by that??? especially as a new driver!

i've just lost so much of my confidence and i dont want him to be my guide anymore. he's freaking lucky i didn't crash the car with how hostile he was. i'm proud of myself for remaining calm especially with how triggered i was, but i js know my parents will take his side and say he is more experienced i should listen.

i just want someone on my side haha

I want to change and be better so badly and I keep promising people I will but fail to do so. It’s not like I’ve made no progress but still. I can’t forget the things I did in the past. I so badly want to prove myself but I can’t. I can’t forget anything. I keep wondering when I’ll be punished for my sins. I have so many of them. No one really knows what I’m like deep in my heart. I’ve hidden so much from everyone. I keep thinking they’ll end up hating me. I’m always making the people around me angry without even trying. It’s only a matter of time before it all ends. I’m not trying to act like a victim I know I’m not one but I’m really hurting!! Is there something I can do to be better!!

Grrrrrrrr my weight makes me so upset and sad and whenever I think about it puts me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. it’s been like this for like half my life (and im 16) and i want it to stop because i can’t concentrate on anything because i feel so big and fat and stupid and im still not even skinny AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

what’s worse is i managed to lose weight in like 2024 but then i gained it back because i got busy with school + work + college applying + other things

So now i just feel big and ugly and stupid and I feel like I only had one year where I looked good and now it’s over because everyone’s like ohh ur going to get so big when ur an adult!

And whenever I ask my mom or someone for reassurance they’re like “ummm why don’t u just eat less walk more” even tho that’s literally all I think about all the time all th time all the time all the time all the time I want to get on freaking ozempic so all of my favorite clothes can fit again

I always get so upset and I can’t pur any clothes on and I end up in the same exact outfit every day and it’s worn out and I look like an idiot bum because it’s literally all that fits that I feel decent in and I want to have a unique style like before but I literally cannot wear any of those clothes anymore bc I can’t lay off the fucking cookies and shit 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM ALWAYS TWICE AS FUCKING BIG AS EVERYONR AND I HONESTLY JUST LOOK DUMB IM SO FED YP I FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT AND BIG AND LARGE IM SO EMBARRssing Idk I cry when I look at my old photos because idk what I did to become so big and large and big. and like it’s embarrassing that I liked how I looked for exactly three months and then never again.

idk I feel like I look really embarrassing because I want to dress cool but somerimes It feels like everyone who does that weighs like 3 pounds so I feel like I look dumb compared to them. but maybe im just always on my phone. idk im in a weird period in general where I have like no friends and nobody likes me at school and Im applying for colleges except I don’t think im going to get in anywhere and then everyone is going to make fun of me and im still going to be fat #big and also I have like 19 undiagnosed disorders that make me just upset and sad all the time and likeeeeeee idk im not feeling any of this i just want to die.

Ok im done bye guys 😍😍thanks for listening

This is from a long time ago, but I do have to get it out somewhere I guess. I am a 38m. One Friday night when I was 18 I called up my long time friend, we will call Sam, to see what he and everyone was up to. Only Sam did not answer the phone. Instead his friend Craig answered the phone. Craig proceeded to tell me that they all hated me and did not want to be my friends. I in turn some how ended up at a random persons apartment and got blacked out drunk. Stupidly I continued to hang out with this group of guys. We never talked about the events of the night in question, but I couldn't help but feel like they did not want me around. It was not until I returned home from a trip I took to Europe in 2012 that I finally said enough is enough. I ceased all contact with the toxicity of my so called friends and ended up moving cross country years later.

Fast forward to the now! People are jerks man. I have tried for years to make new friends, but no one gives a shit about you! I have spent the last 14 years attempting to make new friends. It is always the same. I reach out to them. I ask how they are and they respond to it. Yet it is never returned. I know they reach out to people because they are always hanging out with others. I have done the inviting myself to things in the past, but let us all be honest with each other if you did not invite someone you never wanted them there. Group chats that you have to hear about, but never apart of because you aren't that important. Camping or hunting trips that you see pictures of, but are never invited to attend. I know I am rambling, but I have been dealing with this for 20 years. I just want a friend to hang out with. I am not here for advice on how to fix this stupid shit. I just want to vent it out loud anonymously because I know it would do no good to tell the offenders.

So here is to the assholes that treat people like this, you are the scum of the earth!

My older brother had his football friends over Saturday. They were screaming at the game and talking to me on commercials, last year they didn’t want me around. I went to the movies later and later changing into my night shorts my laundry basket wasnt the same my shorts and panties I just put on top were not on top of and the ones in my jeans I remember are gone, why guys ??? My dumb dog started eating them a couple years ago and now I have to worry about guys too, not really sure what to do either ??

idk if this is considered bullying so i wont label it as that but i genuinely despise when boys tap your shoulder and laugh when you look or that stupid thing they do when they say their friend has a crush on you or just when they say your name so you'd look back

its been happening to me way more often

this has been happening since i was in middle school, i know what it means

a boy tapped my shoulder and i legit just started crying and trying to run-walk away because i just cant take it anymore

it pisses me off and reminds me constantly how ugly i am and how low they think i am by treating me like an animal

i just cant stop thinking about killing myself and being reborn as a man who isn't autistic, i want to claw off the skin on my arms so i can be distracted by the feeling of being so ugly

My credit karma won't let me in, my t-mobile app won't work so I can't fix my credit karma. Idk what insurance number to call to get a new insurance card for my very important doctors appointment coming in october that I haven't even scheduled yet. I didnt realizd how soon october was and I am freaking tf out. And the last few days my check engine light has turned on and off. I tried to take it to O'Reillys yesterday but shit happened and i couldnt. I feel like I have absolutely no help, and yk what? Its true. I dont have any friends, true. I lost them all because I dropped out and took care of my brother in hs. I dont have any family, true. Because my mother acts like a child. My "family" hardly knows me, they don't talk, they don't have events. My "family" hates my mother because of how she treated me and now they don't even talk to me because of how I turned out. Not the A star student I should've been. I dropped out so they all hate me. How is that on me? I SAVED my brother. I was coming home to her asleep, him crawling around in his own filth. He got into chill on the ground in a container while I was gone one day. He could've choked. That was my last day of school. I have TOO many problems, not enough time and zero support. I am doing my best I have in years. I'm keeping my head up but *this is so hard.* Im trying not to be suicidal but its so hard to not drown in my problems right now. My car, I dont have credit I didn't know I needed credit, I wont have a way to get to my job if my car breaks down. I don't even know where to call for my new card. Im just crashing out so hard right now, I want one thing to be fixed today. Just ONE.

Being an adult is probably one of the shittiest experiences currently going through from trying to get out of a toxic home growing up and then being on my own and struggling with finding the right career that pays enough and wanting to go back to school to get my degree. It’s been tough to say the least. I guess as I’m venting. I’ll also ask for any advice on how to make more money.

I am 15M i am in the 9th grade supposed to be in the 10th but i missed a year and im probably gonna be held back another year because my mom is struggling to pay the fees im afraid ill end up alone im afraid ill end up being a failure thinking this just makes me wanna give up now im thinking ill never have a future