I am long time player, currently playing toplane with Shen and Ornn (mainly shen) as my champions with an ocasional counterpick. I've always been Gold/silver type of player. I consider my knowledge above those ranks but I've never put any effort on improving as a toplaner or as a player (wave control, mechanics, micro, spacing etc.).
However, this year I decided to try, and with just a change in mentality and huge effort in my laning phase the improvement was clear. I started stomping lane and making plays I always thought I will never be able to do.
A month ago or so I peaked Emerald 2. And without basically changing anything on my playstyle (if so, I became even better because I started used Ornn more, since there are so many teamcomps this elo that benefits from him more than shen) I just started to lose. And lose and lose and getting stomped. Of course, I had my mental breakdowns and I trolled here and there by swaping lanes and all that, but not more than 2 or 3 games a week. Most of the time I just try to reset mental and start again. But I can't find a way. I got down to Emerald 4, got stuck there, then Plat 1, and now plat 2. And I feel how my teams are getting worse and worse but my lanes are just as hard.
I know there is this narrative that losersQ doesn't exist, and is probably right, but such an extreme turn is not natural, is not just 50/50 matchmaking. Either the game wanted to boost me and I am not really Emerald level, or is trying to put me down so I have to play another 200 games, this shit is rigged and is fucked up because I love the game but I can clearly feel something is against us players.
Sorry for the rant, I'll probably just have to quit the damn game.