Hey all, 9 month PSSD sufferer here from duloxetine/wellbutrin.
When this event started back in January, I immediately knew something was wrong with my erections. They would take so much longer to form, they would deflate immediately once stimulation stopped, and they just didn't feel like I remembered.
Over the ensuing months, I noticed that even when I did get an erection, I couldn't press it like I used to be able to - grinding against my wife felt weird and uncomfortable, and frequently caused pain on the underside of my penis.
As this conditioned continued, I began getting a better understanding of what was wrong with my erections. Specifically, I learned that, during an erection, the underside of my penis, as well as the head of the penis, weren't hard the way that the sides of the penis were. They felt soft and squishy. The head, in particular, could be pressed into, like a marshmallow, with the tissue depressing until feeling some type of firmness deep inside.
These same structures of the penis (the underside and the head) no longer contain any erogenous feeling for me. I do maintain slight erogeny on the sides of the penis, and the skin just underneath the head. But the underside and head only have tactile sensation, nothing erogenous.
I have since learned that this is called "soft glans syndrome", or "glands insufficiency / failure to initiate."
[i originally had a labeled diagram here but it was removed by the mods]
For visual reference, in the picture above, I am speaking of the area labeled "corpus spongiosum", as well as the glans (not labeled, but is the "head" of the penis). The "corpus cavernosa", meanwhile, make up most of the erectile tissue along the upper/sides of the shaft. For me, these become firm and provide most of the rigidity of the erection.
During an erection, the corpus spongiosum and glans do feel warm to me, so my hypothesis is that blood is flowing through these areas, but is not being trapped for whatever reason.
Although I'm describing male anatomy here, I do wonder whether an analogous disruption of genital arousal/engorgement could contribute to the loss of clitoral erogenous sensation or engorgement reported by some women with PSSD.
I've scoured the depths of the internet on this condition, and it is frequently mentioned in both the PFS and PSSD subreddits, so I'm assuming it's part of this horrible condition we have. Over time, I've come across one reddit user in particular named Top_Designer_8790. He has frequently posted in the PSSD subreddit about this issue. He's caught my attention because he is extremely articulate and has clearly spent an enormous amount of time researching this condition; he's suffered from it himself over the past 5 years and has trialed many treatments. His posts/comments just have a heightened level of sophistication, comparable to Dr. Powers' posts IMO. Unfortunately, he seems to have not been on reddit the past couple months, so my messages to him and attempts to get him to join Powers' reddit and the discord group have not been successful.
Personally, I also find his story interesting because it overlaps extremely well with mine (his and my other symptoms include tinnitus, anhedonia, and a complete inability to feel tired). But I know that's not true for everyone.
I mention him because I wanted to share some of his ideas/experiences. First, he separates sexual function into three layers:
- libido - mental desire; the wanting of sex; sexual thoughts/horniness
- sexual arousal - the feeling of becoming sexually aroused in response to sexual thoughts
- erectile/neurovascular mechanics - the actual engorgement
I think we as a community tend to lump all of these things together as "libido", which is a mistake. He writes about having libido, but it's not triggering the sexual arousal process that leads to engorgement. I think I am the same. Although I feel "asexual", I still think about sex, I still find the same physical traits on women attractive that I always have, but the difference now is that those thoughts/visual sightings no longer trigger an immediate arousal and engorgement process like they used to (either at all, or heavily delayed). Thus, the disconnect between libido and nothing else happening past that point leads us all to feel like our sexuality has been deleted.
Notably, he's trialed many different treatments over the years, with success from four in particular. (Note: to be clear, I'm not recommending that anyone try these drugs/supplements based on one person's Reddit history; I think we all know by now that what helps one person can severely hurt someone else.)
- Cabergoline gave him a window within an hour, which restored his glans sensation, normal engorgement, normal erectile reflex, and dramatically improved sexual function. However, it faded within a day, and later doses did not reproduce the effect but rather produced severe insomnia, anhedonia, and worsening sexual function.
- L-histidine gave him a dramatic window after 30-40 minutes with similar benefits as cabergoline. However, it also faded, and also could not be reproduced.
- He also describes a combination of "clomiphene, growth hormone, Tongkat Ali, ashwagandha, magnesium, arachidonic acid, and GABA", which gave him an entire month-long window where his soft glans disappeared, morning erections became strong, libido/arousal was intense, and sexual function normalized. Obviously this one is flawed a bit since there's so many variables involved, and we know now that some of those listed (ashwagandha in particular) can cause the problems that we all experience.
- Finally, his most durable benefit came after using BPC-157, which he injected for 18 days. The broader window eventually faded, but he says the restoration of sexual pleasure/orgasmic sensation did not; it remained even years later. His soft-glans/engorgement problem persisted, so in his telling BPC-157 permanently improved one component of his sexual dysfunction without fixing the neurovascular/engorgement component.
He has a lot of speculative ideas as to why these treatments worked while others he tried either did not or even made him worse (cerebrolysin, apormorphine, pramipexole, P5P, remotiv, hCG, TRT, trenbolone, masteron, boldenone, L-carnosine, melatonin). I don't know enough to pass judgment on whether his reasoning makes sense or not, as his arguments are of a level of analysis above my comprehension (same thing I experience reading most of Powers' comments, I have no idea wtf is going on lol). But his overarching idea seems to be that the underlying PSSD state impaired central neurotransmission controlling sexual arousal, especially dopamine signaling in the hypothalamus/MPOA. He's careful to say that it is not about the amount of neurotransmitters themselves, but rather the signaling. Notably, he mentions GABA frequently, which Dr. Powers seems to have been leaning into more as of late. His last few posts before he went dormant on reddit also seemed to be leaning into gut theory models, but after being traumatized by PoopPush's discord messages over the last month, I'm choosing to overlook wherever that was headed.
Of special note to me, Top_Designer_8790 has noted that, during his windows, not only did his sexual functioning return to normal, but his tinnitus disappeared and his sleep normalized. That is especially inspiring to me, as my tinnitus currently serves as a second type of trauma I have to live with each day. If whatever is driving this eventually proves treatable in a way that improves both my PSSD and tinnitus, I think I would be the most grateful/appreciative person to have ever existed.
With all that shared, my main reason for posting this was to inquire with all of the PSSD/PFS patients and sufferers here. For those of you with PSSD/PFS who experience erectile dysfunction: does your erection look/feel like what I'm describing? Specifically, do the corpora cavernosa become reasonably firm while the underside/corpus spongiosum and glans remain disproportionately soft? I wonder if this is a defining characteristic of our sexual dysfunction, and maybe most sufferers just don't have the terminology to describe exactly what is wrong with their erections. I'm hopeful this post may be educationally helpful in that way.
I apologize for the length of this writing, I did not want to use AI in composing it, and I can be a bit over-explanatory. Thanks to anyone who read it and I'm curious to see if this resonated with others.