Sorry about the writing. I have ADHD and autism. I wrote it this way because I hated how it came out when I tried writing it the normal way.
Be me
Male 24 280 pounds heavy smoker for 4 years.
-Haven't ridden anything accept the car seat in over 6 years.
-Get prescribed antidepressants and start to feel normal for the first time ever.
-Feel great
-Feel better than great
-start going for walks
-Space them out every 2 days to recover
-First few walks 1h
-After that, a 3-hour walk
-the next one a 5 hour walk.
-Decided to go cold turkey on smoking
-Decide the day of making that decision, that now would be a great time to try riding a bike again.
-Proceed to go for a ride
-Immediate regret
-Convince myself to keep going
-The bike trail im on ends and theirs no sidewalk nearby either.
-im on the side of a 4-lane highway.
-Decide to continue
-The only thing I have to safely bike on is a white line so close to the curb that it was barely a foot and a half in width.
-Currently, tired as hell
-Starting to rethink my life's decisions
-Decide to head home
-Get off the bike and walk with it in the ditch.
-Too scared to use the little lane I neivly thought I could ride on.
-Total ride time 1 hour
-Then comes today
-I'm 3 days into quitting smoking
-Feeling like absolute shit
-Decided I'd feel better if I tried riding 1 more time on an actual bike trail this time.
-Proceed to go out and start my adventure
-Things feel different
-Notice I'm not struggling as much.
-Legs feel lighter, lungs feel better
-Realize that my lungs are starting to recover
-Make the decision to ride my walking trail
-The trail goes all the way around the lake I live by
-Everything feels good
-Take a break at the halfway point
-Start to notice how weird my knees feel
-Push on anyways
-Not too long after, regret hits.
-My lungs are burning, my mouth is dry, and I still have 2.8 miles out of 6.8 miles left.
Proceed to regret every decision made till this point.
-See long incline
-Die inside
-Decide now's not the time to be a hero and walk most of it.
-Get back on when the incline is more manageable
-The more manageable incline goes on for longer than I thought it would.
-Tough it out because I'm almost home
-Make it back
-Dead at the door
-Takes 30 min to stop breathing like the air is an all-you-can-eat buffet.
-recover
-Take a shower
-Feel accomplished
-Plan to keep doing it until i no longer need to walk up the incline.